I never knew why my parents named me Narcissa. I never knew why I wasn't named after a constellation like my sisters were. Was I that much of a mistake?

Narcissa, named after the narcissus flower. Named also after Narcissus, a mythology figure who fell so in love with his own image that he eventually drowned himself when he realized that his love could not talk to him or return his love for himself. Did my parents truly have such low expectations when it came to me?

I am narcissistic, but I am not Narcissus. I am not some delicate flower. No, I am a flower with poisonous fangs, capable of devouring even the most powerful of wizards and witches. Or at least that is what Lucius often tells me whenever I am feeling shamed by the fact that I was not named after a constellation.

I am narcissistic, but I am not Narcissus. I know that I am beautiful and fair, but I am not so in love with my image that I will kill myself over it. Appearances are important to me, as they are important to my husband and son; but we are wealthy Purebloods, and that means that we have to live up to certain expectations. We cannot go around looking like slobs. We are not Blood-Traitors or disgraces to the name of everything magical.

Many think that we are vain, but we truly are not. We are just required to present to the world a certain facade.

I know that I am superior to the Mudbloods and the Blood-Traitors, but I am not in love with myself. It still hurts me sometimes that I was not named after a constellation.

I am narcissistic. I know what I want, and I usually get it. I am a Pureblood, after all. I am also a Black, a member of an ancient and noble family. My parents have always taught me that I'm practically royalty. Maybe I wasn't a mistake after all. Maybe my parents were truly trying to honour me when they named me Narcissa.

There is not much that my Lucius will deny me. I wanted Draco to go to Hogwarts instead of Durmstrang so that he would be closer to home, and Lucius granted me that wish. Now don't get me wrong. My husband is not submissive or a push-over. He often gets what he wants as well, being both a Pureblood and a Malfoy.

Lucius and I see each other as equals, and our relationship was built on respect. We gladly compromise with each other. Neither of us have to use threat or violence to get our way. We give in to each other because we truly want to.

I am narcissistic, and I am selfish. I want nothing but the best for my husband and my son. I would do anything for them, just like I know they would do anything for me.

I am narcissistic because that is how I am expected to act.

I am narcissistic because I can't ever allow anyone who is inferior to me to see that I am not truly unbreakable.

I am narcissistic, but I am also human. I'm just not allowed to act that way. I have certain expectations that I must always live up to.