So I saw a really sad AMV about homestuck. I need to write and do something about my feels. This is just a small one chapter thing for now. If you want it continued then leave a review. WARNING: This is sadstuck. Really bad sadstuck that I feel bad about writing.
Your name is Aradia Megido. You're tired of being a part of this world. You have beaten Sburb and your Matesprit, Sollux Captor, was back here just as he was. You merged the world of trolls and humans somehow. Trolls had the access to human technology. Now here you were at the funeral of Sollux. If you hadn't of merged the worlds this wouldn't have happened. Now you had an empty room in your hive, and empty quadrant, and and empty heart.
The feelings were crushing you. You don't want to cry, you'll see him again someday. You could have saved him from that car crash if it wasn't for the argument. Why was Vriska even here? She didn't deserve to be here at this. She had caused this. She had crashed her car into Sollux's. She had killed him and unlike you in the game, he wasn't coming back.
Your eyes are cloudy with the tears. They start to fall one by one. One for the torture in Sburb, one for what you're going through. Each small one falls until they aren't individual anymore. You're crying, screaming for Sollux to come back. Hoping for something that can't be possible. You see all the trolls around you.
This is the first time in your life you wished for a moirail. Somebody who could hold you and tell you lies about how everything would be alright. All you have now is hatred as you scream at fate. Why did Sollux have to die? You made through the game only to get caught in the world. You stop screaming only for Equius, your Kismesis, to do something so unlike him. He puts his arm around you. He could be your moirail for the effort he's putting in.
You watch the coffin being lowered into the ground. As it sinks you feel your shattered heart falling into your stomach. A final tear falls before you can't cry anymore, the sobs still continue. You know that you're making a bit of a scene. You don't care anymore. Sollux was your life, the only reason you could stand this messed up world.
He was the geek, the hacker, your Matesprit. You were the ghost girl, the loner, the lucky girl who got the attention of Sollux. Now you weren't any of these things. You gave up you collapsed on the ground. You gave into the pain and left things as they were. The tears are back. Equius continues to comfort you. You ruin his shirt crying on it. You stay like this in front of everyone. Equius helps you stand up until the end.
You get into the back of a car. You don't feel like you're here. You're a ghost of a girl, walking amongst the graves. You miss Sollux. You miss his obsession with bees, computers, and hatred of losing wifi even for a few seconds. You remembered all the good times when you had just watched a movie. Or the one time you helped make a virus to send to Karkat.
Now he was in one of a thousand graves. One of a thousand ghosts.
I feel bad for writing this. Sorry if this was triggering. Please leave a review if you want this continued, I probably won't. So yet again. sorry if this was triggering.
~The Topaz Girl
