Disclaimer: I do not own SVU...but THIS IS A VERY SAD MOMENT OKAY?

Alright, so I was watching those Full Apology videos on . I seriously started crying when I read Matt's and Liz's apology. I don't know why, but I suddenly got this idea that if Olivia and Elliot were teenagers. And they got drunk and Olivia drove them home, and they got into an accident, and Elliot died, this would kind of be her apology to everyone, like his mom and Kathy and Maureen...I suppose. Just bear with me, its a possible tear-jerker.

Olivia walked down the hall, her heels clicking, and tear tracks adorning her face. "Miss Benson?" The man with a camera called from the room.

She raised her hand and made her way towards him into the room. "Alright, Olivia do you know what you want to say?" She nodded and pressed her lips together tightly to keep from crying again.

She let out a few shaky breaths, and closed her eyes. She had to do this. She had to get this off her chest. She was in love with him, and she made it happen. It was her fault. "Alright, and ready in 3,2,1." the man whispered as the lights came on and Olivia's lips trembled.

"H-hi, Bernie, I remembered you always wanted me to call you that...but I'm not sure if you even wanna talk to me right now..." Her bottom lip quivered, and another tear rolled down her cheek. "W-we were best friends...you have to realize that. I-I-would never try to hurt him...I was in love with him...God, I can't do this." She looked down and wiped her eyes frantically. "I...I loved him so m-much. He was everything I had..."

The camera man motioned for her to keep going. "I...I know that you don't want-t-to forgive me right now...and I don't expect you to. But I just w-wanna say...that I'm so SO sorry. And I know I don't deserve forgiveness from anyone..." By now, tears were flowing freely down her cheeks.

"I wish...I wish it was me who had died...instead of him. I loved Elliot. I didn't mean to-I-" She choked out a few sobs and held her face in her hands. "If I had known t-this would ha-have happened...I would of never gotten into that car..."

She sobbed even harder. "I would have never gotten in...I remembered he promised we would always b-be together...and I broke that promise...But I really did love him...I'm s-so sorry. And n-now...it hurts to even say his name..."

"...I dream about him all the time, Kathy...when I'm actually getting some sleep. I was never trying to ruin your relationship with him. I l-loved him as much as you did...I respected you...I-my stomach hurts everytime I see his face..."

"It makes me sick to know I'm the one that killed him. When I woke up after the...the accident...they told me he was dead...I wanted to kill myself Kathy. I knew then t-that Maureen would have to...to grow up without seeing her..." She cupped her face in her hand and cried for a minute.

"...I wish it would have been me..."

The camera's light turned off and the man left, asking her if she was alright, but she ignored him. She went to the wall, sank down and cried so hard she started wretching. The lights went off and she sat in darkness, tears streaming down her face. "I-I'm s-so sorry, Elliot..."

I warned you! But you just couldn't stand to see yourself happy. Alright so I'm gonna ask you guys even though its obvious: Would you forgive her as Bernie? As Kathy? Review and tell me! I love you guys!