Until the end of time.
My life can be described in one simple word, complicated. I've never really considered myself 'normal' or 'average'. I can definitely say that I've lived a life of tragic loss and deception. I guess I should start from the beginning.
I was only 8 years old when my mother abandoned me at her boyfriends house. Now many of you would speculate, what kind of parent leaves their only child in the hands of a stranger whom you've only known for a week? Well, honestly I don't know. I guess the fact that my mother was a meth addict could explain this.
I spent my entire childhood from orphanage to orphanage, adopted by a few whom were not interested in my well-being but on the paycheck they received from the government. I have dealt with my fare share of drug abuse and criminal acts, i'm no saint myself. My social worker, Michelle, was not very happy about that...
My only real role model, if you will. She had taught me inner strength and knowledge. She made me feel like I was actually worth something in this world and said I could become whatever I set my mind to. She told me I didn't have to follow in my mothers footsteps. I believed her.
She died from cancer when I was thirteen. It was a devastating dark period in my life. Why did everyone I care for leave? Was I being punished for something I did in my past life? The depression I went through definitely manifested into anger, anger then turned into complete numbness. I felt nothing, I didn't want to. I trained myself to never let anyone into my life again. The pain would be the destruction of me.
This is were god threw me a curve ball. I was fifteen when I met him. It's funny how life just totally kicks my ass to the point where I want to give up, then like a bolt out of the blue, it throws me back and gives me a glimpse of hope. Hope for true happiness and stability.
This may sound a bit like a fantasy story a girl may dream up during a boring class in junior high, but this is absolutely not a fairytale. Things never seem to fall into my lap effortlessly like many other lucky individuals do. No, this is not that story. Happy endings don't happen in the real world. At least that is what I thought...
For those of you waiting for my fic Taken, i apologize. I plan on updating this week! so no, i haven't given up. Please review! I seem to loose interest when people don't review... so let me know if i should bother to update...
