As I mentioned in the summary, this is in Josh's POV, but only until the song lyrics end. Rated T for safety. Please Enjoy! :)
Grenade
Josh sat in Kate's new apartment. He was only half listening to her ramble on about the latest case she and the boys were working. But he couldn't help but get frustrated every time she mentioned that writer. He noticed she'd started calling him Rick now, and this made him feel uneasy. Very uneasy.
Easy come, easy go,
That's just how you live oh,
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give,
Their relationship, he thought, was a fairly basic one. They didn't see each other much, but the sex was awesome, and the conversation was light and often full of laughter. He noticed that she never seemed to give much to it though. Most of the effort in their relationship was during the sex, but he secretly thought she was faking when they were together, and sometimes he could have sworn he had heard her moan 'Castle' in her sleep or during their foreplay.
Should've known you were trouble,
From the first kiss, had your eyes wide open,
Why were they open?
He never felt the same amount of passion from her as he did from himself when they kissed or made love. And sometimes when they talked about the future he almost felt how uncommitted she was to their conversations, almost as though she was wishing she was somewhere else. He'd sometimes be affectionate and she'd push him away, it had gotten worse since he came back from Africa.
Gave you all I had,
And you tossed it in the trash,
You tossed it in the trash, you did.
Now more than ever she would make excuses for their dates or cancel coming over to his for a drink or him seeing her after work. She'd do longer hours at work and he could have counted the thousands of times that she had gotten out of bed with him after receiving a call from that damned writer, who she would then talk to for hours on end. In the middle of the night! Just the other week he had been waiting to surprise her in her apartment and she had opened the door laughing and smiling with him, after he had obviously walked her home. Then, just the other night, when he knocked on her door with flowers in his hand, wine bottle in the other. Only to find him (again!) opening it, wine glass in hand, a yellow file in the other. At that moment he had thought nothing of it. But now piecing the dots together, he knew something must have happened between them, whilst he was away. And part of him knew it was something he was not going to like at all.
To give me all your love is all I ever asked cause,
What you don't understand,
Is I'd catch a grenade for ya,
Throw my hand on a blade for ya,
I'd jump in front of a train for ya,
You know I'd do anything for ya,
He had a never ending list of things he would do for her, the countless compliments he gave her, the, apparently unwanted, affection he lavished upon her, making an effort with her friends and her dad, her work mates, even him.
Ohhh,
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes I would die for ya baby,
But you won't do the same,
He knew she had tried to love him. Things had been great over the summer, everything had been going so well when and she was just starting to let him in a little more… But then he came back. And brought with him all the tensions and closed feelings she'd had when they had first started out at the beginning of June. He stood up quickly, causing Kate to stop talking. She asked him what was wrong as he strode towards the door, yelling his name as he flung it open and took off towards the elevator. Pressing the button to the lobby, he retreated back into his thoughts again.
Nooo,
Black, black, black and blue,
Beat me till I'm numb,
Tell the devil I said 'Hey',
When you get back to where you're from,
Before now he wouldn't have thought about doing it. But the more he thought about it, the more he realised: The guy needed to pay. It is a low move messing with another guy's girl while he's away. But now it was his job to make sure this cat left the mouse alone from now on.
Bad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are yeah,
You smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car,
Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash,
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did,
To give me all your love is all I ever asked but,
What you don't understand is,
He couldn't help but feel a little more than betrayed by Kate. He had poured most of his heart and soul into giving her everything and in a moment of weakness, or so he assumed, she'd had it away with some 'big bucks playboy' crime writer. What was so great about him? What did he have to offer her that was so much better than what she already had with him? Except of course for a Ferrari and about 10 million dollars. He certainly wasn't very good in the looks department (in his opinion) His books weren't that good, unless you were a woman. Or Kate. He winced inwardly as he thought this. He practically sprinted through the lobby and out towards the parking lot, finally reaching his car and starting the engine. He drove like a madman and heard several indignant honks and yells from disgruntled drivers but he didn't care, a lesson had to be taught here and if it wasn't learnt… He'd have to make certain he had got his point across.
I'd catch a grenade for ya,
Throw my hand on a blade for ya,
I'd jump in front of a train for ya,
You know I'd do anything for ya,
Ohhh I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes I would die for you baby,
But you won't do the same.
Pulling up outside Writer boy's building, he got out of his car, smoothed his, now long hair, back off of his face and strode towards the doorman. Smiling as he passed, the doorman smiled back and buzzed him in. Once he had reached the elevator however, the kind smile he had been wearing turned into a smug smirk. How stupid they all are, he thought. Did they even know who he was going to see? Laughing inwardly he strode out of the elevator and onto the floor. Seeing the door he went over to it and knocked, waiting silently for the son-of-a-bitch to open up.
If my body was on fire,
Ooh you would watch me burn down in flames,
You said you loved me you're a liar 'cause you never ever ever did baby…
I'm sorry Kate. He thought in his head, as he heard someone clattering down some stairs on the other side of the door. I have to do this, for you, for us! We can be together if he just left you alone. The door opened slowly and he appeared in the opening, a grin on his face. It faltered when he saw Josh and he greeted him in an astonished voice. Not bothering to ask, he strode past him into his apartment.
Then turning to him, he asked right out: 'What happened between you and Kate when I was in Africa?'
His stupid mouth fell right open.
'Me and Kate?' He asked dumbly. 'Nothing, well actually just one thing but that was just for the job, but it felt like so much more and I think she felt it too-' Then he realised who he was talking to, and shut his mouth. The red hot fury was pouring inside his body and was starting to bubble over.
He stepped towards writer boy and said: 'Look you jackass, I don't care who you are or what you do. But from now on, you're gonna stay away from Kate!'
The idiot actually leaned forward and said right in his face: 'Oh I am, am I? Well what if I don't want to. I'm Rick Castle and she is my partner Kate Beckett, we work together so I'm not just gonna runaway. Besides, what if Kate wants me around? Who am I to deny her my compan-' But Josh had reached his atomic point now and cut Castle off by punching him in the face.
But darlin' I'd still catch a grenade for ya,
'Kate is mine!' Josh yelled, smashing his fist into Castle's face, over and over. On his next hit however, Castle ducked and Josh's hand smashed into the wooden cabernet. He recoiled in pain, tugging his hand back and Castle took the opportunity to hit him back, yelling:
'Well if she's really yours then why did she kiss me!' Laughing loudly at the look of anger on Josh's face, he continued:
'Oh yes, we kissed. Over and over and over. We even used a little tongue and things got so passionate we forgot where we were and what we were doing. She forgot all about you and your stupid little fling or whatever you've got going on. So why don't you leave her alone! Or I'll-' But before we could find out what he would do, Josh got up from the floor and let out a roar as he lunged for Castle, leaping through the air.
Throw my hand on a blade for ya,
I'd jump in front of a train for ya,
Rolling around on the ground together, hitting and yelling and kicking one another, neither of them noticed the front door opening and Alexis coming through it.
'Dad?' She called out and the frantic noises stopped. Then, jumping up suddenly away from Josh, Castle cried:
'Alexis, honey, quick! Get up those stairs and stay there. Then called the police.'
You know I'd do anything for ya,
Ohhh, I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes I would die for you baby,
But you won't do the same,
No, you won't do the same,
You won't do the same,
Ohhh you never do the same,
Nooo.
'There's no need for that.' Josh drawled. 'I've made my point. You just need to ask yourself what you love more, living or my girlfriend. I mean it you son-of-a-bitch, stay away from Kate.' Then he stormed out of the loft.
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So that was chapter one. What did you think guys? Next chapter will be all Caskett and no songs, YAY! Please leave a review it will give me a goal to work for when I am writing the next chapter! ;) I joke, I joke! Thanks x
