Author's Note: Hi everyone, this recently came to me as a nightmare. I changed it around a bit, but the nightmare consisted of my entire family dying and I was left alone. I felt like writing it down and it turned into a Twilight fan fiction. Without further ado, please read and review. Thanks a lot.
| Alone |
Chapter One
As I stare at the three coffins in front of me I feel numb. I feel as though I am watching a 3D movie in the basement. This can't be real. This can't be happening to me! They're gone. They're gone and I just can`t believe it. Life wasn't supposed to go this way. Just last week I had gone to my mom for advice, I was worried about not having enough friends. Pathetic now as I think back. They were coming to visit me at school. It was icy road conditions and a transport truck lost control. It was too icy for them to stop. Two other cars hit them from behind. Six died that night, three of them where my parents and brother.
I know there are a lot of people around me, some are crying, some are in hysterics. Not one face is dry. Some people come up to me and just give me bone crushing hugs. What can they say? Nothing. Nothing they can say will make me feel better; they will never understand losing their entire family in one night.
A man I recognize but can't remember the name of comes up to me. "Isabella."
I look into his dark blue eyes, "I'm so sorry for your loss." The pain and misery poured through his words. He puts a hand on my shoulder and the other on my cheek. He then leaned in and planted a kiss on my forehead.
"Thank you." I manage to say.
"I know this isn't the best of times to talk to you about this but our adopted son, Edward, also lost his family very tragically a few years ago. No one here will understand better than Edward. He's the same age as you, and we've had him as our son for a good long five years now."
"I'll think about it," I lie. I didn't want to talk to anyone especially right now. I didn't want to have to think or talk or do anything. In all honesty, I wanted to be left alone. I wanted the funeral to be over with and to move on with my life, alone.
I knew of Edward though, he had been a shy, quiet, kept-to-himself type of guy in high school. He moved to this town in the middle of Grade 9. We didn't say a word to each other until Grade 11 in biology class. We were lab partners and forced to speak to one another. I was also shy and uncomfortable around boys. I distinctly remember Edward being very, very attractive and my heart fluttered whenever our eyes met. It was rumoured that he was adopted by the Cullens but I never gathered the courage to ask him.
Mr. Cullen gives me a sad smile and walks off. Someone brings me a seat and I gladly take it. I check my watch, two hours before everyone leaves. The funeral was tomorrow at noon. I'm staying with a family friend because I don't want to be in my house all alone, surrounded by all of their stuff.
I have no cousins, aunts or uncles and my only grandparent is in an old folk's home for the terrible Alzheimer's disease. She doesn't remember that she had a daughter so she would not know me. At the corner of my eye I see someone pull up a chair beside me. I look at them and burst into tears.
"Alice!" I wrap my arms around her and she cries hugs me back. Alice and I have been friends since Grade 1 when a mean boy pushed me over for getting in his way, and Alice came over and pushed him back. She helped me up and we instantly became best friends.
"How are you holding up?" she whispers into my ear. We release each other, and she swivels her chair around so it's facing mine.
I sigh, "Honestly? Not good, at all."
"Well I am going to be here the whole time okay?" she promises me, her eyes sparkling with tears.
I give her an attempt at a smile. "Thanks Ali."
"You're so welcome Bella, it's the least I can do. Did you want to stay over tonight?" Alice asks me. I brighten up at the thought.
"Yes! I'd love too!"
She beamed, "Great!" Alice takes out her phone and texts someone. "All done. A lot of people showed up eh?"
I look around, the room was packed. I saw that many of my brother's high school friends came and their parents as well as many people from the town, and all of my parents friends. It felt like the entire town was here in this room. "Yeah."
I kept glancing around the room, when I made eye contact with Edward. He came? I nudge Alice and she turns around, noticing him too. She gives me wide eyes and mouths, "Edward Cullen?". I give her a quick nod. As I turn back to Alice, I watch him walk through the crowd to where his parents were. They gave him a hug and started talking to him. I saw Mr. Cullen glance at me and then say something specifically to his wife. Edward turned around we made eye contact again.
"Ooh lala!" Alice squealed. I internally rolled my eyes. This was my family's funeral for Christ sake; there was no time for romance here.
I lost interest with the Cullen family and turned my attention back to the coffins. Their bodies were so badly burnt that the funeral staff weren't able to have the caskets open. I was grateful in a way that I wouldn't have to stare at their empty faces, but I was upset that I couldn't hold each one of their hands and tell them I loved them and how sorry I was.
It wasn't just complete devastation and sadness I felt. It was the guilt as well. If only I hadn't kept pressuring them to visit me at school, if only I had let them spend the weekend at home this would never have happened. It's my fault that they died. If only I keep whispering to myself, if only...
I rest my head in my hands and just let myself cry. No one gave me comfort, and I was thankful they didn't. I needed to mourn. I needed to let the pain out.
Alice gets up and gives me some space. I hear people's sobs and sniffles. The chair in front of me is dragged slightly and it startles me but I don't look up. Alice must have sat back down.
"Bella?" a velvety, musical voice rings out softly. I look up at Edward sitting across from me. His bright blue eyes were full of understanding. His beautiful face was scrunched in a pained and remorseful expression.
Maybe Mr. Cullen was right after all...
