Is Love a Good Thing or a Bad Thing? Chapter One:

"Sango? Are you okay?" The monk asked.

Sango was sitting on a rock by the river, her face in her hands. She didn't seem to hear him.

"Sango?" He said again. "Are you hurt? Did something happen?" After she didn't answer again, he figured that she was ignoring him.

Not wanting to leave, incase something actually was wrong, he sat on the ground next to the rock. The rock was big enough for two, maybe even three, people to sit on it. But he didn't want to disturb her if she was in deep thought and hadn't heard him talking to her.

They sat there for a while. Sango with her face hidden in her hands. Miroku was sitting on the ground watching the water in the river. It rippled in spots and swirled in others. And a few feet down the river he could see that there was a tiny water fall too.

"Did you say something Miroku?" Sango asked all of a sudden, startling Miroku so much he almost jumped.

"Hmmm...? No... Well... I did a few minutes ago..." He told her. She looked... sad. Well... she often looked sad. But now she looked really and truly depressed. Like something had gone horribly wrong.

"Sorry... I was... thinking... about something. I guess I got really obsorbed in my thoughts." She explained.

"It's alright lady Sango."

"What was it you had said?" She asked.

"I asked if you were okay. You've been gone a long time. Kagome and Inuyasha had started to worry. So I came to make sure you were okay." He said as he stood back up.

"Inuyahsa was worried?" Sango said.

"Yes, actually, he was."

"That's a first."

"Well... Shall we go back to camp, lady Sango?" He asked.

"You go... I... I need to think." She said.

"You've been thinking a lot lately." He sat back down. "Care to share some of your thoughts?"

As much as she wanted to tell him, or even tell Kagome or Inuyasha, she couldn't. She just couldn't tell them that the thing she'd been thinking of so much lately was love. Her family was gone, and she missed the emotion that had always came with them. She was afraid of love. So she had none in her life. Or did she? She was in love. With probably the worst person she could ever be in love with. Miroku.

She had been thinking so much trying to straighten things out. She wanted to have things under control. Love is not an emotion that's willing to be controled. She didn't want to be in love with him. She didn't want to be in love with anyone. Ever.

She wanted him to know how much he meant to her. How much she's hurt everytime he flirts with someone; even if it's her he's flirting with, because she knows it's nothing but lecherousy. She wanted him to know that she was in love.

But she was afraid of love. She had loved her family, and her friends, and everyone in her village too, she supposed. Well, look where that got her. Hurt. Everyone was dead. Everyone she had loved was dead. And it hurt. She had no one to turn to. And it just hurt. It still hurt, it probably always would. Even if she could never tell him that she loved him, she still did, even if she didn't want to.

It seemed the only person that didn't know _Miroku_ was in love with Sango, was Sango herself.

"Sango?" He said after a few moments. "_Everyone's_ worried about you. Are you okay?"

"Well... Everyone has nothing to worry about. I'm fine." She said.

"Okay... But if you need to talk about something... I'll listen. And if you don't want to talk to me," He winced inwardly, "Kagome would listen to whatever it is you want to tell her."

"I'm fine Miroku. I just need to think. I need to talk to Kaede. Is she in her hut?" She said.
Luckily they were staying near Kaede's hut because it was the new moon and Kagoem had just gotten back. Inuyasha didn't want to travel when hee was human.

"Umm... She should be Sango.Why? Why do you need to speak to her all of a sudden?" He asked.

"Umm... Uh... It's a girl thing." She wasn't actually lieing. She was going to ask Kaede for a potion or a spell or something, to keep her happy; to keep her from gettign really depressed, like she so often was.

"Okay. I'll tell the other's where you've gone." Miroku said, then walked off, not really beleiving her.

"Right."

It turned out Kaede did have such a spell. Well... It was more like a charm. It was a necklace. When she was wearing it, it would stop her from worrying as much, she would be happy and content with her life as it was. She wouldn't feel as if she needed Miroku.

Sango had told Kaede that she didn't know why she was depressed. She hated to lie to her, but she didnt' want Kaede to know her secret. Kaede had accepted this and gave her the necklace.

It was a simple string of beads that you slip over your head, but it had one extra thing. There was a metal moon charm hanging on the bottom of it. The beads were light purple and gave it an almost mystical look.

It worked too. Sango was found throughout the rest of the day picking flowers, humming to herself, and randomly laughing for no reason. No one really thjought anything of this. They figured that whatever had been wrong with her was all better now. At least that's wha tInuyasha and Kagome figured. Miroku, however, thought differently.

A/N: Sooo?!!?! How'd ya like it? It's not done yet... don't worry!yes... this is going to be one of those sappy miroku/sango fics....or atleast it will be if i don't change my mind... a few chappies'll be foccused on kagome and inuyasha. anywho! what are you waiting for? The more reveiws i get the faster i update!