Love, Teiko


Letters


We live in the modern era now. We live in an age where letters are becoming scarce. Not many people find the time in their busy schedule, nor the need or want to sit for a moment, pen in hand, and write.
We can text or call now, which is very convenient I must say. Yet, those methods of communication are simply not efficient to me. Not anymore at least.
Honestly, I wish they were. I wish I could send you a text and have you reply in mere minutes. I wish you would answer my calls.

But the phone rings to no end.

At least, I like writing letters. I feel they bring a deeper connection. Not only because it's more personal for you to read this with my own, a bit sloppy handwriting, but because they're unique in their own way.

You see, letters have this little magic in them, this little something that makes them special.

When letters are written, they have a recipient in mind. A receiver of the words we pour into them. A receiver of the feelings we try to communicate through carefully chosen words. Someone who you think of for the whole moment you write.
And I'm no exception.

Today I'm writing a letter to you. Because calls can't reach you, not anymore. Today I'm writing a letter with your image in mind, because I'm sure this letter will travel to wherever you are. Letters always get there, no matter how many days pass until they reach their destination.

Full with love and hope, your name has been carefully written on the envelope, I made sure that every curve of it was as neat as it could be. The ink, fresh and new, made it perfectly onto the paper. There's no mistake. Soon, hopefully, your hands will touch this same paper I'm touching, and your eyes will see the same words as I do.

For a moment I hesitated, I thought I didn't know where you were… But I was wrong. I'm sure you are there, you know?

Up there, in the heavens.

That's why I'm so sure this letter will get to you, because I have faith that you're there, probably watching over me right know. Probably sad that I'm writing with tears staining my eyes.
I'm sorry, darling, for I didn't want to cry. But your absence in this world truly pains me. Writing this makes me feel happy, knowing that you will have this too, soon. But it also makes me sad because it's a constant reminder that you're… not here.

But even if you aren't, not in person, I believe I carry you everywhere I go. In any given moment your presence can be felt through me. I want to believe that.

I wonder, can you feel it too? My heart is being poured in every word of this letter, my tears falling down my cheeks. I want you to feel it. To feel me once more.
I also want to feel you again, but the memory of you is still so vivid in my heart, every time I close my eyes, I can feel you there, right in front of me.
You lean closer, whisper in my ear. And then, you kiss me, right on the cheek. I can feel your lips. They're still warm.
Your soft skin, your playful look…

It's rather nostalgic, you know? To communicate with you, even if it's only me on the giver's side. But I don't mind at all. If this will bring us closer, then I don't mind writing a million letters and one more.

As long as I can be with you, darling, nothing will be impossible. As long as I have a pen, paper, and an envelope, I will be there for you, like I always have been.

I plead of you, my darling, don't fear. Wherever it is that you reside, please, wait for me.

I won't leave you alone, as I promised some time ago. So just wait a bit more. Today I'm closer to you, and tomorrow I'll be even more. So please, be patient, my darling.

I will see you soon.

-Love, Teiko