One Moment.

In one moment, we all make decisions, which affect our lives forever.

In one moment, I arrived at Sun Hill, and in one moment, I was his DI, and in one moment, he was the worst person to work with, cocky, arrogant, self-serving, my enemy.

In one moment, when a bullet came hurtling towards us, hitting him in the leg and I had to look after him, he went from being my enemy to my almost friend.

In one moment, when my daughter was missing, he went from my almost friend to an actual friend, he hugged me, believed that Abi wouldn't have punished me that much on her own.

In one moment, he nearly became more than my friend, until she arrived, carrying the news that she was expecting.

In one moment, I became someone else's, a kiss in the dark of a yard, and things changed.

In one moment, I found him almost likeable, and sensed that he wanted to tell me something, what, I guess never really knew, but perhaps I could have guessed.

In one moment, I saw him change.

In one moment, we were interrupted, and things were left unsaid.

In one moment, I found that I was pregnant, and in one moment, I told him, instead of the father.

In one moment, I lost a baby, and then a boyfriend, in one moment I was alone again, crying.

In one moment, we were sent overseas, away from England, away from Sun Hill.

In one moment, a bullet came hurtling towards us, again, and in one moment we raced hand in hand down a darkened alley.

In one moment, I kissed him, my body shaking as I did, and in one moment we slept together.

In one moment, he knocked out a suspect, and became my hero, even making me admit that I sometimes needed rescuing.

In one moment, I invited him back to my house.

In one moment, he told me he loved me.

In one moment, I ended it with him, too scared of letting him in.

In one moment, I became the DI, and I think he was happy for me.

In one moment, I berated him for not following my instructions, for treating me as his ex, and not his boss.

In one moment, he fought with Stuart, and he was sent to uniform.

In one moment, he ended up at Specialist Crimes, to which he would one day return.

In one moment, he met Louis Dreyfuss, and then his wife Monica, and in one moment, I could see where this would lead.

In one moment, he announced he was leaving.

In one moment, he told me that he would miss me, and that he was sorry things hadn't worked out between us, and in one moment I had no real reply.

In one moment, he left Sun Hill, holding my hand, and in one moment we said good bye.

In one moment, my phone rang, and in one moment my life changed forever.

In one moment, he'd been shot at again, and I wasn't with him, and in one moment, he was no longer here, he was dead.

In one moment, I felt a sob grow inside of me, until it made its way out, spilling tears down my cheeks.

In one moment, I stand here alone, wrapped tightly by my jacket, hoping to feel warm inside again, and in one moment, I feel cold and empty.

In one moment, I place the flowers next to the headstone, and in one moment I wonder which moment I should have changed, which moment, would have prevented me from being here, and him, not here at all.

In one moment, I wonder what I am going to do without him, in my life.

In one moment, I whisper "Good bye Phil", and in one moment, a tear falls down my cheek.

In one moment, I try to wipe the tear away, but I can't, for after all these moments, this is the last, I'll ever have with him, and in this one moment, I cannot look beyond the past.

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Okay, so it's a little different to my usual style, and it's very repetitive, but it kind of wrote itself. Do you love it or loathe it? Leave me a review and let me know what you thought, please :)