Unfortunately I am not J. K. Rowling so I did not create the Harry Potter world. This is my first Fanfiction so please review it, even if you hate it give me some feedback. Also I plan on posting further chapters.
Remus and Sirius had been best friends since the day they meet on the Hogwarts express. That's all it ever was, tell it wasn't.
Sirius had dated many girls in his Hogwart days, more than he could remember. That was simple like it always had been, he had it down to an exact routine. He liked girls, he had too. He was Sirius, the ultimate player, by his 5th year he had snooged more than half the girls at Hogwarts.
Every time a thought of his soft lips pressed against Remus's popped up in his mind, he convinced himself that he was just bored, it had only been a thought, nothing more. And so it was, for 5 years. Everytime he caught himself checking out a guy, he told himself it was just a mistake. Everytime he saw one of his buds nude he told himself it was just a coincidence he went hard. But by his 6th year, Sirius could no longer pretend. He knew somewhere deep within that he liked Remus, as more than a friend, but he still couldn't admit that to himself.
It was during a particularly cold rainy day, where no one wanted to leave their dorms, when Sirius stumbled upon something that would break the walls of lies he built within himself.
Most of the gryffindors were huddled up in the common room all squished around the fire, trying to keep their hands warm. There wasn't much chatter today, grumpiness hung in the atmospheres like poison waiting to be inhaled. The sky was an ugly shade of grey and the wind made the tower rattle and shake from time to time.
"Hey guys, do you want to play a game of hide and seek?" James asked the crowd of gryffindors. Mutters of no and several heads shook their replies.
"I'll play." Sirius said standing up. That's one thing that was always great about Sirius, he was always up for whatever you threw at him. It didn't matter what it was, Sirius would try it. Except well, of course, being gay, he wasn't quite up for that yet.
"I guess I'll play too." Remus added as he put down his book.
"Yeah me too!" Peter said excitedly. From there, one by one the rest of the Gryffindors stood up deciding to join, plus it wasn't like they were doing anything else.
"Okay, so let's just stick within the commun room and the boys dormitories because everyone can get in those places." James announced, giving an angry glare at the girls. It wasn't their fault the boys couldn't enter their dormitories, but James seemed to think otherwise.
"I'll be it to start!" James said while rushing off to the door. "You guys have got 60 seconds starting… now !" James hopped out of the gryffindor house into the hallway. Faintly you could hear him counting down from 60.
Sirius darted for his dorm, he knew where to hide up in there. There was a hidden closet that he had only discovered the last week. It was nestled in a tight space between his and Remus's beds. It wouldn't have been noticeable to prying eyes, without the thin outline of the wood panelling against the wooden walls. There weren't any door knobs n'or handles, and the colour of the walls matched perfectly against those of the closet doors.
As he Rushed for the of the 6th years room, he caught a glance of the door to the hidden closet closing slowly without a sound. Curiosity took over and pushed Sirius forwards, he founds the edge of the panelling and pulled it from the wall revealing a most shocked and frightened Remus.
"Ohhh, it's just you. I thought it was James for a second." Remus whispered a smile spread his across his face. Sirius stood still unable to move his eyes away from Remus's dark green ones. He was having another moment were he felt the urge to lean forward and kiss Remus. He wanted to feel Remus's lips on his own, he wanted to tangle his hand in the other boys blonde curls, he wanted to hold him tight and never let go.
"I thought I was the only one who knew about this place." Remus whispered.
"Uh, oh, well." Sirius cleared his throat as a light shade of pink spread onto his cheeks. "I found it last week."
"Okay ready or not here I come!" Shouted James from down in the commun room area.
"You'd better go and hide, and close the closet door before he sees me too!" Sirius did as Remus instructed, then looked around the room for a place to hide. There wasn't much besides the 8 long beds and the chests that laid at the foots of them. James feet slamming against the cold cement stairs told Sirius he wasn't far from him. Sirius had to hide now. He slid under the closest bed to him which happened to be Remus's. It wasn't a good spot to hide, everyone always checked under the beds first, and there was always someone who hadn't found a good place and ran here for last minute coverage.
James was now in the room, Sirius could see the edge of his worn out sneakers from under the bed. His feet didn't stay long for a loud rumble erupted from the room below them dragging James's attention with it. Sirius let out a sigh, he wouldn't be found first. God he hated being it, he didn't like the fact that everyone was hiding from him, but yet they all knew where he was.
Sirius turned his attention to the underside of Remus's bed frame. It was old and dusty, there were even a couple spider webs tucked away in the corners. Stashed away in between the mattress and frame of the bed laid a couple of magazines. What was so secretive that these magazines couldn't be left out on his night stand? Sirius reached up and slid them out from the bars, the title in bright pink read, ´playboy'. A smirk hit Sirius's Lips, Remus was always quite reserved and he would have been the last marauder to have been suspected to have playboy magazines. Sirius looked out from under the bed, there wasn't anyone in the room except of course for Remus who was still confined in the small closet.
Sirius decided it was safe enough to snoop around in the magazines. He opened one up to the first page shock filled his eyes as they opened wide, he let out a gasp of horror before slamming the magazine shut. He had definitely not seen a couple of hot bikini girls, no he had seen quite the opposite. The page was filled with men. Men kissing each other, naked men, men laying in bed together and there was even one of two men having sex. Sirius was at a lost for thoughts, he opened up a different playboy and flicked through the pages, hoping these would be different. They weren't, but instead were all filled with the harry nude skin of men. Somewhere deep within hidden urges erupted, he tried desperately to put them away, to hide them from the world before anyone noticed. For Sirius it was taboo to be gay. It wasn't right it was all messed up he was just confused. He couldn't be gay. He just couldn't.
Sirius laid under the bed for the next few minutes trying to make up excuses for his urge to relook threw the magazines of naked men. Then a thought that he had long forgotten came to him, these were Remus's, Remus had bought them and had placed fake covers on the magazines, Remus had hid them under his bed. Remus had to be gay! For what other reason could he be hiding gay magazines? Sirius felt excitement take over his body.
Maybe Remus liked me as more than a friend. No! No! No! That would be disgusting, don't think like that Sirius, you're not gay, you don't like Remus! Just forget about all this and everything will go back to the way it was.
After a week had past the event of that knight hadn't worn off, he knew Remus was gay and he knew he was too, it didn't matter how much he tried to convince himself that he wasn't. An engine had started and he couldn't figure out how to turn it off. It didn't make much sense he had liked girls before he and still did now, but he also liked Remus too. It was all rather confusing and didn't help that every time he looked at Remus's perfect face he blushed a light shade of pink.
