This is kind of a sequel to my fic "Urges" but also works on its own. Set throughout the events of "Into Darkness". At this stage Kirk and Spock are having definite sexual relations but it is in no way a functioning established relationship. Also Spock is still reluctantly with Uhura, at least to begin with. Spirk with graphic content esp. in later chapters, also in this one, also angst. Lots and lots of angst. Enjoy!

In the Volcano

1.

Initially Spock had no intention of actually filing the report regarding the events on Nibiri. He had written the report almost straight away, but on looking it over he had very much realised the damning effect it could have on the Captain and put it aside.

He had been contemplating events when the captain had shown up in his quarters, almost hurtling in, buzzing with concern, so close in his space that Spock can sense the tension radiating from him in crashing waves. This kind of thing always annoys him from Uhura, from Kirk it has an entirely different effect. The Captain keeps touching him as he talks, as if he needs to keep reaffirming that Spock is there and whole and safe and his words are a mess of anger, relief and the constant passion of being that constitutes James Kirk.

"I could have lost you Spock! Don't do that to me again, what the hell would I do without you?"

"Captain that is both selfish and hypocritical of you – especially when there is barely a mission we undertake that does not involve you putting your life in danger –"

"That's different Spock!" Kirk is shouting now and, as always he crashes through Spock's self-control until the Vulcan is shouting right back at him, his hands grasping the human's shoulder hard enough to hurt –

"How is it different? Do not presume to tell me either that you are invulnerable or that your life is not at least as valuable as mine! Believe me you would do a lot better without me than I would without you!"

"How dare you commander? I'm sick of you always assuming my feelings to be piss – all just because I can't hide them like you can. If either of us is heartless we all know it's you!"

"If that is the way you feel I suggest you leave my quarters" Spock's voice goes so icy anybody sensible would have been gone like a shot.

"Fuck that shit Spock! Fucking make me!"

"You would like me to, wouldn't you captain?" Spock snarls, shoving Kirk into the wall – "You say I'm unemotional but you're the one who can't get excited unless there's someone around to beat the crap out of you!"

He winces to hear himself, knowing that he has lost control when he starts to adopt the human's manners of speech.

"Yeah? Well we all know how much you like doing that, don't we Spock?"

"Do not even pretend that you do not intentionally provoke me rather than just admit your true feelings –"

"Oh fuck me! I'm being lectured on the art of feelings by a fucking Vulcan! The hell with you Spock."

"Please- " Spock snarls – "Accompany me there Captain."

He pulls Kirk forward to slam into the wall again harder, holding him there relentlessly, grinding his violent erection against him. Kirk has been hard ever since they started shouting at each other and they have both been aware of it, both emitting such waves of heat and lust and need that he might as well be back inside the volcano. Kirk claws for grasp on the Vulcan, scratching hi back as Spock digs nails into his wrists and Kirk arches his body into Spock's and they are kissing viciously, teeth and tongues and lips fighting in a desperate struggle for dominance – makeyoumine – keepyousafe – keepyouwithme – Mineminemine –

It has almost become a pattern, this wild crashing together – their fierce arguments covering up for so much concern and lust and love that both are aware that arguing has become more or less foreplay every time. Each time one of them is endangered they end up fighting and then fucking, mating like animals to reaffirm that they are together and alive. This occasion is going much the same way when the intercom rings.

They barely register at first; Spock's eyes having taken on that glare of burning blackness that Kirk now recognises as an arousal only sated by savage animalistic intercourse and fuck that makes him want it just as much. Spock's hand is rubbing against Kirk's cock and they are both extremely aware of the painful hardness of the other through clothes that were due to come off any minute now – when the intercom rings again insistently.

"Spock? Spock it's me, let me in I need to see you."

Spock deflates a little just at the sound of her voice and Kirk cannot stop transferring the angry thought –

How have you not dumped her already?

Spock sighs, not even sure himself and disengages reluctantly from the human he wants to let in the one he doesn't particularly. Kirk pries himself off the wall just in time for Uhura to come whirling in, no sorry-am-I-intruding, just a –

"Captain, I didn't know you were here" that quite clearly means – "I really wish you weren't – now please fuck off". Kirk grits his teeth –

"I'll – just – get going then" he mutters, leaving quickly – and furiously, punching the wall outside so hard that he then has to take his hand over to Bones in med bay.

Meanwhile Uhura throws herself at Spock, throwing her emotions in his face, hurting his head with the force and sound of her wailing concern and all he can think about is that he is still hard as hell and he really hopes that she does not notice and think it is for her.

_x_

Spockblocked! I'd like to just note that I don't hate Uhura as a character (much) I just really hate her as Spock's gf. In the next section starts the angst.