"We're fucking"
The words we said so blatantly Lucy had to take a moment to fully comprehend what her brunette friend had just said.
"Sorry what?"
"Gray and I are fucking"
Cana watches on as her foster sister begins to register this information. Her eyes go wide, and her cheeks flair red.
"But you... He... You guys aren't dating" Lucy says flustered
"Well yeah but that doesn't matter" Cana shrugs
"Sure it does! I mean you're supposed to love your lover or whatever... Wait does this mean he took your V-plate?"
"Uh-huh."
"But... But the first time has to be special! That's how it is. For every girl."
"But Lucy I'm not like every other girl am I? I mean he cheated on his ex and even when Evergreen leaked said information to her I lied to her face about it unlike every other girl who would've crumbled under the pressure, burst into tears and told her everything."
"Speaking of which what did you get out of that?"
"Gray ... Der Lucy did you not hear my very first sentence of this conversation" Cana states flicking the blonde in her forehead.
Rubbing said are the blonde gapes at her for a little longer.
"Are you sure you're okay with this though? I mean you've been in love with him for like ever and now that he's you know using you for this I bet it hurts like hell"
"Nope. Doesn't I'm not as ... at his mercy as I was. I've let go and now I'm in it for one reason. Sex"
"As long as you're happy Cana, that's all I have to say" Lucy places a hand on her shoulder before leaving the room
That's when Cana sits down and thoroughly rethinks everything. That was when she realised just how at his mercy she truly was.
She felt used but most of all she felt unwanted. Undesirable. She's starting to belive Laxus' cruel words the day he stated that the Heartfilia's really had gone down hill on their foster children. The beauty that Lucy, Lisanna and Mirajane have Cana really was the ugly one.
That's why she acted slutty, trying desperately to be wanted by someone. Though her foster siblings repeatedly tell her that she is wanted and beautiful she just couldn't believe them. Not after her childhood and what she went through with her first few foster families.
So lost in thought she almost didn't hear her phone ringing,
"Hello?" She mumbles miserably
"Cana? Are you okay?"
His voice was deep and musculine as always, and she felt her heart flutter.
"Yeah I'm good, you?"
"I'm fine... Just wondering what you were doing"
"Lying on my floor, why?"
"Want to come stay?" His tone was deep and husky now
"Hang on I'll ask"
Rushing to Layla's office she knocks vigoriously
"What is it?" Came the honey sweet voice
"I was wondering if I could stay at Gray's?"
Layla stares at her for a moment before grinning
"Take your pill and have fun Cana don't come home too early tomorrow"
"Thank you!" Cana hugs her before hurrying back to her bedroom
"I'm allowed I'll be there in say twenty"
"Great see ya then"
"Yeah bye Gray"
Hanging up she quickly jumps in the shower does her usual pre-Gray ritual before sprinting to his place. She was a fool to even think about regretting her decision to be with Gray. Who was she kidding, she was so in love she'd be willing to commit murder for that boy.
