Once in a lifetime someone comes into your life and they some how manage to make everything so much better. When that person comes along make sure you hold onto them tightly and do not let go of them like I did. Screwing up the best thing ever is something you will regret forever.

The world now has become nothing but a blurr and my apathy for the it has grown majorly. How was I possibly supposed to know that letting you go was letting go of my happiness, my hope... EVerything that ever mattered to me. I hope that you're happy with this decision I hope you do not spend every hour of the day wishing it had turned out differently like I do. I sit here hours at a time wishing we were together. Being so far apart all the time hurt but not being together hurts a lot more. You are probably not even close to hurting as much as I am right now. You were and still are my everything. Sasuke I told you constantly how I felt. I guess it just was not enough. I swear you were the one for me. I swear that there is no one in the world that I could possibly be more happy with. You are my one in a million and I just love you so much. I did not want to let go it was the hardest decision in my life. I was just hoping you would not let, hoping you would stop me because you knew you could not live without me because I cannot live without you. I heard you telling friends that you regretted letting me go, if so, why did you not come after me?
I am such a foolish girl for loving you. It hurts so much and I do not know how long I can keep pretending that I am fine. I know you are never going to read this but it certainly makes me feel better spilling out my feelings.


Yea its not editted and I wrote it in ten minutes. I needed to I can hardly take the pain of losing that person who I hold so close to my heart.