A/N: I wanna right this story out for so long but didn't have time and I was a little bit lazy to. Not to mention I barely get to touch the computer, my parents say that the best way to waste your summer is waking up late and playing computer game (seriously, I don't play computer game, I only read FFn, surf FB and look for new music or some cool software to mess up with). My school is 'bout to start anywayso I decide that I should right something before it does. My summer suchs, I barely had any fun and only have few weeks off. Great summer ever. Since I'm not in the mood, so Robin will be very short-tempered in this story (actually, I'm a short – tempered person myself). (: Oh and BTW, there will be a little swearing in this one. Usually I don't swear but uh.. yeah.. I swore a little bit in this.
Disclaimer: I don't own the Teen Titans or Jesse McCartney or Akon or Lonely Island except my freaking imagination.
"Oh man, I'm so bored, isn't there anything else to do?" Kid Flash exclaimed as he lazily flipped channels through channels "Five hundred channels and nothing is worth watching." He turned off the TV.
"Hey, where's Robbie? He surely knows how to entertain me."
Beast Boys shurgged, his mouth was full of tofu but he still stuffed more in
"I'm a hundred percent sure that the guy is working with his beloved papers. He's even more head over heels in love with his work than with Star." He grinned at those last words.
Seeing Star was betroot red, Cyborg changed the subject, which he thought was more important than the romance between Robin and his work.
"So, what makes ya come here? I dun think you came here for nothing." He eyed Kid Flash, whose grin suddenly faded into a slight frown. "It's personal… but I-ugh, think that it's good to drop you guys a visit."
"You're gonna stay here for a while?" Beast Boys wiped his not so clean, tofu – covered mouth with his (not so clean either) sleeve and pointed at KF's bags with his free hand.
The speedster's frown grow deeper
"Yeah, that will do us some good."
"It's totally okay with us, bud" Cyborg slapped Kid Flash's shoulder in a friendly way "But you gotta ask spiky for his permission. I think that would be okay with him too, except for the part that the little guy is pretty in a bad mood these days."
Hearing this, Kid Flash whispered "I know" and his voice got even too small for himself to hear "that's why I'm here."
He replaced his frown with his usual delighted grin
"Yo, you wanna watch this, I'm sure it's a trillion times better than any show you've ever watched."
He pulled a Compact Disc out of one of his bags and chuckled wickedly
"But make sure Robbie doesn't know this, or he's gonna skin me alive."
~BREAKLINE~
Cyborg was totally right, Robin was in an extremely bad mood, not the I-wanna-smash-everything-including-your-face mood but the I-m-so-fucking-depressed-that-I-can-slit-my-wrists -now one. He pursed his lips, he usually didn't let his feelings take control of him and his work, as the years went by, his feelings were starting to become nothing but numbness. For many times, he had wondered when he would eventually find true happiness to ever be himself again, and for exactly equal times, he found no answer.
Robin let out a heavy sigh, brushing away his thoughts. "C'mon, you have tons of work to do, don't get so distracted." the emotionless side of him reminded him in such a cold tone he would shiver were he to be someone else. The Boy Wonder shook his head as if he was trying to escape from depressed thoughts inside of him. "Get back to what you're supposed to do now." He tried to concetrated, but before he could do whatever he intended to, he heard something.
It was someone laughing so hard, his guts could end up being throwned out from his mouth. Robin shrugged "Probably Beast Boy watching his lame shows again." but his sensitive ears caught more laughings coming from the main room. And not only laughters, but also screams and yells joined to make an unbearable noise. Robin scowled "What the heck are the doing?", he had intended to just ignore the noise but it was getting more and more annoying to the point that he coulnd't pretend it was nothing. Scowl deepened, he entered the main room, where all the laughter and yelling came from. And when he did, he suddenly froze, unable to move as what being showed on the big screen hit him hard.
Obviously, no one noticed his presense, the Titans were too busy laughing their heads off, even Raven was… chuckling. As can be seen on the screen, Robin's younger self was standing on a platform, hand holding a microphone and singing a Jesse McCartney's song with his high – pitched voice "because you live and breathe, because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help, because you live girl, my world has twice as many stars in the sky.". In addition to his humilation, he was only wearing a Bat-trunk (yes my friend, Bat-trunk) and a pair of darkglasses. Truth to be said, Young – Robin sounded exactly like Jesse, his voice was perfect, but the sight of him wearing Bat-trunk and singing like a drunk made the Titans couldn't help it but bursted into laughter. As the song ended, Young – Robin grinned from ear to ear and blew a playful kiss to the audience before taking a bow. Then he straightened up, still grinning playfully and shouted "guys, who wants more?"
As there were voices telling him to go on, Y-Robin put his hand in the air and shouted "Wally, play the song in my cell phone please." In less than a second, music filled the air and Y-Robin swung his body along with the rhymth and started singing "I jus had sex, and it felt so good, a girl let me put my p***s inside her, I just had sex, and I'll never go back, to the not-having-sex way of the past…".
"Man, stop it, I can't take it anymore, my side hurts." From somewhere down the floor, Beast Boy choked between his gigles.
"Yeah, my sides hurts too, badly." Cyborg exclaimed while trying to catch his breath but unabe to. Well, like they say, wishes come true, the TV suddenly turned off.
"Hey, who turns off the TV?" Beast Boy complained while Cyborg stared wordlessly at the person he expected to meet least, for seconds, Cyborg felt he forgot how to breathe. Seeing the tin man's strange attitude, all other Titans turned their heads to the direction where Cyborg was staring and at once, they forgot how to breathe too. There, standing in the door way was Robin, the one who was being made fun at. His expressions were mixed with piles of anger, shame, humiliation, shock and sadness, his face was turning from beetroot red to a color matching the white of sheet.
"R…robin… ..you take a rest so soon." Beast Boys swallowed, trying to break the deadly silence, which successfully snapped Robin out of his piles of mixed emotions. Now the only thing he felt was anger, extreme anger, the anger that he rarely feel, not even when he was forced into apprenticeship by Slade did he felt so angry like that. His body was shooking visibly, his hands clenched into fists and he pounded an angry fist against the wall, leaving a huge dent on it. The other Titans shivered, not from anger, but from fear – when Robin got furious, it was hard to tell what he would do.
"WHO GAVE YOU THIS FUCKING VIDEO" he shouted, totally lost his self-control. "TELL ME WHO THAT SON OF A BITCH IS SO I CAN TEAR HIM FROM LIMB TO LIMB." He punched into the wall again, this time leaving an enormous hole on it. Kid Flash let out a small whimper, which didn't miss Robin's sensitive ears. He sent KF his famous bat glare "So, it's you, huh?" He approached Kid Flash threateningly "what the FUCK are you doin' here, you ASSHOLE? You're not supposed to be here, you're supposed to be with THEM." He grabbed Kid Flash by the collar "Too bad you fail me again."
"Di-I mean Rob, you know what I'm here for." Kid Flash whimpered. "Beside, don't you miss the good old memory?"
Robin narrowed his eyes dangerously, then dropped his scared friend onto the ground with a big "thud".
"Don't let me see you again Bay-watch. You don't wanna know how much I despise you". He stormed out of the room, leaving a stunned Kid Flash behind.
"Well… that was harsh."
Raven commented. Although she understood that Robin had a good reason to hit the ceiling, she didn't think he should be overacting.
"He always takes thing too seriously."
Kid Flash warily ran his hand through his auburn hair
"I didn't expect him to act like that. I was hoping that he would laugh it off."
Starfire clutched her hand to her chest
"Friend Robin is always serious, he doesn't like jokes or pranks, especially when those are to make fun of him."
Seeing other Titans nodding in agrreement, Kid Flash sighed
"Too bad he has changed so much I couldn't regconize him. He used to be carefree and joyful, he was everyone's source of fun. He always knew how to make one laugh, but… but now the only thing he knows is how to make other people shiver in fear."
He stood up "Sometimes Rob is even scarier than his mentor."
"Mentor?" Starfire asked.
"Duh, his mentor is Batman, the Dark Knight, Greatest Detective of the World." Beast Boys jumped up and down in excitement but Raven shoved him off "Did you say that Robin used to be happier than he is now?"
"Yeah. Although I knew too well he would change in a negative way, I didn't expect him to be this pessimistic and grumpy."
"What is responsible for this?" Cyborg questioned, hoping for an answer but Kid Flash only shook his head and said
"You shouldn't know. Robin didn't like others knowing his problems. Beside, it's classified, he's gonna kill me if I spill the beans. I hope… I can make him back to the way he was before… but.. things change, I guess."
Silence.
They didn't feel like laughing out loud anymore.
They only felt a deep sadness rising inside of their hearts, remembering how Robin would refuse to spend time having fun with them. From the time they knew him 'til then, they never saw him actually enjoy him nor have fun, they never saw him smile for real, just a half-hearted smile. It hurt them deep inside realizing how dark and cold their leader actually was. It shocked them to great extend to see a happy, joyful Robin with a full grin, they never thougth he was capable of being so carefree and fun-loving.
They were wrong.
He could. No, he used to be able to, but not anymore.
They wished they could help him out of his depression to bring him back. Oh, how much they wanna see him happy. But they couldn't, there was nothing they could do to help him.
Or that was what they thought at first.
"I know a spell which bring a person back to who he used to be, to his real personality." Raven calmly said, trying to hide her wave of emotion, at last she could help him back, at last she could repay him for everything that he had ever did to her.
But Kid Flash frown, bitting his lower lip "I'm not sure, Robin has a bad experience with spells. Actually he pretty much hates spells."
"What do you mean? You said you want to help him out." Cyborg objected Kid Flash.
"I did, but not with magic or spell, it doesn't really help, just some kind or illusion."
Raven assured the speedster
"Hey, it's not illusion, I promise. If it goes to far, I will remove the spell."
Kid Flash considered Raven's words for a few moment before saying "This doesn't sound like you. I mean, you're not the kind of person who like casting spell on other people. Ugh, what I'm saying is…"
Raven cut Kid Flash off
"This is my chance to help Robin, I wanna repay him for everything he did for me. He has saved me more than one time. Let me, I can do it."
The speedster paused for a few seconds, then he said in defeat
"Okay, just… promise that you will break the spell when I say it."
"Promise."
~BREAKLINE~
In his own room, Robin was mentally kicking himself, he couldn't believe he had said such cruel words and done such harsh things to his very best friend.
"I should have control myself" he thought. "Now it's too late, he must've left and maybe he will never come back. Worse, he might never wanna see me again, let alone talk to me."
Robin dropped himself onto his bed, cursing himself with unrepeatable words.
He sat there for a while, considering what he would do next. He didn't wanna see the Titans after the incident, after yelling at their faces as if they were some kind of criminals. "I have to apologize to them, and then Wally. I wonder if he will forgive me for everything I've said."
A cold, ruthless voice said inside his head "how could you expect him to forgive you. You never learn how to appreciate what you have 'til you lost it. Think back how you lost everything, it's all because of your selfishness." He blinked, he didn't like this voice, but after all, it was himself thinking.
"Go out there before it's too late, before your lose another family again." Robin reluctanlly got on his feet and opened his room's door. He feared that the Titans would be mad at or laugh at him, either way was bad. He had sworn so badly, he still remember saying that swearing indicated an underdeveloped vocabulary and lack of education. "Great! Now the Titans may think I have an underdevelped vocabulary and lack of education."
He entered the room, hoping he would see Kid Flash. And there he was, sitting on the couch, watching TV as if nothing had happened. Robin sighed in relief "He's still here, wonder if he still wanna talk to me?"
He approached his best friend.
"Hey KF, 'bout earilier, I…"
He didn't get to finish his sentence as he saw Raven rose her hands above her head and yelped "SOHTNIZ NOINRTEM HTARAZA,"
Robin blinked "wh-what?" as the black magic of the Goth girl wrapped his body
"Raven… what's going on?"
He didn't get to hear the answer, were Raven to answer him. He was choking on the magic as he felt a strange feeling rushing toward him, something he hadn't felt for years. He didn't have a chance to judge what it was, since oxygen was running out of his lungs. Robin desperately gasped for oxygen as he was leviated in te air, he coun't open his mouth, he couldn't breathe. His mind was losing its concentration and started to wonder if this was the end of the Boy Wonder's life. But somewhere deep inside of him, he couldn't believe Raven would do that just vecause of his words. They had shared a special bound since he braced hell to save her. So there was no reason for her to did this to him, no. They were not merely friends, but brother and sister. Robin always took best care of Raven, as well as Raven did to him. They never had an argument, not a single one. But this time, it did't take one bad argument for bad things to happen. Robin was in hell now, still faintly wondering the true reason for his sister's action. He shut his eyes painfully, it was getting worse, giving him an unbearable pain… Raven… His mind calling out for her name before shut down into darkness.
The Titans watched Robin twitching in pain worriedly. They hoped it would be over soon, they didn't want to see himsuffer, after everything he had been through. Raven, on the other side, knew that it was going to last much longer. Robin had gone too far, changed too much. Ravne hoped she could endure a little more so that she could bring Robin back to who he truly was as much as possible. She could hear the one she considered brother's body screaming in extreme agony, but she couldn't stop. She tried to ignored Robin's voice calling her name, telling her to stop. She tried to ignored Robin's questions, but she couldn't do the same to her power, her body. She felt exhausted, she couldn't stand the tiredness, so finally she let go of Robin and let him fall freely.
Thud
Robin hit thee floor as the black magic faded into nothingness. He lay there motionlessly when Raven held her hand to her head, painting. Obviously the spell had taken her much strength and energy. Kid Flash dashed to Robin's side, picking him up by his arm, it was then when Robin began to stir, eyes blinking a few times behind his mask "uh-ugh.."
"You're okay, dude?" Kid Flash worriedly asked, slightly shook Robin's shoulder but he remained quiet.
"Rob?"
To everyone's surprise, Robin straightened up and grinned widely
"Yep, I'm fine. In fact, I'm totally feeling the aster."
A/N: Okay, so that is the end of chapter one. Tell me what you guys think. I'm not so good at expressing my thoughts in English, I'm trying to, but there's still too much room for improvement. Yeah, so in my story you may find false expression or so, but I hope you will enjoy the story the same. Review, I think it won't take you more than five minutes to review. I love reviews and so do the Titans. Oh and the songs are "Because you live" by Jesse and "I just had sex" by Lonely Island ft Akon.
