It was over. It was finally over. After escaping singularity and shared laugh between the crew, it was finally over. She turned her chair towards Spock. He was already looking at her and he nodded approvingly.

For the first time in forever, she felt satisfaction. Sure, she was happy when she beat Spock's infamous Kobayashi Marue, but this... This was different. Something new entirely.

The last time she felt this satisfied with herself was when she drew her father's antique car off that cliff when she was thirteen, back in Iowa. That asshole Frank,tried to sell it.

Jim wouldn't have any of that.

So she took the keys she found when she 'washed' the car and then she took the car for a spin. Few moments before the car went off a cliff, she considered going with it too. She wanted it to end. She wanted everything to end. But then it hit her.

She is James T. Kirk. She doesn't surrender. Destiny can kiss her in the ass. Fate be damned. She makes her own future. She writes her own destiny.

No. Jim doesn't give up.

She turned the wheel on the side, opened the door and then... she jumped.

It seemed she wasn't going to make it. But she held tight. It was her own stubbornness that wouldn't let her die. When the police got her to the door, she held her head high. Even after Frank beat her up, she still held her head high. She was satisfied.

She felt pride the day after that bar fight in Iowa. When she boarded that shuttle. The boys she beat up last night were looking at her with disgust.

She was pretty beat up too. She had bruises all over her face, stomach and ribs. But she didn't care. The boys were all beat up too. And she was the only one that fought them. There were six of them.

Of course, Uhura yelled at them to stop. But she definitely wasn't trying to help either. It actually started because of Uhura.

You see, Jim isn't a picky person. And she loved sex. You combine those two and you have a disaster called Jim. She tried to pick Uhura up. Uhura, of course, when she saw Jim's tall self with blond hair and boobs automatically thought that she was dumb. When Jim proved her wrong she just smiled and told her that she was impressed and that she thought she was "just a dumb hick that only had sex with farm animals", to which Jim, quite smartly (note the sarcasm), answered "not only".

And then a hell break loose.

After she provoked the guy, (that started first, thank you very much) that she called Cupcake, into hitting her, Jim fought back. Fuck it. He hit her. And now she's fighting back. At the end she ended up with bloody nose, thrown over a table with a bruised ribs, her head hanging off of the same table she was thrown over.

And then Pike came in. He stopped the fight. Since she was tipsy, bruised, beat up, and her ego wounded, the only thing she could say was "You can whistle really loud, you know that?"

The next thing she knew, she was riding her bike to where Pike told her that night. That sly fuck. He knew she would come. He dared her. He was sure she would come. And he was right because she was here.

"Four years? I'll do it in three."

And then she hit her head on the railing because she is so damn tall. And because she didn't look where she was going.

Uhura was there. And so were the boys she had a fight with last night. And then there was Bones. Oh boy. Where to start.

"I might throw up on you."

It was the first thing he said to her. He had a fear of flying. Hell, he probably still has it. But the moment she met him, she knew. She knew he would become her best friend. She just knew.

And then there she was three years later. Fucking with Gaila. Both figuratively and literally. Figuratively she fucked around with Gaila. They drunk together, talked shit behind people's back, (that was mostly Gaila. Jim was always open and she always told what she thought. No matter Good or bad.) And literally, well, no need to explain that.

And then there was Kobayashi Marue. And that damn hearing. And then Spock.

Spock was/is a professor. He teaches xenolinguistics.

Jim is smart. Very smart. Maybe even smarter that him. She has a brilliant brain and an eidetic memory. Still, she gets in trouble a little too often. Even with that big brain of hers.

Jim saw Spock for the first time on that hearing. He was handsome. Too handsome for his own good. His aura radiated with confidence. He looked skinny, but Jim knew that beneath that uniform lay nothing but pure hard muscle. He was Vulcan after all. Very smart obviously. He created the damn test. He had to be capable. When he rose up to his full height Jim couldn't help but to think what else he was capable of.

When he verbally swept the floor with her, she licked her full lips. She always did that when she was either nervous or turned on and at that point she was both. She was turned on because of the way he held himself in the hearing and the way he spoke. He had a very rich baritone voice, soft like velvet. And she was nervous because she thought that she has finally gone crazy. If the way he spoke turned her on despite the things he was saying... yup, she's definitely insane.

But then he brought her father into the argument. And she couldn't believe she just heard that. That was below the belt, even for a Vulcan. He attacked her. Now it's time for her to fight back.

And she did. And her father would be proud. She was sure of that.

And then there was Nero. And Pike was kidnapped. And Vulcan was destroyed. And Spock's mother was dead. And she was marooned. And there was that animal that looked like polar bear and gorilla mixed together. And that spider/something that tried to eat her.

And then there was Spock again. Just not her Spock this time. And the mind meld. So much. Too much. Emotions. Pain, heartbreak, anger, guilt... but beneath all of those negative emotions there was one that she couldn't quite put her finger on. It was warm and save and it felt like home and then... it was gone. She stared at him with eyes that were filled with tears. "Emotional transference.' He told her.

And then Scotty. He and his friend were complaining. Apparently they were hungry because they had nothing but shakes or some shit like that there. When he found out that Spock, the old spock, was from future the first thing he asked him was "Do they still have sandwiches there?" Scotty was smart too. He discovered how to beam aboard the ship while they are in warp speed. The only reason he was there was because admiral Archer's prized beagle was lost during and experiment. Poor guy.

And then they were back on Enterprise. And Scotty was stuck in one of those water pipes. And she had to get him out. And then there were guards and she was back on the bridge.

And then there was a fight. And then pain. Spock was choking her. She was bent over a console and Spock was above her with his hand around her throat.

If this wasn't such a dire situation she would have commented on how she would love to see him hoovering above her while they were in her quarters and she lay in bed. She would love to see him doing some other things to her too. But unfortunately, this was a dire situation.

And then he stopped. And he was 'emotionally compromised', and she didn't muss a look Uhura gave him, and she was jealous damn it and why did she feel jealous. She didn't own him. No matter how much she wished she did, she didn't. And how exactly did she come from being attracted to him, to hating him, to being jealous because a beautiful girl looked at him the way she wanted to look at him? Just how exactly did she do that?

And then she was the capitan and they were discussing together how to bring Pike back and then Spock was back. And then there was transporter. And she was jealous again. And surprised. But mostly jealous. She was so jealous that she had to physically bite her tongue so she wouldn't say something inappropriate or stupid. She was prone to doing stupid things when she was drunk or someone took something that belongs to her. But Spock wasn't hers. So why?

When they finished their makeout session, Uhura turned to her and Jim just nodded. She had nothing to say. And it was awkward. So awkward. Until Scotty spoke.

And then they were on the Nerada. And they were shooting at the Romulans. And they found Spock's, old Spock, ship and she had to avoid his eyes like a plague, because she would be sure he would see right through her and her lies. Because Spock, old Spock, just had to tell her that the universe will go boom if Spock, her spock, (he is not hers, so why does she feel the need to use this possessive pronoun?) knew about him, so she had to keep that information for herself.

And then they parted ways. And there was Nero and he was choking her (not again. Before this she was kinda into that SM thing, but at that moment she found that pretty repulsive. That was enough choking for the rest of her life thank you very much) and then there was Pike and they were back on the Enterprise. And then there was a singularity that she mentioned before and...

And then Spock nodded. And she nodded right back.

Oh yes. She could get used to this.

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Hey you guys. So my second story. Yay.

Disclaimer: I don't own a shit. If I owned Star trek believe when I tell you that Jim would be a female and Spock wouldn't end up with Uhura. The next chapter will be soon. But I will probably update my other story before this. Also the cast stays the sam the only difference is that instead of Chris Pine as Jim you have a VS angel Candice Swanepoel. So anyway, I hope you enjoy this story and please comment, vote, write me a message because I want to know if I'm doing this right. Ok? Ok. Bye.