Here goes again lol hope you all like it and would like to thank banana girl for her help

What about me? Chapter 1

Molly sat in the medical tent wondering why it was so wrong to want to reach out and grab what she wanted.

When she chose to join the army it was to prove to everyone that she could do something with her life. She knew she had made a few mistakes along the way; shagging Smurf behind the back of the Indian takeaway for one and nearly shagging Corporal Geddings was another definite oops.

What she wanted was to be out on tour, and now she had got that. But then she had found out she was with Smurf and although she had made sure he wouldn't let slip about their one night stand, she still felt uncomfortable.

After she had saved Smurf in the mine field he wouldn't stop following her around. Once or twice she told him to p*** off but he wouldn't take the hint everywhere she turned he was there, she made it clear there was only just friends nothing else, but it didn't register in his brain.

One night she was sat in her usual place on the roof off the 's***' when Captain James had come over to talk to her. "Why do you sit up there every night?" he asked.

"Because you get a better view of the stars, that and it's the only place I can get peace and quiet from them other noisy bleeders nagging me for a quickie or some pop-tarts." She replied, causing him to shake his head and laugh. Molly brought up the subject if her upcoming R&R, "any chance you can swap the rota around boss?"

"Why's that Dawes?" he asked.

"Honestly, I really don't want to spend all that time traveling with Smurf, he's doing my head in."

"What's he said or done now?"

"He just doesn't seem to be able to get the bleeding point that I ain't interested in him."

Captain James shook his head and the situation. "I'll see what I can do, but these things are hard to organise, I can't promise anything."

-OG-

In the beginning she hadn't been able to stand Captain 'Stern Face' James. She thought he was a know it all Rupert but gradually things had changed and she started to see a different side of him which she realised she liked. Somehow they came to be 100% by each other's sides.

He hadn't been able to change the R&R so she was stuck with Smurf's company for the journey home. Reaching into her pocket for her phone she noticed a piece of paper fall out which she picked up and opened, amazed at its contents.

Molly,

While you are away please think about how you feel about me. We've had so many funny times together, but singing Don't go breaking my heart won't leave my thoughts.

CJ

-OG-

Two days into her R&R and Molly's family were already doing her head in. She wanted to be back on tour and craved her army family. It wasn't until after she had done it that she realised what a mistake calling Smurf and going to meet him had been. Not long after she arrived she received a phone call from Major Beck explaining that Jackie had sprained her ankle and they needed to cut her R&R short so she could return to take over.

Back in Afghan the atmosphere between her and Captain James felt weird. He didn't seem to want to talk to her once he found out that she went to Newport. She tried telling him nothing happened but he wasn't having any of it so that was how it was that she found herself in her medical tent wondering why her why she couldn't have a bit of happiness. The seeing then pen and paper on the side she had a thought. "I'll show this d*** what he's missing."

CJ

I've tried to talk to you, but you won't listen. I went to Newport to keep an eye on Smurf. He was fragged; we both were. I did as you asked and thought about how I feel about you. I have noticed us getting closer, but how you are being now scares me. If you're going to be a totally different person every time you get upset then I don't think I want to know…

Molly