Disclaimer: I own nothing related to Criminal Minds, but if I did…
A/N: This takes place during the season finale, 'Supply and Demand'. It's just a short oneshot from Garcia's POV, but hope you like it!
This could not be happening! It just…couldn't. How was this even fair? Oh wait, she already had an answer to that…it wasn't! This was really turning into the year of hell.
First her Jay Bird flew the coop, then the whole Emily mess which she couldn't even begin to fathom at the moment, and now this. And the cases. Those alone sent shivers down her spine.
Why did all this always have to happen to her team of superheroes? Where they destined to be torn apart one by one? This little family unit that supported each other, loved each other, was slowly unraveling before her eyes.
She didn't like it.
No, she hated it! And worse was the fact that there was very little she could do about it. No amount of hacking or missing files would fix this mess. And that's what hurt the most, wasn't it? The fact that she, the amazing Penelope Garcia, was helpless. Oh, how she hated that feeling. Not being able to do anything as your family got smaller and smaller in number…
Maybe Morgan was right. Maybe she just didn't like change and maybe she has a tiny bit of a control issue. But even if that were true it didn't change the fact that this wasn't fair. Anyone with the slightest bit of common sense could see that from seventy light years away!
And she couldn't do a thing about it.
And now she really needed a hug.
She saw the picture of her and Kevin out of the corner of her eye and for a moment considered going to find him. But it was a brief moment because as she thought about it she knew there was only one hug that would help heal her battered spirit.
She needed to find her hot stuff. He could help her no matter what mood she was in. He just always seemed to know what to say, what look to give her, and when she needed a hug to chase away the monsters.
He knew her better then she knew herself sometimes and could always fix her problems even if he didn't know he was doing it. So yes, she needed her hunky piece of dark chocolate.
Wait a minute….it dawned on her what thoughts had just ran through her exhausted and over used brain. She wanted to go to her best friend for comfort, not her boyfriend?
Normally she wouldn't give that a second thought, it seemed somehow natural, but for some reason her brain decided to analyze it this time. And it seemed…odd, didn't it?
She had a perfectly good boyfriend who would willingly give her a hug and even kiss her feet if she told him to, but yet she wanted, no needed, her best friend. And she didn't feel bad or awkward about it.
She cared about Kevin. He was sweet and good to her. In a way she supposed she did love him, but not like she did Derek. Her bond with Morgan was deeper, stronger, and more reliable.
And she just realized that Kevin deserved more then what she could give him. Maybe he realized that too, but didn't voice it. After all, he had stopped trying to dissuade her from hanging with Morgan and never mentioned anything about marriage. Yes, occasionally he'd suggest running off somewhere together, but never marriage or kids.
Maybe he wasn't as blind as his lack of color coordination suggested. If that was true then they were both fooling themselves. This wouldn't work in the long run and they both deserved better.
It was strange, wasn't it? That now, after the awfulness of the last year, she would be about to brake up with her long time boyfriend. You would think it'd be like throwing salt on an open wound, but no. Instead it felt…right.
And maybe it was time she tried to prove Morgan wrong about her not liking change. Maybe it was time to surprise him, to take a chance she normally wouldn't risk. It was her turn to make a move now.
Finally she was able to do something. And this something would hopefully bring a bit of happiness and peace to the chaotic mess that had invaded their lives. It was time for change, time for a new beginning, and time for her to finally get her prince charming.
Thanks for reading!
