i sat on the balck beadspread in my bderoom allone listining to emo music and cutting myself cuz it was a bad day and i need to gte sorrow out of me and feel allive. i cryed my writs cryed tears of blood. when ui was dun, i hid my rzor so no 1 would find it and fell saleep when i was wating for the blood to dry and i dreamd that i was in love wih a boy and he lovd my and cared enuff to save me from myself.
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wen i awok i felt better so i change cltohes wile i was taking on teh phone to my best frind decembr. i put on a my chemicla rmoance shirt and skinni jeans. i'm really skinnii cuz i'm ana mia so i look relly good in skinnii clothes. i put on black convers cuz theyre classic. i talked to mmy friend as i stratened my hair and we decidde to go to the roller skate place and talk and hangout and ppl watch. im gonna hjelp decemeber wiht her problems (her mom is an drugs and her dad beets her a lot). decemebr is a relly good friend 2 me.
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december and me got to the roller skateing place and we rented skates and sjkated around for a bit. no one was really thar because it wasnt afternoon but it wanst quite evening yet. december woar a green day shirt and skinny jeans and pink concerse that match the streak in her black hairr. we sat down and ltalked a little. december dranka large diet coke and i had 3 pizzas and 4 fries and a dozin cookies and than some vodka from a 21yr old guy's flask cauz me and december flirted wit him. i pucked it all up after so i wouldn be fat.
then the lihts got lowr and the music got better. more ppl showed up. decmeber and the 21yr old wer makeing out at or table, so i went 2 sk8 moar. i skate relly good because i was an iceskater when i was littl but i stopped cuz people bullyed me and it mademe relly sad and i got depresst and had 2 go 2 rehab and tehy made me stop. i waws sad but got over it.
i skated into spilld pop and slid. i was about to crash face firts into the grund whne a relly strong manly had with black nale polish caught me and pulled m up.
