I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT!

Bella pov

i have been traveling around, looking for a purpose in life. I vowed to myself that if I didn't find anything to be hopeful about, I would find somewhere to lay down and die. I was already in a great depression and in so much agonizing pain. Ever since that day, that horrible painful day...

*Flashback*

All 30 of us were standing in a straight, intimidating line, me in the front as the Alpha. There were about 100 vampires. We were way out numbered, but we didn't care. We didn't expect to win, we expected to walk away alive. We wanted the vamps to back off of our land.

A vamp that I recognized as the mind reader started walking toward me. I did the same and we wound up meeting in the middle of the huge field.

(A/N Bella is thinking her comments and as the mind reader, Edward is responding. In this story, they have only met and once)

the mind reading vamp and I have only met once before, and that was when I told him to get off of our land. He refused and brought his whole clan to where we are right now. Silly, really. He could have just left La Push alone and we wouldn't have a problem. But he just had to be stupid and bring his damn vamp clan here, inconveniencing everyone!

Bella and Edward's conversation-

so, are you gonna leave our land, or are we gonna have a problem?-Bella

why would I do that? You quiliete people have the tastiest blood ever-Edward

you sound psychotic! Just leave Washington now and my pack and I won't have to take matters into our own hands. -Bella

so be it-Edward

end of conversation

he acted like he was walking away when he turned around, attempting to trip me. Even though I was distracted for a fraction of a second, I managed to get him on the ground. I took his hair in between my teeth and yanked. Hard. To the point where it fell out. He yelled in pain. I must have yanked hard because vamps can't really feel pain. While he was laying there, agonizing, I tore him limb from limb. He was practically crying in pain, if it were possible, vamps can't cry. From the corner of my eye I saw my sister starting a fire. I also saw some of the leech clan snarling and ready to pounce. I had to get the job done fast so I could help my pack.

After finishing with his limbs I threw him in the fire my sister made. I mentally thanked her through our joined pack minds. After the job was done I stood in line with my pack. The war has begun.

We managed to get at least 70 vamps but there were just too many. My pack was getting tired so there strategies and reflexes were getting slower and weaker.

In the end my whole pack has died. Including my mother. I loved her dearly. She was the closest person in the world to me. I had no friends. I was always so lonely, she filled my days with happiness. I loved that woman so much, and now...she's gone.

I was lying on the ground seconds away from passing out. I was wounded. Not badly, but wounded. I had a broken arm and a few deep cuts and that was it.

I guess the vamps thought I was dead and left because when I woke up, there was nobody but my dead pack and myself. I was alone. I went to find my mothers wolf body in the large field.

She was near the still burning fire. Even in death she was beautiful. A royal purple color with golden swirls around her right eye...

i wept on her now cold body for a few weeks. No one could never understand my love for this beautiful woman. I loved her with my life. She was my reason for living. She gave me my drive everyday, she inspired me to become alpha, she loved me with her soul...I will never forget her, I vowed to myself

*end of flashback*