` Madness
(Dib's POV)
This is wrong, it's so very, very wrong. What am I doing? Why am I here with you? Why am I on your side now? I used to hate you - no, I despised you! I wanted to ruin you every time I saw you! To show the world what you really are. You are a monster, a demon, a vile creature. You are an alien. And I Dib Membrane, son of the famous Professor Membrane, have fallen in love with you.
I feel you move around a bit next to me on the bed. I tense, pretending to be asleep. The last thing I need is for you to see me awake staring at the ceiling and pretending that nothing had happened between us a couple hours ago. I tried to forget that we were having a sex three times in a row last night. But we did! I let you!
Why did I let you? What do I know now? I grew angry. I could feel my blood boiling in my body. All because of you! I should just take you to them right now! Yeah, I should! That will show them all! I was right! I was always right! And now, I have proof! Wait a minute… I have proof. YES! He is sleeping next to me right now! All I need is a big bag, shove him in it, and take it to my dad! He will believe me! They will all believe me! I WILL BE SUPERIOR TO THEM ALL! I WILL SHOW THEM IM NOT CRAZY!
I heard something like a small sob next to me and I looked to see what it was.
I felt my heart break a little. I could see Zim, his back facing me. He was crying! I would have never guessed that Zim, the mighty Irken Invader, cry next to me! I gently moved my hand and slowly placed it on his quivering shoulder. I felt him instantly tense. Then I started to slowly rub my hand in a circular motion on his shoulder trying to calm him down. Then He suddenly slapped my hand away and sat up looking at me with teary eyes. He looked heartbroken.
"You liar…" he whispered.
"What?" I asked
"Do you know how much it hurts, to find out that the person you love and trust is planning to betray you? Do you know what it feels like to be used? To be taken advantage of and then tossed aside? Well? DO YOU?" he yelled.
I saw some pinkish colored tears fall from his beautiful eyes. It hurt to see him cry.
"Why would you think that?" I asked even though I had already guessed the answer.
"Zim is no fool. Zim saw you thinking about betraying Zim, you had that look. You always have that look when trying to capture Zim."
It tore me apart to hear this. I gentle cupped his face to my palm and gently started stroking his cheek with my thumb. He looked at me with sad eyes, probably hoping that I would say that he was wrong and that I would never do it to them. I just hugged him and started rubbing his back soothingly, hoping it would be enough for him. After a few minutes he started hugging me back. Then I said the only thing I could say in this situation. The sentence I would have never expected to say to him
"I love you Zim."
He just hugged me tighter. I looked down at him and thought about my previous thoughts. What was wrong with me? I sounded so psychotic person. I sounded like someone that was in a mental hospital. I sounded like a monster. That was the problem with me being with Zim, he would drive you into insanity. He would drive you into madness. All because he would make you love him so much, that you would do anything for him. Even if it meant betraying your own mankind for him...like I did. But the funny thing is, I make NO regrets.
