A Change in Heart
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter, and the nickname S.A.D. wasn't my creation.
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All Hermione's POV
Today is the worst day of the year. I absolutely loathe it. I mean seriously, who created this day?? It's just a day to torment those who are incapable of getting a significant other. Hermione thought to herself. I don't even want to get out of bed. If it weren't for classes, I honestly would stay in my room all day.
What day is it?? Why exactly am I depressed?? It's Valentines' Day; or as I like to call it, Singles' Awareness Day. This is a holiday made to make those who are apparently incapable of getting a significant other, miserable. Why do they even consider this a holiday? It's more of a sick tormenting day! Every year it's always the same: I get my hopes up, and then they crash. It's going to be the worst this year, this I'm sure of it. Each year, I'm surrounded by snogging couples that I have to dock points off of. But this is different. This year, all of my friends have someone. It seems like everyone does but me. Harry and Ginny are finally together, Ron's with Lavender, continuing to ignore the fact that I've secretly harbored a crush on him since 2nd year, Seamus is with Parvati, and Dean is with Padma. Even Neville has someone. Neville and Luna are officially dating.
I swear either the world is out to make me feel bad; Cupid has terrible aim, or both. Each year Harry, Ron and Ginny say the same thing. 'You'll find that someone. Don't worry, this'll be the year.' But it never is. And that's easy for them to say, but they all have successful relationships. Is this what I'm destined to? Is this what I have to look forward to?? A future of loneliness? I really hope not. It's bad enough now, but will this continue, and if so, for how long?? I don't know how long I'll be able to stand it. Maybe it'll be different this year. It's worth a try. Maybe…who really knows?
Ok, the first step out is the hardest. I was the first one out of all the es in my dorm to be ready, but the last one out. I'm still hesitating. I don't know if I can take being the only in 6th year to not get a Valentine. And it's not even the card I care about; it's the feelings behind it. Just to have someone feel love towards me, the know-it-all, or to take care in finding the perfect gift for me and to have them worry about me when I get the slightest injury. Someone to always support me, and someone who will constantly and unexpectedly sweep me off my feet with loving and tender caresses. Someone who thinks that I'm beautiful no matter what I'm wearing or what I look like. Someone who can catch me when I fall and someone who will comfort me when my world is tearing apart at the edges. But that seems to be my eternal rainbow, even if it seems like it's in reach, I can never quite get it, it always eludes my grasp.
Ok, now I'm stalling and futher depressing myself. I'm just going to go out there, and see what happens. And when all the meals pass slowly as they usually do, I can go to class and drown out my lonely self with taking notes, then going to sleep wishing I never got out of bed. I slowly walked down to the Great Hall, hoping desperately that this year would be different, would be a better one. I entered the Great Hall and made my way to the Gryffindor table. I plopped into a seat. "Hey guys" I chirped, trying to be cheerful and hide my inner grouch. Harry and Ginny, and Lavender and Ron slightly nodded to acknowledged my presence, seeing as they were snogging at the table, but the others gave me friendly waves and 'good mornings.' I asked Parvati if the mail had come yet, but she shook her head. Ok, I thought. I have some time. As soon as I had gotten some OJ and sliced mangos, the flapping of wings alerted me to the arrival of mail.
The two couples who were previously (ahem!) previously engaged, split apart just in time. They all said a quick hello to me, and waited for the mail that was sure to arrive for them. Yep, I knew it. Cries of "Oh (insert boy's name here), you shouldn't have!! You're so sweet. I love you," Was what met my ears. I looked up anxiously to see if anything had arrived for me, but nothing was coming.
I sighed audibly and went back to eating my mangos. But of course, no one heard me, for all of the couples around me were too engrossed in each other to pay me any mind. I was about to leave, when I heard Ron calling my name. Did he want to tell me that he just broke up with Lavender because he finally realized how much of a tart she was, and how much he liked me?? Doubt it, but whatever. "Yeah, Ron?" I called back.
"You have mail coming." He said. I searched his face for signs of insincerity, but he looked like he was serious. I turned around so fast, I got a crick in my neck, and sure, enough. I saw a solitary tawny owl heading towards me. It landed right in front of me and dropped a piece of parchment with a solitary red rose attached. I quickly scanned the parchment and smiled.
A rose for the prettiest and brightest in the school in my eyes;
Don't lose hope. These dunderheads around you aren't worth your time.
Prince Charming is cliched anyway, who needs him when there are gorgeous Slytherins?
-Anonymous
Choosing to ignore the comment about Slytherins, I held the rose gently in my hand and grinned idiotically. Without another word, I stood and walked out of the Great Hall, leaving behind me the incredulous looks and cries of protest among my friends, especially Ginny and Lavender, who wanted to read what the note said.
Hmm, maybe this year will be different.
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A/N: Yes, I am aware that it's not Valentines Day!!! But, still…please review. When I started this, I was slightly depressed, so reviews will literally brighten my day!!!!!
Much love, Amanda
