How come one minute everything seems to be fine, the next minute your whole world is turned upside down? That's exactly what has happened.
I'm sitting in the waiting room of a hospital waiting for the news, be it good or bad... I just need to know, we need to know.
Yesterday was mine and Emily's 5 year anniversary; we've grown up a lot since the days of college... Where it all started. People didn't think we would last, that it was either a 'faze' or just lust. But no, we proved them wrong against the odds and stuck together... Sometimes it was hard and we had our bad arguments at times, but we loved each other and still do. Even after 5 years, we still surprise each other with the little things.
I arranged yesterday weeks ago, everything was set.
I got up, made her breakfast and gave it to her in bed. I was pretty impressed with it: poached egg, bacon and toast... with champagne, only the best for my girl. After that, I told her to get dressed and be downstairs in 30 minutes... That was struggle; Emily was never the sort of person to be on time. But she surprised me yet again by being ready and looking amazing. I pulled her close and kissed her gently, savouring the moment... looking deep into her eyes, those deep chocolate eyes that give away all emotions possible. I then opened the front door to begin the day. We got into the cab that I called 10 minutes before and just told the driver, 'you know where to go.'
Secretly I think Emily knew where we were going. How could we go any other place but the lake? It was our place and nothing else seemed to matter when we were there. The cab came to a halt and it was time for the plan to be put into action. I got out and opened the boot. Just as I asked Effy... Bikes, a backpack for me and a bunch of Lilies for Emily. She came round and the shock on her face made me giggle. 'How did you...' She asked. 'I have my connections,' I say with a smirk... 'Well... don't you just stand there, get the bikes out!' She said cheekily... I poked my tongue out and lightly kissed her nose, and then I turned to get the bikes out. There was a little note attached to my bike.
Nai,
These were fucking heavy, you owe me big time!
Have a good day,
Love you both,
Eff. X
I smile at the thought of Effy struggling with two bikes early in the morning. Classic.
I finish with the bikes and grabbed the backpack and threw it over my shoulder, I saw Emily looking at her bike with a confused look and asked... 'Erm... Naomi, why do I have a basket on my bike... Do I look like an old lady?' 'In the morning you do!' I say laughing, feeling a shove on my arm. 'It's for the flowers silly!' I reply taking them from her and placing them in it. 'You really have thought of everything haven't you?' She asks, already knowing the answer. 'Oh, honey...' I reply, 'we haven't even started!'
We start cycling the familiar route to the lake, laughing and stopping now and then for kisses and to stop ourselves for falling off from all the laughing.
We arrive at the lake and I am shocked to see what an amazing job Katie and Effy have made. Candles hanging from trees and on the ground, a fire burning bright next to a picnic blanket which is scattered with rose petals and has strawberries and a bar of chocolate on the edge. Stuck to the tree there is another note from my little helpers...
Katie and Eff woz 'ere...
Hope you like it, you two enjoy...
But not too much... EW.
Love Katie
P.S I'm soooo glad I didn't have to carry the bikes. Thank fuck!
I look over at Emily who has a silent tear running down her cheek; I see it is a happy tear as she has a small smile on her face. She looks at me and I melt into her big gorgeous eyes.
'I love you Naomi Campbell,' see whispers in my ear as she hugs me tightly. I pull her in for a kiss, not any kiss, an earth stopping, fireworks in the sky, jelly for knees sort of kiss. She pulls away first and looks into my eyes again, 'Oh by the way,' She pauses by giving me another gentle kiss, '...happy anniversary.' I just look at her and take her hand, leading her past the blanket and up to the lake itself. 'After all these years... It's still beautiful.' She says looking mystified by the surrounding. 'Must be the people that come here then.' I say shyly which is received by a load snort from Emily, 'OH! CHEESE OR WHAT NAOMI GOD?' Which sends us both giggling.
The day went really fast, just enjoying each other's company, kissing, giggling, hugging, more kissing and a rather heated moment in the lake... The sun was just setting and the two of us were sitting in front of the fire eating the sandwiches I had made. Banana and sugar for Emily's sandwiches and peanut butter for mine.
'You've made this day so special Nai,' Emily said as she squeezed my hand. '5 years eh?' she continued, 'I never doubted us, I...I...I.' I looked round and saw pain in Emily's face. 'Baby what's wrong?' I ask trying not to sound too panicked. 'Well... I've been having these headaches, for a couple of weeks but...but... ugh this one feels worse, Nai I feel like my head going to explode!'
And that's when it happened, that when our world got turned upside down.
I carried her back the roadside, called the cab to pick us back up, we drove to the hospital. 'Naomi, I'm scared,' she said with tears flowing freely down her face. I wanted to cry with her, I was so terrified of losing her, but I had to stay strong for her sake... 'Baby, look at me, it's going to be fine okay, just take a deep breath and try and take your mind off the pain.'
When we got to the hospital we rushed in and couples minutes later she was being crowded by doctors and nurses. 'We'll take her for a MRI scan now.' Said one of the doctors and simply nodded and kissed Emily on the forehead and told her that I'd be right here when she gets back.
Now I've been sitting in the waiting room for 3 hours, just, staring. Praying to God that my Emily will be okay. I'm broken from my thoughts and prayers by a doctor coming in holding a clipboard. 'Is she ok? Where is she? Can I see her? What's wrong? Is something wrong?' All my unanswered questions from the past 3 hours come slipping out all at once.
'If you'd like to follow me, I would like to speak to you and Emily together... I have some news you need to hear and I think its best that you are there for her when I say it.'
I burst into tears because I know whatever the doctor will be telling us, it won't be good news and that breaks my heart and soul in two.
