Disclaimer : I do not own Instant Star, Or Any of It's Characters including : Jude Harrison, Tommy Quincy, Kwest, Sadie Harrison, Spiederman Mind Explosion, Darius Mills, Portia Mills E.T.C, I also do not own any of The Instant Star/Alexz Johnson lyrics
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Jude clutched the magazine happily as she re-read the words: Sophomore Album - Jude Harrison #1. She walked into G Major a smile stretching from one side of her face to the other, Sadie was sitting at reception filling out some forms while Jamie stood there looking increasingly annoyed. "Look Miss Princess, I know it might be hard for your narrow brain to comprehend but I need those figures for Liam in 20 minutes or else my job is history". Sadie looked up long enough to give Jamie a withering look and retort "What am I now? Your Slave, There's the filing cabinet, get them yourself". Jamie muttered something that Jude couldn't hear while he rummaged in the cabinet but Sadie heard him alright and he earned a sharp poke in the back for it, "OW, What's wrong with you Psycho Barbie" complained Jamie and this again earned him an injury from Sadie: a swift kick in the shins with her metal heeled boots. Jude put her hand over her mouth to suppress her giggles as she walked down to Studio A but she stopped dead at the door: Liam was in the studio shaking hands with a tall, blonde guy in a suit who could only be her new producer. Suddenly the happiness that Jude had inside her evaporated, she felt like her chest was being crushed and she felt like she couldn't breathe. Seeing Liam with that Producer guy only brought back the harsh realisation that Tommy may never come back. Liam's voice brought Jude out of her thoughts and back to reality. "Jude I would like you to meet Jones Darenshawe, He will be your temporary producer until Mr Quincy sees fit to return". Willing herself not to cry, Jude dragged her eyes up to meet those of the tall producer and gave him what she hoped to be a sincere smile. "Nice to meet you Mr Darenshawe" Jude said politely extending her hand, He took it and shook it warmly "Call me Jones, It's a pleasure to meet the one and only Jude Harrison and to be working with you is such an honour". Jude felt a slight blush creep up into her pale cheeks and was extremely thankful when Liam took him off to his office to complete some paperwork. Jude sighed and sank into a nearby sofa, her head still fuzzy from her hangover. In the distance Jude could see Sadie and Jamie bickering like cat and dog, Liam stepped out of his office and quelled the dispute with a single comment "Mr Andrews? I need those figures now". They ceased fighting immediately and Sadie went back to filling out form after form and Jamie scurried to Liam's office, a light brown file clasped in his grasp. Jude chuckled and laid her head down on the plush coffee coloured leather and drifted off to sleep
It was the night of her Sweet Sixteen party at G Major, lighting flashed overhead as Jude stood weeping on a metal fire escape outside , She had just had her heart broken by Shay revealing that he had cheated on her on tour with Eden of all people. She was soaked through, her hair was matted and tangled , her make up was running and her beautiful green silk dress was all but ruined, but she didn't care, she just kept on sobbing her heart out. The sound of the fire escape door opening penetrated her crying and Tommy came down beside her, Jude looked up at him "Go ahead tell me 'I told you so'". Tommy didn't respond he just took off his jacket and draped it around her shoulders, a bolt of lightening flashed overhead and thunder rumbled around them. Tommy leaned on the sodden fire escape "For what it's worth, Shay's a kid and an idiot and he made the wrong choice"; Jude sniffed "That's not worth much coming from you". Tommy drew back looking hurt "What's that supposed to mean?" Jude bent her head "I'm so tired of falling for guys that don't fall back, It hurts". "Jude-" Tommy began but Jude cut him off "You all say the nicest things 'You're so great, You're so nice but none of you wanna date me" Jude turned to look angrily at Tommy "So you wanna help me Tommy, Tell me What I do wrong , Why I'm so easy to give up and maybe I can fix it". Tommy turned around to face her "You … are …. asking …. the … wrong … guy" and pulled her forcefully into a long kiss. They pulled back after a few minutes staring at each other. This tender moment was interrupted by the fire escape door opening and some people peering outside, Jude and Tommy started, the people went back indoors. Tommy stood back from Jude "You should go Jude". "Tommy don't -" pleaded Jude, "I'll see you inside okay, just go" Tommy responded. This last sentence reverberated sounding like a mantra "I'll see you inside okay just go". It was broken by a voice saying 'JUDE, JUDE, WAKE UP, JUDE, WAKE UP'
Jude opened her eyes to see Sadie standing over her. "Wha- ?" she said groggily, Sadie looked impatient "Jude you've been asleep for two hours, Liam says you might as well go home". Jude got up rubbing her head "No it's okay, um Sadie is Studio A free?". Sadie flicked her long blonde hair out of her eyes "Hang on, I'll check for you but I'm pretty sure it's free for the rest of the day" She strode over to the reception desk and consulted the clipboard labelled: 'Studio A'. "Yep it's free, do want me to ask Kwest to set up the mic for you?". Jude grabbed her backpack "No I can set it up myself, I have seen Tommy do it a million times" She swallowed the lump in her throat forcing herself not to think about him. "Oh did I leave my acoustic here?" Sadie looked annoyed at being took away from her heavy workload but she went without complaint to Studio C we they stored everybody's instruments. She came back holding a beautiful worn acoustic with a threadbare brown suede strap. "The only acoustic in there was Tommy's old one", Jude's heart skipped a beat as she took the familiar guitar from Sadie. "He used this when we were recording at the farm" she said softly, Sadie who was rifting through a sheaf of spreadsheets ignored Jude as she searched hastily. "Later Sadie" Jude left her sister in hall and entered the heaven that was her studio but heaven was missing a crucial angel. Jude expertly set up the equipment even though she had never done it before but since she had seen Tommy do it a million times over in late night recording sessions, she was sure that she could do it in her sleep. Jude rummaged in the cupboards looking for a empty reel and found a file labelled : Songs. The untidy scrawl on the label hollered at Jude's heart and twanged at it's strings. Even his chaotic handwriting made her heart ache for him. She lowered herself into a squashy leather beanbag of Tommy's. It still smelled of his aftershave, Jude stopped for a moment and inhaled the comforting smell before opening the file. As she flipped through the pages of the file, every song they had ever worked on sprang out at her in a hurtful torrent. She slammed the file shut and threw it across the room and then sank down to the floor dissolving in tears. For what seemed like hours Jude sat there huge sobs racking her body like in her dream but this time there would be no Tommy to come and comfort her.
