I miss him , I miss her

Clarke wakes up one night to see Octavia crying , sobbing desperate to comfort her friend she offers to cuddle and then she wakes up in heat.

Placed after S3 only change is that nuclear plants aren't breaking down and releasing radiation. Also Indra took Octavia back up as her second kinda.

Clarke woke up in the middle of the night sobbing for the fifth night in a row. She had another dream about losing Lexa . Clark loved her and the second she allowed herself to show it the alpha she loved was murdered by Titus. Clark now lived back at Arcadia with the rest of Skai Kru Clarke got up to go get water to try to help her calm down , it would be another hour before she could sleep again. Whenever she woke up like this she felt so alone , so haunted by Lexa's ghost and it kept her awake for at least an hour after every night. As Clarke made her way towards the water reserves she could hear someone. "What the fuck?" Clarke asked herself under her breath. It sounded like someone else crying. Clark didn't know why but she felt an urge to go towards the crying voice. It didn't take Clarke long to realize that the sounds were coming from Octavia's room. The door was cracked open slightly and the closer Clarke got the more certain she was that Octavia was alone and crying just as she had every night this week. Clarke gently pushed open the door which made a soft creak as it opened.

"Lincoln!" Octavia cried hopefully as she snapped up from the bed.

"No I'm sorry , it's just me." Clarke apologized. Octavia threw her pillow in anger. "Octavia, you are crying!" Clarke noted as she rushed to her bed.

"I'm not crying I'm a proud alpha! Alpha's don't cry!" Octavia replied holding back sobs.

Clarke didn't know why but she felt an unbearable urge to hold and cuddle the alpha in front of her."Octavia, you don't have to hide it. It's ok. I woke up the same way moments ago." Clarke explained trying to calm Octavia.

"Alpha's don't cry" Octavia repeated before she broke down sobbing.

"It's ok O I'm here for you." Clarke comforted as she sat down on the bed and wrapped her arms around Octavia as she cried. "It's going to be ok O , I'm here for you," Clarke whispered into Octavia's ear softly.

Octavia cried into Clarke's shoulder for a while before she was able to talk. "Clarke?" Octavia formed into a question.

"What is it O?" Clarke asked.

"Thank you. This means a lot." Octavia replied wiping away her own tears.

"Like I said I woke up the same way. I have every day this week." Clarke admitted.

"I forgot , you lost someone too." Octavia replied sniffeling.

"Yeah.. I miss Lexa every day. When I wake up sobbing as I remember that she is gone, It keeps me up, feeling so alone , sometimes for hours after." Clarke admitted.

"I understand. I have experienced the same thing most nights since Lincoln died." Octavia agreed holding tighter to Clarke.

"Is there anything I can do to help?" Clarke asked Octavia concerned for her. "A glass of water normally helps me out abit. Just kinda calming." Clarke offered.

"Yeah , that sounds kinda nice." Octavia answered with a gentle smile.

"Good , I will be right back!" Clarke smiled back as she stood up and headed towards the door. "Open or closed?" Clarke asked gesturing to the door.

"Cracked open like from earlier if you don't mind." Octavia requested.

"Ok , your wish is my command." Clarke teased with a playful bow. Octavia felt a noteworthy pull in her core at Clarke's words. She couldn't help it. Even though Octavia knew that it was a purely platonic joke , it was still an omega saying something incredibly submissive to an alpha. Although it was unlikely that Clarke knew knew that. Octavia quickly became lost in her thoughts just to be snapped out of them when Clarke reentered the room with two glasses of water in her hands. "I'm back , and I come bearing water." Clarke announced placing the waters on Octavia's nightstand.

"T-thanks Clarke." Octavia thanked taking a sip of water and replacing the glass to her nightstand.

"It's ok. How are you feeling?" Clark asked concerned as she gently brushed some hair that had fallen into Octavia's face away in order to see her face better and calm the distressed alpha.

"I- I miss him." Octavia stuttered.

"Aww, I understand. I miss her too." Clarke sympathized embracing Octavia in another hug." It is going to be ok." Clarke assured.

"Thanks Clarke." Octavia thanked again softly.

"Do you mind me asking why you keep the door cracked open?" Clarke asked curious.

"I- Its , It's a thing that Lincoln and I used to do. Whenever we wanted the other to come by for the night we would leave our door or tent slightly open." Octavia paused. "And I've never needed him more than I do right now." Octavia finished as the tears returned.

"Oh O!" Clarke replied holding Octavia tightly. "Is there anything I can do to help?" Clarke whispered into Octavia's ear.

"C-can you just stay with me?" Octavia requested insecurely as she deeply craved to not be alone.

"Of course." Clarke replied as she layed down and curled up submissively on the bed next to Octavia.

"Are you sure this is ok?" Octavia asked laying down next to Clarke.

"I'm sure." Clark assured taking Octavia's hand in her own and wrapping it around her.

"Thank you Clarke." Octavia whispered as she scooched closer and closer to Clarke , molding her body to Clark's as they began to drift off to sleep together.

Octavia woke up the next morning and the first thing she noticed was the smell. "Fuck Clarke." Octavia groaned as she began sniffing at Clarke's neck and slowly moving her hips against Clarke's ass.

"Mhmm morning Lexa!" Clarke hummed still half asleep as she pushed her ass into the alpha's growing member. "You smell different, amazing but different." Clarke noted as she could feel a growing pain in her core.

"Clarke?" Octavia questioned as she couldn't stop herself from pushing her hips against the omega so clearly in heat rubbing her ass against her.

"Lexa?" Clarke questioned as she suddenly went stiff with worry. all of her muscles simultaneously locking up.

"It's Octavia. I'm sorry." Octavia apologized as she stopped grinding against Clarke.

"Oh fuck I'm so sorry!" Clark apologized as she quickly turned around to see Octavia's face." I should have known why I wanted to cuddle so much , it was my preheat hormones. I'm so sorry." Clarke apologized.

"Mhmm you smell so good!" Octavia moaned.

"O?" Clarke questioned worriedly. "Are you in there?" Clarke asked backing away noticing how dilated Octavia's pupils had become blind to anything but her need.

"Clarke you smell so good!" Octavia repeated as she moved closer to the omega in heat.

"O please snap out of it!" Clarke begged fearful.

"Snap out of what Clarke?" Octavia asked still consumed my Clarke's scent. Octavia continued to inch towards Clarke , need growing in her eyes.

"I'm in heat , and I can see it in your eyes. You need to snap out of it. "Clarke repeated.

"I know and you smell delicious!" Octavia repeated as she began pumping out the strongest alpha pheromones she could.

Clarke couldn't stop herself from whimpering as she began to be overpowered by the scent Octavia had begun to give off. "Fuck ." Clarke whispered under her breath. Clarke tried to give off the most defensive pheromones she could but she knew that at least a hint of submission leaked out too.

"Mhmm it's so cute , you trying and failing to hide how you really feel like that." Octavia taunted after she noticed Clarke's scent.

"Please don't!" Clarke pleaded as she formed as small a ball on the bed as she could attempting to brace herself from what she had feared was coming next. Giving up Clarke adjusted her plea "please just make it quick."

"Clarke , what's wrong?" Octavia asked now worried for Clarke.

"Y- you are an alpha? And I I'm in heat." Was all that Clarke could reply with as she continued to tighten her body into an impossibly smaller ball and she stopped fighting the scent of fear that raged on trying to escape her.

"Why are you so afraid?" Octavia asked concerned and confused. Clarke just continued trying to make herself look small and giving off pheromones that begged Octavia to just get it over with. "Clarke? You know I won't do anything without your consent right?" Octavia questioned.

"You are lying!" Clarke yelled in fear.

"Clarke?" Octavia questioned worriedly placing her hand on the back of Clark's neck attempting to calm her. Clarke flinched at Octavia's touch and whimpered in fear. "I won't hurt you I promise. Also I understand how much omegas can crave physical affection when in heat , if you want that , it's ok . I can control myself . But I also don't want to push you to do anything you don't want to." Octavia tried to comfort the anxious omega. Octavia was also careful to only pump out the most calming pheromones she could.

Clarke sniffed , she could tell that Octavia was completely in control of herself , and the pheromones she was exuding were stronger than anything Clarke had ever experienced. Clarke was so scared but the scent that was coming off of Octavia felt like a warm and calming blanket on a frigid night. Clarke couldn't help but hum happily at the calming scent , it was intoxicating. "You , you smell so good." Clarke noted as she began to relax. Clarke gave up on attempting to control her pheromones and she just released whatever scent she was truly feeling.

Octavia chuckled. "That was the point. Are you ok ? What made you so afraid?" Octavia questioned.

Clarke didn't understand why Octavia didn't already know why she had been acting like this. It was then that she realized. "I forgot you never really experienced the arch!" Clarke gasped as she suddenly relaxed.

"Well I mean I got to know my little hidey hole pretty well!" Octavia giggeled.

"But you never saw how bad the alpha's were to most omegas did you? And within weeks of being down here you were constantly with Lincoln and the grounders." Clarke explained.

"No , I guess I didn't ." Octavia admitted. "Was it that bad?" Octavia asked honestly unsure.

"No it was worse." Clarke admitted.

"Do you want to talk about it?" Octavia asked.

"No. I don't. I'm sorry." Clarke apologized.

"What can I do to Help?" Octavia asked.

"This" Clarke said as she slowly made her way over to Octavia and cuddled her as close as she could before taking Octavia's hand and placing it behind her ear.

Octavia immediately began scratching behind Clarke's ear. "That always helped Bellamy too." Octavia smiled.

"Thank you" Clarke thanked as she rubbed her face against Octavia's chest. Clarke also began giving off a mixture of submissive and appreciative pheromones.

"Mhmm you smell so good. " Octavia noted again. Clarke flinched expecting Octavia to do something to her. "Clarke , it's ok , I'm not going to do anything without consent." Octavia repeated.

"Thank you." Clarke whispered as she held tight to Octavia.

They fell back for a while. Clarke thought she was the first one to wake. The first thing she noticed was how much stronger her heat was now. The pain was worse than she had ever felt before. Then she noticed the scent. The scent of sleeping powerful alpha filled her nose as she sniffed . "Mhmm you smell so good!" Clarke moaned

"Good to hear!" Octavia replied smugly.

"Oh shit you are awake I'm sorry!" Clarke apologized.

"What are you sorry for?" Octavia asked as she scratched behind Clarke's ear and rubbed one hand on her back.

"Ohhh that feels good !" Clarke moaned. "Sorry" Clarke corrected herself after a moment.

"What are you sorry for?" Octavia repeated.

"I don't mean to be so taken with your scent and touch. I'm so sorry. " Clarke apologized.

"Hehe it's cute, I like it." Octavia giggeled.

"Are you sure i didn't make it harder for you to control yourself?" Clarke questioned.

"I'm fine. I can control myself just fine." Octavia assured.

"B-but how ? The only alpha that has ever kept their hands off of me while I was in heat was Lexa. every other alpha that has been around me while I am on heat has lost their minds and attacked me, or tried to." Clarke explained.

"Bellamy occasionally told me that alpha's could be scary but I never understood that was why. I'm so sorry I didn't know it was that bad for most omegas. I was hidden away either in the floorboards or in prison until we hit the ground, and once we got here a the omegas were so insistent about staying away from alpha's while in the camp but I thought that was just for personal reasons. Not because alpha's were that much of a threat." Octavia replied.

"It was pretty bad." Clarke noted quietly.

"I'm sorry you had to go through that. You know that the grounders see heats differently?" Octavia asked.

"Yeah , Lexa had explained that to me after something similar to this morning happened with her." Clarke answered.

"I always knew that they were better about it , but I guess I never knew how bad we are about it… " Octavia admitted. "Are you doing ok ? I imagine this could be hard on you , being around an alpha while in heat." Octavia asked.

"I'm ok, your scent is actually really calming." Clarke admitted.

"I'm glad!" Octavia admitted as she continued rubbing one hand on Clarke's back and scratching behind her ear with the other.

"How are you? Is my scent a problem?" Clarke asked as she couldn't help but think about how Octavia's scent quietly reminded Clarke of Lexa.

"I'm ok , I haven't cuddled with someone since Lincoln died… I had forgotten how nice it was." Octavia admitted.

" I haven't since Lexa died either." Clarke nodded. "It is really nice." Clarke agreed as she wrapped her legs around one of Octavia's and held her tight. Clark almost immediately realized it was a mistake when she felt her sensitive slit against the warmth of Octavia's leg. Clarke couldn't control herself as a whimper escaped her lips

Octavia shifted quickly unaware of what had caused the whimper to escape the omega. As Octavia shifted her leg brushed against Clarke's crotch a little more causing Clarke to whimper even louder as the pain grew greatly in her core. "Clarke what's wrong?" Octavia asked worriedly.

Clarke was breathing heavily as she was consumed by her own need. "M-my heat!" Clarke studdard. "It hurts" Clarke continued backing away from Octavia on the bed.

Octavia could then smell how much pain Clarke was in. "what can I do to help?" Octavia asked simply worried for her friend.

"Fuck! It hurts!" Clarke cried.

Octavia didn't want to but she couldn't keep her mind out of the gutter. She was an alpha after all and hearing an omega talk like that was just too much. "Clarke what can I do to help?" Octavia insisted.

Clarke took a moment to catch her breath. "I'm sorry it's just my heat gettin to me when umm ..you brushed against me." Clarke explained gesturing downward.

"Ohh that makes sense. you ok now ?" Octavia asked.

"I mean I'm still in heat. But yeah." Clarke replied. "Bellamy is an omega I'm sure you have seen him go through a number of heats." Clarke mentioned.

"Yeah , it always sucked seeing him in so much pain when there was nothing I could do about it." Octavia said sinking into the bed.

"I'm sorry O" Clarke replied moving closer to Octavia and resting her head on her chest again in an attempt to comfort her.

"Aww thanks Clarke!" Octavia hummed.

"Although I also wanted to comfort you , this is mostly for me. My body is craving cuddles something awful due to my heat." Clarke admitted. "Mhmm This feels amazing!" Clarke hummed rubbing her cheek into Octavia.

"Hmm cute" Octavia hummed as a question formed in her mind. "Umm Clarke?" Octavia asked with caution in her voice.

"Whats up O?" Clarke asked turning to look at Octavia.

"What was It like to bond with Lexa? Lincoln and I always wanted to but he was also an alpha so we couldn't bond." Octavia asked.

"Lexa and I never got the chance. She died before I went into a heat while we were together." Clarke paused and she clearly became rather upset. "We wanted to , we even had plans to do it the next time my heat came." Clarke continued.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset you." Octavia said quickly attempting to calm Clarke down.

"I-It's ok , You had no way to know." Clarke replied crestfallen.

"Hey , it's gonna be ok." Octavia said calmingly as she held tight to the omega.

"I know. Thank you." Clark agreed holding Octavia tightly. "What time is it?" Clarke asked realizing that Octavia should probably get to her work for the day.

"Fuck yeah it's ten o'clock. I have work to do today. What are you doing today?' Octavia asked.

"Heat vacation. Unless I feel like being assaulted by every alpha in the camp." Clarke replied.

"Ah that makes sense. Where do you normally go to sit out your heat?" Octavia asked.

"Omegas can either hide in their room or more secure cells on the arch. That's how it's always been." Clarke replied.

"If you want you are free to stay here. Means that you don't have to take the risk of going out while in heat while someone could smell you. And if you are here no one will fuck with you." Octavia offered.

"Are you sure? If anyone passes by and smells me they will think we mated." Clarke questioned.

"So?" Octavia replied.

"So if there is anyone you are courting they would probably be offended." Clarke mentioned.

"I'm not courting anyone. Is anyone courting you?" Octavia asked concerned that she would be offending any alpha attempting to court Clarke.

"No. No alpha's want to court the the wanheda who killed hundreds at the mountain." Clarke answered clearly disappointed and lonely.

"Aww you poor omega. I know someone is out there for you . I'm sorry." Octavia apologized trying to make Clarke feel wanted.

"Thanks but I know that isn't true." Clarke dismissed curling up on her own away from Octavia on the bed.

"I have to go , but it will be ok girl." Octavia promised as she planted a soft kiss on Clarke's cheek before heading off to do her work for the day. Octavia's kiss maddened Clarke, she was consumed in what it may or may not mean. Clarke couldn't get it out of her mind as she turned restless in Octavia's bed. After three or four hours Octavia returned to the room starting Clarke who was still deep in thought about what last night and the morning had meant.

"Hey Clarke , I'm on a lunch break and I assumed you would be hungry so I brought you food." Octavia explained as she placed a plate of gathered fruits and choice meat on the bed next to Clarke on the bed.

"This is?" Clarke paused. "For me ?" Clarke asked confused.

"O course goofball!" Octavia teased.

"w-why?" Clarke asked confused.

"because if I don't you won't eat." Octavia said with another kiss to Clarke's cheek. Clarke stammered embarrassed and confused by the second kiss. "Eat dummies!" Octavia ordered with a commanding scent.

"Yes Ma'am." Clarke replied submissively as she took a berry from the plate and slowly placed it in her mouth.

"You don't need to be so formal." Octavia teased laying down on the bed with Clarke and grabbing a berry for herself. "Mhmm it's good huh?" Octavia noted with a smile attempting to encourage the cautious omega to eat.

"T-thanks Octavia." Clarke thanked taking a piece of meat. " Mhmm that is good." Clarke agreed timidly.

"Why so scared Clarke?" Octavia questioned concern clear in her voice.

"Isn't an alpha giving an omega food supposed to be the first step in courting?" Clarke blurted out.

Octavia moved the plate containing the food to her nightstand before moving over on the bed towards Clarke. "Yes it is." Octavia agreed.

"A-are you sure that is something you want?" Clarke stammered.

"I wouldn't have brought you such nice food if i wasn't. " Octavia answered with a giggle while she continued to inch clover to Clarke.

Clarke could feel the atmosphere of the room change entirely as Octavia approached her. Clarke couldn't help it when she began to give off pleaded pheromones , embarrassed and touched that Octavia was courting her. "What changed to make you want this?" Clarke questioned in disbelief and suspecting that Octavia was just trying to get laid.

"I don't know." Octavia shrugged still moving closer to Clarke.

"W-what are you about to do?" Clarke studded scared.

"Well my plan was to get to about here." Octavia stopped, her face inches from Clarke's. "Then I planned to ask if I could kiss you… sooo can I kiss you?" Octavia asked.

"What happens if I say no?" Clarke questioned suspicious.

"Well then I would grab the plate , return it to between us and I would share a lunch with you until I have to go back to work." Octavia explained.

Clarke didn't actually want to say no , but she needed to know whether or not Octavia was telling the truth. "I'm sorry can we just eat instead?" Clarke requested.

"Sure". Octavia replied clearly a touch disappointed. Octavia then quickly did as she had promised. "Better?". Octavia asked.

"Mhmm maybe." Clarke teased as she took a berry in-between her thumb and index finger. Octavia replied with an inquisitive look and a furrow of her eyebrows. "Here" Clarke said moving closer to the alpha and offering the food to her. Octavia moved her head the extra inch to gently bite Clarke's fingers. Octavia dragged her teeth along Clark's fingers as she stole the berry away. Before Clarke could pull her hand back Octavia took her index finger in her mouth and swirled her tongue around it as she sucked on the finger before repeating the motion on Clarke's thumb. Clarke couldn't help but melt into the bed and moan at Octavia's teasing.

"Better?" Octavia teased.

"Mhmm can I change my answer to the question about that kiss?" Clarke asked still melting.

"Of course!" Octavia replied excitedly moving the plate again and moving close to Clarke. "May I kiss you Clarke?" Octavia asked again.

"Yes." Clarke replied. Octavia quickly closed the distance between them , placing her lips on Clarke's. Octavia breathed in Clarke's strong scent of heat. Clarke wrapped her arms around Octavia as she relaxed into the bed allowing Octavia to be in a more dominant position on top of her.

"Mhmm good girl!" Octavia moaned into Clark's mouth as she felt a pull in her core urging her to climb on top of Clarke.

"Fuck!" Clarke moaned back as Octavia mounted her and her whole body lit on fire with need.

Octavia giggled pleased by how much she had affected Clarke. "You ok?" Octavia asked.

"Fuck , don't stop!"Clarke pleaded.

"Hey hey hey." Octavia paused and placed her hand on Clark's cheek. "You need to be in your right mind and not just heat addled brain mode if we are going to continue." Octavia informed.

Clarke was still caught up in the urges from her heat for a moment , whimpering needily. "I-Im sorry." Clarke apologized once she came to.

"It's ok girl." Octavia comforted brushing her hand across Clark's cheek.

"Mhmm that feels nice! Umm Can you umm just ahh." Clarke stuttered beginning to to fidget on the bed. Clarke eventually gave up on trying to ask for what she wanted and instead she grabbed Octavia's hand and moved it to her chest.

"Grr" Octavia growled moving to whisper into Clarke's ear. "You slutty little omega." Octavia teased squeezing at Clarke's breast.

"Fuck! O! P-please!" Clarke moaned, her back arching in pleasure.

"If you like that, try this!" Octavia smiled as she adjusted herself to begin kissing at Clarke's neck as she continued to touch Clarke's chest softly. Octavia quickly allowed her kisses grow into small hickies mixed with gentle love bites.

"Y-You need to stop!" Clarke screamed.

"Oh god I'm sorry! What went wrong?" Octavia questioned pulling away from Clarke.

"I-I just wasn't going to be able to control myself if you kept doing that." Clarke explained.

"Oh hehe!" Octavia smiled wickedly to herself.

"You are the worst!" Clarke laughed pushing Octavia off of her playfully.

"Oh really I am the worst?" Octavia questioned quickly attacking Clarke's jugular with strong hickies and bites powerful enough to leave marks.

"Fuck!" Clark cried in pleasure before she lost her control. Clarke suddenly leapt on top of Octavia and ripped off her shirt while she grinded against Octavia. "Octavia, please I need you to fill me!" Clarke pleaded , her eyes glassy and lost in need.

"No!" Octavia grabbed Clarke's hands and flipped them both over holding Clarke's hands down above her head.

"Mhmm that's It sexy alpha fucking hold me down and take me!" Clarke commanded , still completely lost to her heat.

"Nope , you are done." Octavia ordered exuding the most powerful pheromones Clarke had ever smelled.

"Yes my alpha!" Clarke replied instinctively in response to Octavia's oppressive scent. Octavia growled appreciatively as sh3e did her best to fight her instincts to tear off the needy omega's clothes and take her. "Oh shit sorry! I didn't mean to!" Clarke apologized.\

"It's ok , it's not your fault , it was clearly an instinctual reaction." Octavia explained as she began to notice that Clarke's eyes were fixed on her exposed chest.

Clarke was licking her lips wantingly as her eyes were licked on Octavia's chest. "Mhmm, you are really cute you know that?" Clarke hummed.

"Bad Omega! Snap out of it!" Octavia reprimanded.

"Mhm i'm sorry! My heat is just really bad!" Clarke apologized.

"This was kinda my fault … You told me to stop and I ignored you." Octavia admitted.

"I still took it way too far." Clarke argued.

"It's ok. If this is still a thing you want after your heat then we can revisit it then. In the meantime I am gonna go to the grounder camp and get something!" Octavia informed releasing Clarke and getting up from the bed.

Clarke whimpered needily as Octavia left her alone in bed. "You are Leaving?" Clarke asked crestfallen again.

"Yes I'm going to go get you something. Now be a good omega and stay right there in bed!" Octavia ordered as she grabbed a new shirt from her drawer. Clarke made her way to the end of the bed where she stood up on her knees and began to whimper in need for the alpha. Once Octavia turned around to see Clarke she noticed that Clarke was pouting and making the most adorable sad puppy dog eyes that Octavia had ever seen. "Oh you cute little omega." Octavia noted smiling as she approached Clarke and kissed her gently. "It will be ok poor girl. I will be back in a couple hours. Eat your food and rest. " Octavia ordered calmly.

Clarke wrapped her arms around the alpha and nuzzled Octavia. "Whatever you wish my alpha." Clarke offered submissively before making a small circle in the bed and allowing herself to plop down , curling herself up into a ball.

"Aww, good girl!" Octavia praised pulling the blanket over the omega lovingly. "Do finish your food , being in heat isn't an excuse not to eat!" Octavia ordered placing the plate of food next to Clarke.

"Yes my alpha." Clarke whispered , clearly not caring how presumptuous her words were.

"Good girl." Octavia said with a kiss before she headed off to the grounders camp.

Octavia headed off to the trikru camp. The first thing that Octavia did once she arrived at the camp was find her friend Nyko. "Nyko!" Octavia called once she found him.

"Octavia!" Nyko cried as he took Octavia in a large hug. Nyko then sniffed at Octavia. "Mhmm courting a strong omega I see? Lincoln would be proud!" Nyko continued joyfully.

Octavia clearly clammed up at mention of Lincoln. "Do you think so?" Octavia asked worriedly fiddling with her hands worriedly.

"Oh , I see why you are here then." Nyko suddenly got very serious. "Here sit." Nyko offered as he pulled out a chair for her at a nearby table. Octavia sat down and began fiddling with a stray twig on the table , just needing something to distract her. "Octavia." Nyko said calmly renting one of his hands on hers.

"Nyko?" Octavia questioned anxiously.

"You have to know that he would want whatever would make you happy right?" Nyko asked.

"B-But" Octavia stammered.

"If there is anything good in that you two were both alphas, its that you can move on after him. When one of a bonded pair dies the living one normally doesn't live for as long as a year without their partner. And those that do always say that if they take up a second bond say it still isn't the same." Nyko reasoned.

"But I still miss him , and I don't even know what happened , Clarke just ended up in my bed and before I knew it I was courting her!" Octavia explained distraught.

"Holy shit it's wanheda? No wonder her scent is so strong!" Nyko laughed before he got serious again. "You can miss him and court her at the same time." Nyko argued.

"I know." Octavia agreed despondent.

"Do you like her?" Nyko asked simply.

"Yes." Octavia answered confidently.

"Then I think you know what to do." Nyko smiled. "Anything else you needed O?" Nyko asked.

"Yes ! Can I get some suppressants? Clarke isn't logical her heat is so bad , and it actually gets worse when I am around her." Octavia requested.

"Sure! I can whip up a batch for you! They should make her a little tired ,and It won't completely take her heat away , it will just dull the pain and make her slightly clearer headed." Nyko explained. "Oh also they can make omegas more needy occasionally." Niko added.

"That's perfect thank you!" Octavia thanked excitedly.

"It will be ready soon , in the meantime, you need to talk to Indra! If she finds out you were in the village and I let you go without seeing her she will ensure I die a death of a thousand cuts." Nyko joked.

"Will do Nyko , thank you for the guidance." Octavia thanked with a hug.

"See you soon!" Nyko called as Octavia went off to talk to Indra.

It didn't take Octavia long to reach Indra's tent, the guards immediately allowed her to pass into the tent where Indra was relaxing. "Indra? It's Octavia!" Octavia called.

"Octavia! How are you? What brings you to the camp?" Indra inquired.

"I came to request medicine of Nyko , but I suspect the thing I will have acquired the most of will be advice." Octavia explained.

"Mhmm yes I smell her on you." Indra glared judgmentally. "And what did Nyko tell you to do?" Indra questioned.

"More or less to follow my heart." Octavia simplified.

"And Nyko knows your heart is directing you towards a sky cru, and wanheda at that?" Indra glaired.

"Yes he does actually!" Octavia defended. "She was good enough for Lexa! How could she not be good enough for me?" Octavia argued.

"She got Lexa killed!" Indira snapped.

"Titus killed her Indra , not Clarke!" Octavia yelled.

"Trying to kill Clarke!" Indra argued.

Octavia began growling challengingly. "I care for her! And I don't care if you think she killed Lexa or not!" Octavia snapped back.

Indra gave a small smile. "Lincoln would be happy to know you found someone you care so much about." Indra said with an air of pride in her second.

"W-what ?" Octavia questioned.

"I had to know how much you care about her before I approved." Indra explained.

"I-it's not that far yet! I've barely even begun to court her!" Octavia explained.

"Oh really? I can smell that you slept with her , and you reek of omega heat!" Indra questioned.

"That's all that happened! We slept together and cuddled last night, that was all. Then this morning we barely did more than kiss. " Octavia explained.

"So how far into courting her are you?" Indra asked with a smile.

"I brought her food today." Octavia admitted blushing.

"Do you enjoy courting an omega? That is something you missed out on with Lincoln." Indra mentioned.

"Yeah , she was adorable when she realized I was attempting to court her. And the way she acted after.." Octavia drifted off thinking about the submissive omega waiting in her bed.

"Omegas can tend to be like that." Indra smiled. "I have something for you …. Well for Clarke I guess. But for you to give to her." Indra mentioned as she walked off to grab a beautiful coat of furrs.

"Oh god!" Octavia gasped."It's beautiful!" Octavia continued as she stretched out a hand to touch the coat. " It's so soft!" Octavia's eyes lit up.

"If you are half as crazy about her as you seem , I want you to offer it to her as the second stage of your courtship." Indra instructed.

"No , this is far too nice ! I will not take it from you!" Octavia insisted.

"Yes you will!" Indra placed the coat in Octavia's hands. "You will not question me again!" Indra instructed.

"Thank you Indra , this means a lot." Octavia thanked forfeiting this argument. "Clarke will love it I'm sure …. It's me that the jury is still out on her feelings about." Octavia mentioned disheartened.

"She took your food didn't she?" Indra questioned.

"Yes" Octavia replied.

"And how did she react to it?" Indra continued her questions.

"She was scared at first, skyrc alpha's aren't like us, they think very little of omegas ,and assault them if an omega is found in heat. But once she understood I wasn't going to force myself on her she warmed up a lot to my courting." Octavia began to growl happily before she continued. "She even called me her alpha a number of times." Octavia explained as just the thought of Clarke calling her her omega took her breath away.

"You I'll be fine." Indra assured.

"Thank you Indra." Octane nodded.

"Now go get your omega!" Indra winked and shooed Octavia away.

"Thanks! See you around Indra!" Octavia thanked as she headed off to see Nyko again before she left. "Nyko? Is it ready" Octavia asked entering his tent.

"Yup , here you go!" Nyko passed her a large water bottle. "One capful of that in the morning and at night and Clarke should feel much better. Also it takes about an hour to kick in." Nyko instructed.

"Thank you Nyko!" Octavia thanked.

"Indra finally give you the coat?" Nyko pointed to the coat in Octavia's arm.

"You knew about it?" Octavia asked.

"I may or may not have known how important it was you see Indra today." Nyko teased. "Now go home to your omega!" Nyko ordered.

"See you around Nyko!" Octavia replied heading out.

The trip back to Arcadia went quickly as Octavia was excited to return home to the omega waiting in her bed. Once she arrived back at her room she knocked first before entering , understanding that she left an omega in heat surrounded by an alpha's scent and it would be understandable if Clarke attempted to satisfy herself while Octavia was away. Thinking about Clarke touching herself sent a pain of need shooting through her body as she opened the door to her room to find Clarke sleeping peacefully next to an empty plate. Octavia snuck closer to the sleeping omega and grabbed the plate with the intention of going to get them both some more food when Clarke began to stir. "O?" Clarke questioned sniffing the air.

"Yes girl , it's me. I bought a couple things for you. " Octavia mentioned.

"Aww what'd you get me?" Clarke asked raising slowly on the bed.

"Well the first thing is this" Octavia pulled the water bottle out of her bag. " It will help you with your heat if you want it, takes an hour to kick in and it will make you slightly drowsy but it will dull the pain and help you control yourself better." Octavia explained.

"Haha that might be a good idea… I kinda lost control and went too far earlier." Clarke remembered.

"It's ok , it's entirely up to you if you wanted it then you are free to take it , one cap full at in Morning and at night if you take it." Octavia instructed.

"And what was the other thing?" Clarke asked curious.

"Stand up!" Octane commanded with a burst of demanding pheromones.

"Yes my alpha" Clarke said after she had gotten out of bed and stood up.

"Close your eyes" Octavia requested. Clarke nodded once her eyes were closed. "I really love it when you call me your alpha." Octavia whispered as she pulled the coat out of her bag and slipped it onto Clarke.

"I-is this what I think it is?" Clarke stammered embarrassed and anxious at what Octavia was suggesting.

"Open your eyes." Octavia instructed.

Clarke opened her eyes and saw the beautiful coat of furrs surrounding her. Clarke turned around quickly to see Octavia's face. "I-it's beautiful!" Octavia smiled and nodded waiting for a response to the offer of the second step of courtship. "Yes , I am interested in you courting me!" Clarke nodded as she hugged Octavia. Octavia kissed Clarke softly as they held each other. The kissing quickly began to earn whimpers from the omega. Octavia loved the needy whimpers Clarke made as they kissed. Octavia began growling in response as she pushed them both towards the bed. Clarke could feel Octavia attempting to get them both on to the bed and she pulled away slightly from the kiss. "I'm sorry! I want to continue! I do !" Clarke assured attempting to catch her breath.

"Are you ok Clarke?" Octavia asked concerned.

"I'm just trying to not lose control again." Clarke admitted blushing and looking downwards in embarrassment.

"Ah that makes sense. That's fine girl." Octavia comforted with a gentle kiss on Clarke's cheek. "How are you feeling?" Octavia asked brushing some hair out of Clarke's face.

"Horny, hungry, and in need of physical contact." Clarke admitted.

"Would you like the suppressants?" Octavia asked grabbing the water bottle. Clarke nodded. "Ok here you go girl." Octavia said pouring a capful of the suppressants. "It's entirely likely it won't taste great!" Octavia warned.

Clarke choked down the medicine before returning the cap to Octavia. "Yup , you were right!" Clarke giggeled.

"Aww poor girl!" Octavia teased before returning to kissing Clarke. Octavia brushed her tongue against Clarke's lower lip gently requesting entrance.

"Octavia , I don't think it works that fast." Clarke laughed.

"Good point sorry! Umm you said you were hungry , want me to get us some food?" Octavia asked.

"Yeah that sounds good!" Clarke replied with a smile.

"Be right back!" Octavia said releasing Clarke from her embrace to turn to go get them food.

"No!" Clarke cried holding tighter to Octavia.

"If you want food I kinda have to go to get it." Octavia joked.

"I can't let go, I need my alpha!" Clarke replied almost crying as she held tight to Octavia.

"Oh , Nyko said something about it making omegas needier." Octavia remembered.

"Mhmm my alpha!" Clarke moaned as she rubbed her face against Octavia.

"I thought this stuff was supposed to clear your head , not make things worse." Octavia laughed.

"Alpha!" Clark whispered softly.

"Clarke!" Octavia yelled trying to snap Clarke out of it.

"Hmm?" Clarke looked up at Octavia. "Sorry. You smell really good and I'm just really craving the touch of my alpha."

"You know i'm not officially your alpha until we bond right?" Octavia laughed.

"Is that an invitation?" Clarke asked suddenly grabbing at Octavia.

"Oh fuck!" Octavia moaned bucking her hips and feeling herself grow against Clarke's touch.

"I want you to be my alpha!" Clarke whispered into Octavia's ear while slowly moving her hand up and down Octavia's growing length.

"Fuck! You naughty little omega!" Octavia moaned rutting against Clarke's hand. "No! Clarke! We need to stop!" Octavia insisted unconvincingly.

"You don't mean that. You are still rutting against my palm, stop and I might believe that you don't want to shove your knot deep inside of me right now." Clarke taunted.

"Clarke! I mean it we need to stop! I'm not going to do this to you !" Octavia insisted stepping away from Clarke.

"Do what to me?" Clarke asked stepping closer to Octavia.

"I'm not going to bond with you until you are out of your heat and we can talk about this while you have a clear head!" Octavia insisted.

"No! Please! I can't wait!" Clarke pleaded grabbing Octavia on a hug and beginning to cry into Octavia.

"Clarke, It's ok! The suppressants will kick in soon and you won't be in as much pain from the heat." Octavia reminded trying to calm down the sobbing omega.

"Please I can't go through this again!" Clarke sobbed.

"Go through what again?" Octavia questioned.

"I can't fall in love with another person and have them die while we are ready for me to be ready to let them bond with me." Clarke explained.

"Clarke I'm not going to die!" Octavia laughed.

"Both Finn and Lexa died after I fell in love with them and decided I wanted to bond with them." Clarke elaborated.

"Oh poor girl." Octavia held Clarke tight. "It's gonna be ok! I'm right here, and nothing is going to happen to me." Octavia assured.

"I'm sorry." Clarke apologized.

"Aww girl, its ok. Now do you wanna get some food? If we go together no one will bother you , and I won't have to leave you alone here." Octavia suggested while wiping away Clarke's tears.

"Yeah that sounds nice!" Clarke replied cheering up.

Getting food didnt take the two girls long , and as soon as they retrieved it they returned to Octavia's room. Octavia held the plate filled with their dinner as they both slipped back into the bed. Octavia guestured for Clarke to rest her head against her lap as they layed in bed. "Good Girl!" Octavia praised as Clarke rested in her lap. Octavia chose a small berry from the plate and placed it in front of Clarke's mouth.

"Mhm Thanks O!" Clarke thanked taking the berry and the tips of two of Octavia's fingers in her mouth. Clarke teasingly bit at Octavia's fingers before licking at Octavia's finger teasingly. Octavia could feel herself begining to grow and press up against her tight pants. Clarke could hear Octavia begin to growl as she licked and sucked wantonly at Octavia's fingers. "Good?" Clarke teased.

"Just eat your dinner!" Octavia ordered.

"Yes…" Clarke trailed off clearly wanting to say my alpha but not wanting to overstep again as Octavia had warned her about earlier.

"You can say it. I was just teasing you earlier. I like when you say it." Octavia explained Grabbing another berry to feed to Clarke.

"Thank you my alpha." Clarke thanked taking the berry from Octavia and nuzzeling against her.

"Good girl." Octavia praised taking a bite of food for herself. "How are you feeling, the suppresants should be kicking in soon.?" Octavia asked.

"Yeah the pain is no where near as bad. But I am getting kinda sleepy." Clarke admitted.

"Good, Im glad the pain isn't so bad anymore. Eat your dinner and then we can cuddle, How does that sound?" Octavia offered.

"Mhmm that sounds amazing!" Clarke replied sitting up and begining to kiss at Octavia's neck. Clarke's kisses quickly grew to be teasing bites.

"I said eat your dinner not me!" Octavia lqaughed pulling Clarke off of her.

"But you are so delicious!" Clarke teased.

"Eat your dinner before you fall asleep!" Octavia ordered.

"Fine." Clarke pouted.

"Good girl!" Octavia placed the plate on her lap and took a bite of meat for herself.

"Thanks." Clarke thanked as she began grazing at the food. As Clarke continued grazing over the food Octavia could tell that Clarke was rather taken with the coat that she had given Clarke earlier.

"You like the coat?" Octavia questioned.

"I like the coat , I love that you are courting me , and what the coat means.". Clarke smiled rubbing her face against the furrs of the coat.

"I'm glad." Octavia smiled and kissed Clarke's forehead. "What do you want your alpha to bring you for the final step of courting?" Octavia asked before popping a berry into her mouth.

"You know that's cheating!" Clarke retorted. "You have have to find something on your own ! I can't help you!" Clarke inisted.

"Oh I never knew you were so traditional!" Octavia laughed.

"I just want to be courted like any other omega wants." Clarke insisted.

"Mhmm so cute!" Octavia teased throwing the empty plate on the nightstand and jumping on top of Clarke.

"Mhmm O! Plea-" Clarke began to beg as she began to drift off to sleep.

"Clarke?" Octavia questioned worriedly.

"Tired, cuddels and sleep." Clarke requested as she fell asleep.

"Of course girl!" Octavia agreed curling up to Clarke and pulling the covers up to comfort her omega.

End of chapter 1