Just an angsty drabble I wrote for a warm up. Tonight I'm FINALLY getting s10 of SVU, and with it such wonderful eps as Wildlife, Zebras, and Lunacy. Oh, the posteps!! LOL. Enjoy, and please review!

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She has never looked more beautiful.

She is the epitome of grace and loveliness today, from her sparkling chocolate eyes to her long tapered fingers which are tugging at each other nervously. But it isn't a bad kind of nervous. It's a nervousness that says she's waited for this day her entire life, and possibly even longer. It's a nervousness that only a woman who is truly, madly in love can have, and it only makes her more beautiful in my eyes.

A tear rolls down my cheek, and I stubbornly wipe it away. I won't cry. Not today. Today, I'm going to share in her joy and let it envelop my heart.

"I now pronounce you husband and wife," the priest says with a warm smile. Even he can see the love and devotion in her eyes to the man standing across from her. "You may kiss the bride."

The man across from her grins and reaches out, slowly raising her veil. I feel envy roil through my veins as I watch, and I try to fight it. I don't want to be jealous. I want her to be happy. He gently caresses her cheek before leaning in to kiss her tenderly, and a wave of applause and cheers roar from the audience. Like me, they know how she's suffered, and like me, they only want her to have every joy that life will allow.

I lean back and sigh. If I had tried a little harder, if I had just held her a little closer, who knows? This might have been us getting married, starting our beautiful life together. But I was young and impetuous, and I didn't realize what I had in the palm of my hand until she was gone. So I suppose I deserve all of this. If I hadn't been so blind, so foolish...

"It gives me great pleasure to introduce for the first time, Mr. and Mrs. Elliot Stabler," the priest announces, and everyone stands as the new husband grabs his bride's hand and leads her down the aisle. I remain in the shadows and watch forlornly as they reach the end of the aisle, and he turns her around and pulls her into a passionate kiss.

"Save some for the honeymoon!" someone in the crowd shouts, and the entire group erupts into boisterous laughter as she buries her face in her new husband's shoulder.

The newlyweds kiss again, then continue their walk, and the group follows. Soon I am all alone in the shadows, with only the sound of my breathing to let me know that I haven't died from this horrible pain yet. I love her, I always have but I screwed it up. And now she's married to the man of her dreams. As mad as I try to be at him, I know the kind of man he is, and I know that he'll make her happy for the rest of his life. Unlike me.

I am destined to walk this path of life alone, the only way I've ever known. The only thing that keeps me going is the small, fading hope that one day I might find someone to accompany me. But it's a dying prayer, one I doubt will ever be granted.

I turn around and disappear into that looming darkness with a heavy heart, away from the joy and laughter.

I love you, Olivia Benson. Be happy.

The End

A/N: Just to be clear, he was watching Liv marry El. Yay! But as to who 'he' is... well, use your imagination. It could be Brian, Porter, anyone! LOL. I hope everyone enjoyed this, thanks for reading, and please review!