My friends, my family...
Often, even since Sanzo took me in, whenever I had nightmares, or even childish problems, or fears...
When I
am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my
heart burdened be;
or even simple dilemmas I could not solve on my own, I realised recently that Sanzo, Hakkai, and Gojyo, even Hakuryu, were often there to help me pick up the pieces and sometimes even pick myself up.
Then, I am
still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile
with me.
I realised now, from the time he rescued me, that I was never alone.
You
raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to
walk on stormy seas;
It had always made me happy to be with them, particularly when they are in a good mood. Sometimes, it made me feel as if the were trying to help me reach the sun with my wings which I, no... all of us have yet to fly with.
I am
strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up… To more
than I can be.
To the five of us it did not matter what was in our way. It did not even matter how different we are from one another, or what position we are in our group. Even to Sanzo, I could see, would not be able to hold his balance within if not for the four of us to hold his hands within.
You
raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to
walk on stormy seas;
We all worked together when one of us is in trouble... real trouble. That's why I see them more than just my friends, I see them as my family.
I am
strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up… To more
than I can be.
There are no others I would rather be with than Sanzo, Hakkai, Hakuryu and Gojyo.
There
is no life – no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart
beats so imperfectly;
One thing I could not understand is why they never tell me their troubles when they insisted on listening to mine. Was it because they were afraid of burdening my shoulders with their haunted memories? Or is it because they wanted to spare me from the jealousy of not being able to remember my own past?
But when
you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I
glimpse eternity.
Call it a hunch, but maybe they have been trying to give me a childhood, and the adolescent years, that they could never have. I do not know much about their pasts, all I knew is that their world had turned upside down when they least expected it to. Maybe they did not want the same to happen to me. Maybe that's why they often make me blurt out my problems even when I did not wish to share them. Not to mention the fact I hated secrets, but then, some secrets are not meant to be known. That is possibly inclusive of my memories.
You raise
me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on
stormy seas;
In the end, we are there for each other. To hold each other up.
I am
strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up… To more
than I can be.
I do not know why I never realised it before. I know now they were trying to be the best family I could ever have, and are helping me to make new memories.
You raise
me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on
stormy seas;
With every sunset, we become closer. With each trying battle, we become stronger. I feel as if almost nothing can defeat us, not when we have each other.
I am
strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up… To more
than I can be.
On the whole, we are family. And we stick to each other. And that's all that matters.
Author's note: Thank you all so much for encouraging me to write. This is amongst my gifts to you. In case you ever feel alone in the world, don't forget there is always someone to help you keep standing up, even for what you believe in.
