Donkay was speechless.

He was staring at the ceiling, unable to sleep. Unable to calm the storm of emotions within.

'It happened. It really happened.'

It happened so suddenly.

It was just a normal day, a regular do-your-Clerical-duties routine that Brother Enoc asked him to do along with him. He did everything he needed to do in record time with him, and decided to take him back to his place to hang out. Nothing out of the ordinary. Nothing noteworthy, until-

Hot breaths mingling, hands roaming over their bodies, a grunt as his new lover pressed his hips against his own...

His body responded to the memories, tingling lightly, his face flushing. Donkay quite liked it.

And feared it.

'Was this right? Was this meant to be? Or did I disobey..? Did I do wrong against the Goddess? Does he want me? Was this just... a one-night stand?'

Donkay rubbed his eyes, desperate to put all his doubts aside. He can't think about it now, after he decided to do it. He just woke up and should be enjoying the chill morning air, not feel regret or doubt. He turned over to see him, and smiled gently.

Vahr. His Vahr.

His gray-eyed Guardian, the steady rock to his stream, the moon to his fiery sun, the blue to his red, the-

'Great Goddess above, I am a corny bastard. Yesterday I thought him a close friend and steady ally, now I am spouting romantic bullshit. Speaking of corn, I'm hungry. Didn't get to eat yesterday.'

Donkay blushed again, a hand reaching towards the Guardian's face and flicking away some of the hair from his lovely visage. He remembered their sessions, and absently wiped his mouth at the memory. Thoughts of his vows, his promises to the Goddess invaded his mind again, and he furiously began to wipe at his mouth, a stab of guilt flashing through his very being. It almost felt like he was trying to wipe away the actions his mouth did, his moans, his lips wrapped around-

'Stop. Stop it! It already happened, you dipshit. You liked it, and you know damn fucking well he did too. No use thinking about broken vows when you decided to cross boundaries with your best friend.'

He let out a huff, shaking his head. Whatever. Just another thing to add to the List of Important Things He Will Totally Think About Eventually.

His stomach rumbled, and Donkay groaned, rubbing his eyes. Yeah, definitely hungry. Eat something now, think about his guilt later.

"Mind telling me what you're thinking about?"

Donkay flinched. 'Shit!'

"Haha, now I REALLY want to know what you're thinking about."

Donkay took a deep breath, and turned to look straight into the eyes of Vahr. The Guardian was pushing himself up, stretching stiff muscles as soon as he got into a sitting position. Donkay gave his muscles an appreciative glance, enjoying the sight of skin marred with scars.

'Damn, added a few of my own on his back. He already has a tough job, I shouldn't be adding more marks. The monsters do that enough.'

"Anytime now. Or we can stay in bed the entire day. I would like that."

Donkay blushed, smacking Vahr's arm.

"Ha ha," Donkay said sarcastically, rolling his eyes. "Also, good morning."

Vahr chuckled, reaching for Donkay's hand and rubbing his knuckles affectionately. "Good morning to you as well, Donks."

The silence between them was comfortable.

...

"...Was this a one-time thing?"

Donkay quickly shut his eyes, catching the sharp breath Vahr drew.

"You mean.. this?"

Donkay nodded, still keeping his eyes shut. "I want to know if this was something meaningful, something more... or was it to scratch each other's itch?"

Silence.

...

More silence.

'Leaving me hanging Vahr? Typical. You always did that-'

A huge burst of laughter startled the Inquisitor, and he quickly opened his eyes just in time to see his Guardian wiping his eyes.

"Donkay, you dumbass!"

"...What?"

"Donkay, please tell me you're being serious."

"If I wasn't, I wouldn't have asked, idiot! Fuck, can't you just answer the question?!"

Vahr held his hands up in surrender, shaking his head.

"Alright alright, I'll answer your damn question," he chuckled out. He cleared his throat, and... fluttered his eyes?

"Oh Vahr, oh Goddess! Yes, yes, you're mine now, oh right THERE, yes, mine forever!"

"What the fuck!?"

Vahr grinned broadly, resuming his impeccable high-pitched imitation of Donkay.

"Mine forever, both as one, mine!"

"Shut the fuck up," the irate Inquisitor snarled, blushing madly. "I did NOT sound like that."

"Really now? I was pretty sure my impersonation of you was spot on."

Vahr leaned over, his face close to the embarrassed male. "And I am sure I got the words right too."

"Tch. Jackass."

What he wouldn't give to wipe the smug grin off his face. He was sure the Goddess can forgive that.

"I liked it when you told me that."

Donkay turned away, feeling a bit nervous. "...Really?"

Vahr scoffed. "Of course I did. Otherwise what we had, our little words to each other, would have meant nothing."

"What about our vows? I am pretty sure you have not forgotten what we promised when we chose the path of a Cleric."

A slight pause. Donkay saw him contemplating the words, choosing them carefully. Maybe, just maybe he also had that guilt in his heart, for betraying the Goddess-

"What about them?"

Or not.

"We kinda broke our vow of chastity. Several times."

"Twice on the kitchen counter too."

"Dipshit."

"Once on the table, and several on this bed."

"...You forgot the closet. Not sure how we ended up there."

Vahr chuckled.

"We did this several times, Donks. We also said several things to each other. And you know what? I'm happy this happened. I'm happy that we said what we said to each other. As far as first times go... I didn't mind it with you. Vows or not, were both happy. I am sure the Goddess would not mind that."

Doubt still plagued his heart. He was elated to hear the response his gray-eyed lover gave him, but...

'Was it alright to do this...?'

"Stop thinking about it, you dork. I can hear your mental cogwheels whirring."

Vahr wrapped him in a hug, nuzzling him. "Just think about us now."

Donkay nuzzled back, feeling his partner tug him down to lay on the bed.

'Maybe he's right. Maybe, just for now...'

His man's lips descended upon his own, and Donkay responded passionately, feeling stirs of lust in his blood. He gazed at his Guardian with affection before closing his eyes and wrapping his arms around him.

'I'll simply give in.'