I'm tired of pretending. I'm tired of pretending to be happy. I'm tired of pretending to be alright. I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of having to act fine around my friends. I'm tired of having to take care of myself. I'm tired of being a happy family. I'm tired of worrying about my brother. I'm tired of living.
I looked at my friends. I looked at my brother.
'I just came to say to say goodbye'
I walked to the edge of the cliff and stared down. A tear rolled down my cheek. I heard the crack of a twig.
'Didn't want you to see me cry'
"Koji?" Kouchi questioned
'I'm fine'
I took a step forward
'But I know it's a lie'
I jumped off. But before I could fall Kouchi caught me. I cast my eyes downwards.
'This is the last night, you'll spend alone'
"Koji" Kouchi said kindly. I looked directly into his eyes.
'Look me in the eyes so I know you know'
We continued to stare into each other's eyes. He began to pull me up slowly.
'I'm everywhere you want me to be'
Kouichi pulled me up to stand but I collapsed onto my knees. Kouichi knelt down in front of me like I was 5.
'The last night you'll spend alone'
Kouichi pulled me into a hug and squeezed me tightly.
'I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go'
"I'm here for you Koji" Kouchi told me gently. I broke down. I sobbed into his chest while he soothed me.
'I'm everything you need be to be'
