Lonely. 1. Sad because one has no friends or company. 2. Without companions; solitary: "passing long lonely hours looking onto the street".
This is what I am now. Everyone left, just like my family. Huh, I thought it would hurt more than this. I guess after the first time I locked my heart up not to let anyone in. Well it looks like it helped me out, I let no one near me after him. He killed my whole being, all I have left is my music. Music is my life now. I hope that's enough. The music is all around us all we have to do is listen.* Music it flows into me like liquid lightening, a good type of pain.
My Gran thinks that I've shut down. Now she's sending me to this British private school in Liverpool, London. I think I will like it there. But maybe not, all I know is that they have one the best music programs in the world. I am excited about that. It's weird though, feeling excitement again. Well I guess I'm on my to believing that I can be a human again a person with feelings.
Oh one more thing I don't speak. Ever.
