Hey guys! BOOM Brand new story! This is gonna be a short one because I'm actually working on a longer AOT story so when that comes out you should also check it out. It'll only be three or four chapters but really long chapters. But I really wanted to work on this Tokyo Ghoul story so bad. I've been working on this for months. But I hope you guys really enjoy this cause I think it's pretty cool. I do not own Tokyo Ghoul or characters used. Enjoy.
There was something different about Kaneki. You may think to yourself 'everyone is different' or 'everyone is special in their own way' but that's not the case for Kaneki. See, it's a fact that in the world there are five people who look similar to you, but no one shares the same thing with Kaneki. No one looks like Kaneki. At least, that's what he knows. He had never met anyone with the same power he held, and even if there was, he'd never know. He believed the power was held in his eye, and he had never seen five people with the same eye.
Kaneki figured out at a young age that time was an illusion. A thing made by people to label the setting of the sun. Somehow, he could control it. Kaneki didn't know why he could, but whenever he wanted to, he could stop time. Only for a couple hours though, no more than three. Over the years, he had learn that only living things and whatever the living thing was touching, whether human or animal, would stop. So Kaneki viewed the world where people existed, but they did not exist.
Kaneki had seen what it was like for leaves and petals to swirl in the wind, without the fear of someone stepping on them. Kaneki was able to view the ripples of water with peace. He learned expressions by seeing paused laughter, or weeping without a sound. He was free to roam between traffic and people without fear. Kaneki had seen the world in it's natural state. He learned of the beauty it held, and he was able to really see it.
He found himself stopping time while he was at work as he was older now. Usually once Hide got his coffee. Kaneki was sure it was a nickname, Hide's name must be longer, too long to shout when his coffee was ready. He usually got a regular coffee with a splash of milk, two sugars, and a chocolate pastry. Kaneki always saw him reading some new manga every time he came in, Kaneki noticed that he had work on the table. He must be a procrastinator. Must be a good one since he never really seemed worries about anything. Kaneki liked that about Hide. Never a worried look on his brow. Like a child who wasn't old enough to know about stress yet. Well, not that Kaneki knew why that was yet.
Hide had his headphones on, in mid sip of drinking coffee. Kaneki could hear the music but wasn't sure what band it was, he didn't usually listen to music anyway. Hide was halfway through the third volume of Death Note, his lips blandly on the rim of the cup.
Kaneki had his elbows on the table, his hands on his cheeks with a small smile. The coffee house was quiet. Nishiki and Touka was (were) shouting at each other, no noise fell from their mouths. Kaya was starting to make coffee and Hinami was shyly watching. The few customers that were there, read or were eating some kind of food. But Kaneki couldn't care, he cared about looking at the details of Hide's face.
How clear and pale Hide's skin was, the little pink on his nose from the steam of the coffee. Kaneki tried to figure out if Hide's long hair was a honey brown or dirty blonde. He looked at Hide's chocolate eyes glowing and the small glint in them. God, he was beautiful. Kaneki could write a book about how beautiful Hide was. Kaneki raised up his finger and pushed back Hide's hair from his face, letting the back of his finger stroke Hide's cheek. He snapped out of it and lowered his hand.
"Stop it," Kaneki muttered to himself, "It's not right to do that."
Kaneki shook his head and rubbed his face. He hadn't even had a real conversation with Hide, but Kaneki was sure that it was his fault for that. Hide seemed to talk to Touka and Nishiki whenever they passed by, but Kaneki stayed behind the counter when Hide came in. Always too shy. Always hiding like he had his whole life. It had been an hour probably and it was about time Kaneki got back to work. He moved his chair back to the table he stole it from and walked back behind the counter. Kaneki closed his eye and took in a deep breath.
"Screw you too, sex maniac!" Touka yelled, her hands on her hips.
"Ah whatever, at least I can get laid. How about you start acting more like a lady and maybe you can get yourself a boyfriend." Nishiki said before dropping off two coffees at a table. Only a few stared at the fight.
"Oh blow it out your ass!"
"Guys, will you please stop fighting during hours? We have customers." Kaya called.
Chatter started to roar again in the shop, Kaneki sighed. He enjoyed the silence for awhile, he chuckled softly and started to clean the counter.
"Um, hi, Kaneki? Is it?"
Kaneki looked up. Hide half smiled at him and raised up his hand. Kaneki gripped the rag tightly in his hand.
"Uh, yes? Can I help you?" Kaneki asked. He thought his heart was about to crawl up his throat.
"Oh! Awesome, I got it right. Can I get a refill? My coffee got cold so I want a hot one this time. I don't know what happened."
Hide passed Kaneki an empty cup, Kaneki raised an eyebrow. "You still drank it? Even when it was cold?"
"Well yeah, I can't be rude and not finish it," Hide laughed and scratched the back of his neck, "Besides, you make the best coffee. Even tasted good cold!"
Kaneki covered his mouth and smiled, "Thank you, that's very nice of you. I'll make you a fresh cup."
"Thanks, pal. Call me when it's done."
Hide walked back to his seat and put his headphones back on. He sat down and started to read again. Kaneki looked at him as he steadily started to make his coffee. Touka leaned back on the counter and scoffed.
"Can you believe that jerk?" Touka asked, "He's such an asshole sometimes."
"Well, you know you can be mean sometimes too, Touka." Kaneki murmured.
"Excuse you?" Touka didn't turn her head, but shot a glare. Kaneki stood up straighter.
"Um, I mean, yeah. He can be a jerk sometimes."
"Mmmhm, I thought that's what you said," Touka turned and leaned over the counter, "Where's that coffee going. I'll take it for you when you're done."
Kaneki poured mild in the cup and dropped two sugar cubes, "Thanks, and to Hide over there."
"Nagachicka? Yeah, sure."
"So how's school?" Kaneki asked for smalltalk purposes.
"Eh, alright. I wish I could get in some more study time but I always have to close here. It's a pain in the ass."
"I don't mind closing for you. If you feel like you should study more I don't mind."
"Wait are you serious?" Touka tilted her head, "It would be great if you could, I feel like I get behind so easily. But you study too."
Kaneki nodded, "Yeah, sure. I can close, besides, I really don't study that much so I can waste some time."
"Pfft,must be nice having things come easy, huh nerd?" Touka said, sounding jealous almost.
Touka got a liner and grabbed the cup, "You're alright, Kaneki. Thanks."
"No problem."
Touka walked off to Hide's table and dropped off his coffee. He hung his headphones around his neck and smiled up at her. They chatted for a bit, Touka handed him a pen and he started to write on a napkin. Kaneki thought Hide had a crush on Touka. Every time they talked Hide seemed happy. Kaneki bit his lip and ran his fingers through his hair. He started to clean up his station again. Touka slapped down the napkin on the counter, casing Kaneki to jump.
"What?!" Kaneki asked.
Touka smirked wildly, "Looks like someone isn't actually a big dork after all. You might be a stud," Touka pushed the napkin closer, "You got yourself a phone number."
"I...I got a what?" Kaneki picked up the napkin, his eye widened, "Wait, is this from Hide?"
Touka nodded, "Asked me to give it to you since you never come over to his table. He said 'text me whenever you're free and I'll reply every time'."
Kaneki's cheeks grew a dark shade of red. He felt warm. He hid his face behind the napkin.
"Hey, don't get flushed already, it's just a number, not a proposal."
"I know that! But it's a big deal to me…" Kaneki trailed, the color fleeting from his cheeks, "I've never gotten a phone number before."
"Do you think you're going to text him?"
Kaneki licked his lips. When he was nervous he would look at the time. He looked at the wall clock. It was 3:48, Hide usually left at 8:00. He folded up the napkin.
"Definitely."
It hadn't even been one day yet, and they had already sent a hundred messages to each other.
It was 10:15 when Kaneki got home. He sent another text to Hide and smiled, slipping off his shoes and dropping his messenger bag. He locked the door and took off his hoody. He always felt gross after working so long, like dirt and sweat somehow crawled on him constantly. Kaneki scratched the back of his head and walked to his bathroom. He turned on the light, unbuttoned his pants and started up the water in the tub. Splashing it of his hand to check the temperature. He had Let It Snow by the sink so he could read in the bath. He set his phone on the counter and unbuttoned his shirt and let it drop from his shoulder. He sighed as he started to take off his patch.
Kaneki always had to check if his eye got any worse, ever since he was a juvenile and the black started to fester in his eye. He leaned forward to look in the mirror, pulling down the skin around his eye. It was still the same, same dark color, same red in the center. Nothing had changed, yet nothing had gotten better. Kaneki breathed out, he heard his phone vibrate. Kaneki picked it up and smiled. Hide had sent a picture of himself lying on his bed, cheek against a white pillow. He already looked like he was drooling. Caption: Bedtime! Night.
Kaneki laughed. Hide was so open and he warmed up quickly to Kaneki. Already sending pictures. Kaneki felt like there was comfort in that. Immediate acceptance, it felt good. He hadn't had unconditional anything in a long long they had known each other forever now. He was too cute. He looked back in the mirror, focusing on his eye. He swallowed. He looked at the beast that kept him from others. Kaneki started to reply back.
Good night, Hide.
It had been a few times now and weeks had passed that Hide had come in at 5:00 and left at around 8:00. But Kaneki always kept getting his extra hour when he came in. But now, since they had been texting, on his break, Kaneki would sit with Hide, helping him with homework or letting Hide get off track to talk about something else. Like a new band he was listening to or what happened recently in a manga. Kaneki never knew how much Hide actually talked. But when he had those silent moments with him, it was pure bliss. Just seeing him smiling, eyes shining in mid air, it gave Kaneki satisfaction. Because he was like that with Kaneki and no one else.
Kaneki had started to sweep up around the shop. Hide was the only one left, sitting backwards in a chair. Hinami was upstairs with Touka, helping her 'study' by drawing bunnies on Touka's notes with her. Nishiki was in the bathroom changing his uniform before Kimi would pick him up. It had started to snow outside.
"It sucks that you have to close down all by yourself," Hide said, "It's not really fair."
"You know, you could always help me out."
"Nah, I'm off the clock and I don't need a second job yet. I'm broke with a good insurance plan."
Kaneki shook his head and softly laughed, "Then just sit there, lazy bones. I didn't get to hear how your day was because of the rush. How was it?"
"Oh, you know, just delivering," Hide sighed "I love delivering to the investigators. I learn so much about what going on there, crime-wise. It makes me feel like a guy on the inside."
"You are Sherlock, aren't you?"
"Think so? Does that mean you're my Watson?"
"Sure, Sherlock."
Hide laughed and leaned back, putting his hands behind his head, "How's school going?"
"Well, when you're trying to major in English, lots of reading books where the authors are now dead. So good I guess. What about you, crime-buff?"
"Oh! We're starting to work on forensics. Like set up fake crime scenes for us to look at. It's neat. I feel like the bad ass detectives on those crime shows my Ma used to watch."
Kaneki hummed, "Sounds pretty fun."
"It is," Hide said, looking around the shop "It's really quite at night, huh? Kinda spooky, like the beginning of a horror movie."
Kaneki shrugged, "I like it like this. It's very peaceful I think."
Hide hummed. Kaneki looked focus when there was silence, like he thrived in this type of environment. Like a flower that grew well with the graceful sound of Bach playing. He got the shop rather clean after it closed down. Hide noticed that he brushed hair out of his patched eye like it made a difference. Hide lowered his head on the back of the chair.
"You don't have many friends do you?" Hide said.
"Hey, I have a good amount of friends." Kaneki said, defensive, " There's Touka, Hinami, Renji-"
"Do you have a best friend?"
"A best friend?"
Kaneki leaned on the broom. He never thought about having a best friend. He thought about who he would really consider as a best friend.
"A best friend. Well I think… I think time has been my best friend. Yeah, time."
"Time? So like, your best friend is a clock?" Hide snickered.
"No,dummy, I mean like time itself. It's always been there for me," Kaneki said, "Like, I don't know how to explain it."
Hide tilted his head on his arms and smiled softly. Somehow he liked that idea, "Well I'm going to change that," Hide said, "I'm going to do whatever I can to become your new best friend."
"What?" Kaneki said, turning his head, blushing gently, "You want to be my best friend?"
"Yeah! Of course. I wanna be the best friend you've got. I think I can do better than Father Time."
Kaneki gripped the broom tightly. He giggled and lifted up his head, "Alright, yeah, go ahead."
Hide grinned, he looked excited. He threw his hands up in the air and straightened up, "Yes!" He exclaimed, he leaned back too far and lost his balance. Falling down on the ground, "Owowow… Fuck…"
Kaneki ran over to Hide. He put his hands on his knees, "Hide! Are you okay?" Kaneki asked, Hide rubbed his back.
"Yeah… Yeah I'm fine," Hide groaned, "I just fell on my ass is all," A beep was heard from Hide's phone. He checked his phone, "Oh crap! It's that late already? Hey, Kaneki I got to go. Like, now. Right now."
"Now? How come?"
"I have to pick up something is all," Hide grabbed Kaneki's hand and got up, "I'll see you soon, Kaneki!"
"Uh, okay? Later, Hide."
Hide walked out the door and the bell rang. Kaneki sighed and started to sweep again. Whatever it was that Hide had to get, it must have been important. So important that he left his bag. He tried to remember Hide's address from one of their text messages.
"Kaneki, you're still here?" Nishiki said, he had on a thick olive jacket with a furry hood and jeans. He scratched the back of his head and yawned, "What happened to Nagachicka? Got bored of you already?"
"He had to get something so he left."
"Doesn't sound like him. He's not like that at school," Nishiki shrugged and put his hands in his pocket, checking his phone, "Well Kimi is outside. Can't keep a girl waiting."
"Have a good night."
"Later."
Nishiki walked out and passed the window. Kimi had hopped out of the car and greeted Nishiki. She smiled up at him, her cheeks red from the cold air. Kimi's eyes were close, big fluffy flakes fell in her hair. Their words were silent before Nishiki kissed her, his eyes shut. Like he was blanking his mind and try to determine the feel of Kimi's lips. Kimi locked her petite hands with Nishiki's. Their lips stayed locked together, like they were Greek statues. Or that place where the volcano erupted and made everyone stay black and still for eternity. Kaneki couldn't remember what the place was called. But Kaneki thought they looked beautiful. They paused without Kaneki having to do it.
After a moment, Kimi came off her tippy toes and curled into Nishiki and they walked to the car. Kaneki sighed and had to sit down. He put his hands on his cheek, Hide left a half empty coffee cup on the table and Kaneki traced his finger on the rim. It was odd, Hide looked like Kimi when she saw Nishiki whenever he was around Kaneki.
At 11:00 on the dot, Kaneki stood in front of Hide's apartment complex. His nose felt damp, he stayed out in the freezing air for a few minutes now. His hands started to feel warm like an illusion. Not really there. He should have gotten gloves. His feet wouldn't move, he knew the floor level (2) and he knew the room number (204). But his ankles felt heavy. He tried calling Hide before he left the coffee shop but Hide never picked up. He must have been asleep already.
Kaneki was starting to have doubts. That maybe he shouldn't have come here. That he should have just waited till Hide came back to the shop, or have Nishiki take it with him to school and give it back. He saw that in one of the pockets of the bag was an inhaler so that was very important. Funny, Hide didn't act like he had asthma. He rode a bike all day for god sake-Kaneki shook his head.
"Come on you coward," Kaneki mumbled to himself, "It's just a bag… A bag you're dropping off at eleven at night…To a cute guy...To a cute guy you really like- stop thinking about this and do it!"
Kaneki bawled his hands into fists and lowered his head. He did that often, he thought too much over little things. All the time, his mind never stopped moving. That was the only thing he couldn't stop. Kaneki took a deep breath and walked into the complex. He tapped his shoes on the carpet, some snow fell from the heels as he started to walk up the stairs. There was something off as he passed long halls of doors. He didn't hear any tv noises or late night chatter or the occasional sound of crying. it was oddly quiet.
"Wait a minute," Kaneki muttered, he looked around quickly for a clock. His hands were jittery as he pulled out his phone. "No, no. Come on, are you kidding me?"
It should be about 11:05. But it was still 11:00. Kaneki stomped his foot.
"Damnit!" Kaneki yelled. No one came out,obviously, to complain,"You dumb ass, great."
Kaneki hated rules to his power. He couldn't just snap out of it immediately. He always had to wait an hour, at least. Which was hard to tell when clocks were affected with everyone else. Kaneki sighed, he knew this was a lost cause now. But for some reason, he kept walking. He walked till he got to Hide's door. Maybe he felt like he had to face his fears. He took a deep breath.
"Okay, just see if there's a spare key. If there isn't, then leave the bag and get out. Alright?" Kaneki checked with himself "Alright."
Kaneki checked under the mat and stretched up to check the door frame. He felt a piece of metal brush on his fingers. He grabbed it and was somewhat enthralled by this. Kaneki gripped the key, the teeth biting his palm. Still, as he put the key in the lock, he found it hard to turn the key. He knew that if he went in and out quickly, Hide would never realize he was there. Kaneki unlocked the door and stepped in. The living room was dim, a lamp light on the end table was on and Hide asleep on the couch. Kaneki tilted his head, he wasn't sure why he would be asleep on the couch when he could be asleep in a bed. Kaneki sighed and dropped the bag on the ground.
"Okay, now get the hell out of here." Kaneki murmured.
Kaneki tripped over the bag and yelped, crashing down to the ground. He groaned and bawled up his fists. He plopped his head back on the carpet. He was embarrassed even when no one was looking. Kaneki sat up and rolled on his bottom. He looked up and saw Hide's face as he pushed up on his hands. Kaneki cracked a smile, he didn't think Hide would be such a drooler while he slept. He thought it was a joke in the picture. There was a still line of saliva from the corner of Hide's open mouth. He looked like a baby asleep, like he returned to his youth. It was different than at the shop, where Hide was hype on news and caffeine. Here, Hide was fueled on nothing. Even with time stopping.
Kaneki pulled himself up on the coffee table, he parted Hide's bangs and swallowed. He so desperately wanted to kiss him. But he knew Hide was like forbidden fruit, he was allowed to look, not in this case, Kaneki could look, not kiss. That never meant he wasn't tempted. Kaneki kissed his fingers and pressed them to Hide's cheek, even from the fair touch, Kaneki's heart jumped. He felt himself smile, he bit his tongue so he wouldn't giggle. Kaneki shook his head.
"What the hell am I doing?" Kaneki asked himself, "I'm staying here too long, wanna know why?" He sat down on the ground cross legged and rested his arms on the couch cushion, "It's because of you, big idiot."
Kaneki tilted his head and turned off the lamp light. The room became dark. Hide looked blurred covered in darkness, like his color was saturated. kaneki bit his lip.
"It wouldn't hurt anybody if I stayed a little longer, yeah," Kaneki was talking more to Hide more than himself for once, "I have some time."
Kaneki was waken up by a sudden push that forcefully made him plummet to the ground. Kaneki gasped, his eyes widening as a dark figure climbed on top of him.
"Oh no..." Kaneki whispered to himself, "I waited too long."
"Who are you and what the hell are you doing in my house?!" Hide yelled, his shoulders grasping Kaneki's shoulders. His rage hidden from the darkness of the room.
"H-Hide! Kaneki! It's Kaneki!" Kaneki reacted quickly.
"Kaneki? Oh my god, do you want to give me a heart attack?!" Hide release Kaneki's shoulders, "What are you do- how did you even get in here?"
"Will you please get off of me? You're kinda heavy."
"No, answer me first," Hide crossed his arms and sat up straight, "How did you get in here? I didn't even hear you or anything."
Kaneki sat up on his forearms, "I was dropping off your bag," Kaneki rubbed the back of his head, "I found your key on the door frame. Now please get off of me already."
"Well, thank you for dropping off my bag but that doesn't explain how I didn't notice you when you came in. I'm not a heavy sleeper," Hide moved off of Kaneki and on the floor, "You must be a burglar on the side or something. I didn't hear you at all."
Kaneki swallowed and bit his lip. What was he supposed to say? Hide could read Kaneki like a good book, if he lied, Hide would know right away. That was probably the worst feature about Hide. He could analyze people so easily. Kaneki held onto his arms tightly.
"You won't believe me if I told you, Hide. Let's just drop it and let me go home?"
"Nuh-uh. No way, first off, I want answers. Secondly, it's like, two in the morning. I'm not letting you go home now that you're here."
Kaneki groaned. What had he gotten himself into?
"Likw I said, you won't believe me anyway." Kaneki murmured.
"Try me."
Kaneki took a big deep breath and closed his eyes. The creases of his eyelids were wrinkled and become pale.
"I can…" Kaneki said, slowly at first before his speech became faster, "Stop time somehow and I snuck in your house when I accidentally did and drop off your bag. Which is kinda good so I wouldn't have to talk to you."
Kaneki held his breath and scrunched up his whole body. He was ready to hear words of doubt or even fits of laughter. He knew it was something unbelievable. Kaneki would think it was crazy if he never did it himself.
"You didn't want to come and talk to me?" Hide asked.
Kaneki popped his eye open. He wasn't expecting that. Hide's eyes were somber, his small lip popped out.
"You… You only care that I didn't want to talk to you?"
"Well yeah. We're friends, you should be okay with wanting to talk to me. No matter what time."
Kaneki rubbed his face, "I don't think you're looking at the big picture," Kaneki scratched his head, "I just told you I can stop time."
"And?"
"And you're just going to believe that?"
Hide shrugged, "Well why would you lie about something like that?" Hide asked, "You're super smart. You could have came up with something better. Not something as ridiculous as that."
Acceptance. Automatic, without a doubt, acceptance from Hide. He was so trusting with Kaneki that he could believe whatever he said. Kaneki's lips parted as Hide started to move off him. He held out his hand.
"We had a deal," Hide said as Kaneki sat up, "So now that you're here, want some coffee?"
"Uh, I wasn't planning on staying long."
"Change of plans then. You can't just break into my house and not stay for a little while."
Kaneki swallowed. Hide stood up and hung in the doorway of the kitchen.
"Do you like any sugar or cream in your coffee?" Hide asked, he chuckled, "I know you know how I like it-"
"Hide, you're taking this all lightly," Kaneki walked forward, towering slightly over Hide. He put his hand on the doorway, "Shouldn't you be weirded out?"
"What's there to be weirded out by?" Hide half smiled, "It's you we're talking about. Not some freak. I'm you're best friend. I can't judge you by something you can't help."
Kaneki gripped the door frame tighter. Hide's voice sounded so sweet and gentle. Enough for Kaneki to rest his head on the words. Kaneki brushed his fingers over Hide's cheek.
"You wanna know why I didn't want to come in here?" Kaneki asked.
"Why?"
Kaneki's heart pounded and his stomach slushed. His thumb traced down Hide's jawline as Hide's cheeks grew red.
"I… Sorta like you. A lot," Kaneki muttered, Hide's eyes fluttered, "I stop time when you're around… Because I like looking at you."
Kaneki felt like he was sick. Like he could throw up any minute now and collapse on the floor. But he tried to look as calm as possible. Even if it wasn't exactly working out.
"You… You like looking at me?" Hide asked, swallowing, "Well, maybe I like looking at you too."
Hide's fingers combed through Kaneki's dark locks. His pale skin contrasting against the black until his arms just wrapped around Kaneki's neck. Kaneki's mouth was dry as Hide pressed closer against him.
"I wish I could stop time to look at you," Hide whispered, his finger circling on Kaneki's skin, "Maybe then I could learn more about you."
"You already know more than most, Hide," Kaneki couldn't help but hug him, he never had been so open before. Somehow it felt right. An uncomfortable kind of right, "A lot more."
"You haven't told anyone else about it?"
"It's not exactly a Sunday conversation. No one probably wouldn't believe me."
"I believe you." Hide pointed out, rubbing Kaneki's back.
"Not exactly sure why you do."
Hide pulled back and raised an eyebrow, "What? I thought it would be obvious," Kaneki was confused. He was sure he would know obvious when he saw it, "I'm your best friend. I'm supposed to believe you, no matter how crazy it might sound."
Kaneki shook his head, "You're crazy…"
"Says the guy who says he can stop time."
Kaneki softly laughed, he licked his lips, "Hide, do you… You probably will but do you mind it I… Like, um.."
Hide held Kaneki's face and kissed Kaneki gently. Kaneki's eyes opened wide, his hands started to rest on Hide's lower back. His lips started moving with Hide's, he leaned back against the frame and pulled Hide close. He felt so light so small in his arms, even though he was the same height and size as Kaneki. Still, he was delicate. Hide pulled back and smiled at Kaneki.
"Stay at my house tonight, please? It's late." Hide said, cuddling into his chest.
"Okay." Kaneki whispered.
They drank the whole pot of coffee and talked the whole night until six in the morning. The crashed on the couch. Spooning together.
Kaneki and Hide liked spending time together at the park. They would get a coffee to go from the shop, find a tree to sit under, and plucked grass under the thin snow while they chat. Sometimes they would steal kisses, their coffee breath mixed on their lips. They loved how their voices sound outside and the was the breeze would finger through their hair. They liked how flushed their cheeks would look.
Kaneki was reading while Hide was doing some homework. He tapped his pencil on the paper. Kaneki flipped the page. Easy appealing noises.
"How'd the doctor appointment go?" Kaneki asked.
Hide shrugged and bit his eraser. He didn't like talking about his condition. Or his many little conditions. Hide was born with a bad a heart disease which made his respiratory and immune system bad. So he had always been fragile. His parents always treated him like he was sensitive, too much sensitivity. That wore on to his friends, his teachers, everyone. They all treated him like glass. It drove him nuts. Doctors appointments, and pills, different types of surgeries. All so much. He wasn't as fragile as everyone thought he was, Hide just got tired more easily than others. His greatest dream as a child when in the hospital was to go into a haunted house and get the shit scared out of him. Now that he was older, he had been to over twenty haunted houses during Halloween. Hide tried not to show his condition often. He really didn't like talking about it too much either.
"Do you know anything about blood analysis?" Hide asked.
"Yeah, but answer my question first and I might help you."
"Okay, that was just a joke, how do you know about blood analysis?"
"I might answer that too if you tell me how your appointment went."
Hide sighed and laid down in the snow. His hands on his stomach and head in Kaneki's lap.
"It was just like any check up. Says my system has gotten a tiny bit worse but nothing to worry about. Says I should get different pills now and that I shouldn't eat so much red meat."
"You do eat a lot of burgers."
"Well then stop taking me to that little restaurant in the book store. That place has amazing burgers."
Kaneki giggled and put down his book. His kissed Hide's temple, "You're taking your pills regularly right?"
"Well I don't wanna die yet,mother," Hide settled his head in Kaneki's lap more, "Before you ask, yes I've been keeping my heart rate low and making sure I take my inhaler everywhere."
Kaneki smiled and "I know about blood analysis because of a book I was reading. I had no idea what they were talking about so I got a book about blood work so I could understand the first book."
"You're a strange dude, Kaneki," Hide said, "Have you been stopping time lately?"
"Yeah, here and there."
"Still when I'm at the coffee shop?" Hide laughed.
"You should come there less now that we're dating, I look less professional."
"I'm taking that as a yes."
Hide sat up in Kaneki's lap and kissed his cheek. Kaneki put his hands on Hide's sides and kissed his lips. Their eyes closed and their cheeks heated up. Hide bit Kaneki's lip, he smiled and wrapped his arms around Kaneki's neck. Kaneki brushed Hide's hair, his golden brown hair. They had been dating now for two months. Ever since that night something clicked. Kaneki grabbed Hide and held him tight. Hide started to giggle while Kaneki kissed the creak of Hide's neck where no one could see.
"Ahah, hey! Don't do that!" Hide giggled, trying to pushed Kaneki away.
Kaneki nuzzled in that crook of his neck, his hand on Hide's back. He kissed Hide a last time.
"Go to my house?" Kaneki asked, close to Hide's ear.
Hide nodded, "Mmmmhmm. Let me finish these notes."
"No, now." Kaneki whined, hugging his waist.
Hide kissed Kaneki's cheek.
"Now it is." Hide mumbled.
When Kaneki was with Hide, time went too fast and that would make Kaneki move too fast. Hide didn't mind, he was just that kind of guy.
Kaneki laid in bed, eyes shut and unshield. He had never felt such happiness before. It was foreign to him. Ever since his mother died, he always felt alone. All he had was his time. No, he had time with Hide. He was breathing hard, panting as Hide rocked on top of him.
Hide was panting, his face flushed and whole body dripping in small beads of sweat. His hands were on Kaneki's abdomen, clawing lightly here and there. He moaned softly as Kaneki's cock moved in and out of him. Hide looked down at Kaneki, his eyes squeezed tightly when Hide moved down and Kaneki's hips thrusted up.
"Why do you always do that?" Hide breathed.
"W-what?" Kaneki replied, just as airy.
"Keep your eyes closed," Hide lowered his head down, moving his hands onto Kaneki's chest, "You never look at me during sex."
Kaneki winked open his clear eye open. Hide kissed Kaneki's cheek, "Once the patch comes off, you keep your eyes closed," Hide started to move slower, "You really don't want me to see your eye."
Hide swooped down into Kaneki's neck. Starting to kiss harshly and nip. Kaneki tipped back his head and groaned, grabbing Hide's ass and forcing him to move harder.
"I don't let anyone see it." Kaneki grumbled.
Hide tipped back his head and moaned. Kaneki rocked up quicker. He felt like he was on a cloud. Set adrift from everything, letting Hide's sweat act like rain. Kaneki ducked his head into Hide's shoulder. His stomach started to lurch up. Kaneki thrusted up and came, moaning loud as Hide clenched his teeth. Hide gasped out and came soon after on Kaneki's stomach. Hide and Kaneki panted in each other's face. Hide held Kaneki's face.
"Open your eyes." Hide whispered.
"No… You'll think it's disgusting."
"When have I ever thought you were disgusting?"
Hide kissed his closed eye. Hide ran his fingers through Kaneki's hair.
"Just let me see."
Let me see.
That phrase just chilled him to the bone. It always made him feel cold when people got curious. Like under the patch was a peep show. He opened his eye slowly and swallowed. His red iris and black eyeball showed. Hide looked at Kaneki. Kaneki wish he could leave, just turn invisible or had the power to transport. Instead he had the ability to stop time. He didn't want to stop this moment. He hadn't been stopping time much nowadays. He didn't really have to, Hide was always with him now, he didn't need three hours of silence with him, yet when he did, it was usually in bed.
When Hide was sleeping, his lips slightly parted and jaw relaxed. His hand placed under his head. Kaneki would hold his still body, leave marks on him like a mutt. He loved not hearing the snores. Not hearing the breathing, not noticing drool coming from his mouth. It was something sensual. Kaneki was in love with it.
Hide leaned in and kissed Kaneki's eyelid. He was smiling wide. Hide was always full of surprises,Kaneki never knew what to expect.
"Beautiful." Hide whispered against Kaneki's ear.
Through his whole life he had to hide his eye. His power. Himself from the rest of the world. Why now would he show Hide? Why was it so simple to give in? Kaneki pulled Hide into his chest and squeezed him. It was because Hide was his world. His slow revolving world.
"You have no idea what that means to me."
Hide got out of the shower. Kaneki turned his head from his book and grinned.
"Get over here," Kaneki said, leaning over and grabbing Hide's ass, "You look so cute after a shower."
"Hey, hey! Hands off!" Hide said, pulling the towel tighter around his hips. He had gotten the mail he picked up earlier and started to sort through it. Kaneki played with Hide's damp locks. Water dripped on the bed. Hide coughed a few times in his hand as he read through junk mail. There was a bottle of pills on the end table, Kaneki knew there was more inside. Hide was used to it. He had been used to it since he was born. He learned to take pills by himself when he was five by holding his nose and drinking chocolate milk.
He sometimes wondered what his parents used to think when they got something in the mail. Was it always a fingers cross moment that he wouldn't need another prescription pill? Or just waiting to mutter "Oh God." again under their breaths so Hide didn't hear. A call was the second worse thing, calls usually meant a surgery. Hide used to call them "suckeries" because they sucked. It always meant months in bed, tubes connecting to him, leaving scars from small punctures on his skin.
His mother called them love bites. Because if they didn't love him, they would never take him to the doctors and try to help him. Once a needle was taken out of his arm, she would always press her lips to the flesh, give it a pat, then smile. He learned to love, love bites.
Kaneki would leave love bites on Hide. Different ones. Blood sucked up to his pale skin to stay for a day of two. Usually on his neck or shoulders. Sometimes his hips and stomach. God, did her really love those love bites. Kaneki wouldn't do them if he didn't love him, right?
"Anything good?" Kaneki asked.
"Nothing too good never comes from the mail." Hide laughed slightly and smiled, "I should have a bill from the hospital. Remember? When I came down with the flu or something I had to see what it was just in case. Doctors said it wasn't anything big."
Kaneki nodded and pulled back, he picked up his book and started to read again. Hide drank a glass of water as he tried to find the hospital bill. He found two letters from the hospital, Hide scrunched his eyebrows. He opened up the first letter sent by his doctor. He unfolded the letter and started to read it. Hide's face was emotionless, his breath was still and starle. Kaneki started to move closer to Hide after noticing how motionless he was. He was quiet, too quiet of Kaneki and staring at mail for too long. He heard a sniffle come from Hide.
"H-Hide?" Kaneki softly asked, putting his hand on Hide's shoulder, "You okay? Is everything alright?"
Hide bit his lip. He put down the paper and tried wiping his eyes before he started to really cry. He turned to Kaneki, smiling wide with his eyelids closed. Few tears glided down his cheek. Kaneki had never seen anything sadder (yet) in his life.
"No, not at all."
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