My muse was bothering me to have me write this thing. This my first time in a long time that I've written in a first person view, so it might not be that great. I've been debating with myself whether to just keep it as a oneshot or make it a multi-chaptered story, but for now it's going to be a oneshot.
Other notes from me: I know I'm supposed to be working on "Fighting for Zira" and "Song of the Sea", but I've reached a roadblock with those stories. Once I figure out what to do with them, I will continue them when I have the time. Anyway, I'll let you read this short piece I wrote and please tell me what you think. Flames will not be accepted, but I do take constructive criticism. Enjoy the story.
Painful Reflections
The door whirred open and I took this opportunity to enter. Everything's so bright, a little too bright for my taste. I guess that's what it does to you when you walk among darkness. Well, more like the twilight, but still…I've been in darkness for too long.
There it is, the pod where he has been sleeping for a year. It won't be long until he wakes up again. I glanced up at his sleeping figure. He looks peaceful sleeping, not a care in the world. No heartless to battle, nor does he have to worry about the other villains that I associated myself with when I submitted myself to the darkness.
I clenched my fist. How could I do such a thing as to betray him like I did a year ago? My best friend. Yes, I gave myself to the darkness to bring Kairi back, but in turn I betrayed my best friend. I was a fool for believing Maleficent. She fueled my loneliness, manipulated my emotions and turned it to anger and hate toward him. But in the end, the darkness consumed me and Ansem took control over me.
I pressed a hand to the pod, watching as he slept. The missing pieces in my heart have returned. There are no words that could describe the guilt and shame running through me as a piece of my memory returns. Reruns of the events that happened a year ago played in my mind's eye, taunting me, reminding me of the horrible things I did.
I glanced at my hands. No, not my hands, but those of Ansem. I defeated his heartless in Castle Oblivion, but the darkness still remained in my heart. That darkness would resurface often and I feared that he was going to come back. I separated myself from Mickey, for I was afraid that I might bring him pain just in case Ansem was to take control over me again. But for the past year, I kept it concealed in my heart, that was…until I faced Roxas.
I couldn't win with my strength alone. The dark powers that I used wasn't enough to defeat him. So, I merged myself with the full powers of darkness. I defeated Roxas with the dark powers, but now, I have become the person I hate. This is my punishment, but I am ready to reside in darkness just as long as Sora awakens from his slumber.
This will be the last time I see Sora before he wakes up. Afterwards, I must at all cost, stay clear of him. I can't let him see what I've become. It would only serve as a reminder of the hardships he endured. I don't want that. I've done enough damage.
"Restoration at 89," announced the computer beside the pod. There's not much time left. I have to help DiZ finish the preparations now. I put the hood on to conceal my face and walked to the door, looking back at the pod one final time. Sora, though I don't deserve it, but I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me…I'm sorry.
A/N: Yes, I'm aware that the tenses are not consistent. I'm not really used to writing in the first person so I'm just using this story as practice. Anyway, please review.
