I Remember You :)
Sitting on this cold empty bed in my prison cell I remember you.
I remember how you used to fall asleep with your head upon my shoulder. I used to watch you for hours, there was something calming about watching you sleeping. What I wouldn't give for you to be in my arms now, watching the gentle rise and fall of your chest and falling more and more in love with you. You fitted perfectly in my arms; I wish I could have kept you there forever, tucked away from the outside world where nothing could hurt us. There was always so much against us right from the start.
I remember the smell of your skin, that beautiful golden brown silky smooth skin. You always smelt so good. I only had to be near you and I wanted to eat you all up…every single inch of you. You gave me everything you had, but I still wanted more. I never could get enough of you, but then you could never get enough of me and that's why we worked. We craved each other; nothing else even came close to what we had and for me nothing ever will. You were my first love and you will be my last love.
I remember your touch and how it would make me feel, how you could get me to do anything, although I'd never tell you. I wouldn't want you to know about the power you had over me, although I think you knew deep down. Your touch would send shivers down my spine, send me wild with desire. Sometimes when I close my eyes it's like I can still feel you here with me, touching me, loving me like you used to. I miss your love, I miss your warmth. I get so cold without you by my side.
I remember how good it felt having you back in my life after so long apart. I had so many dreams for us, there was so much I wanted to do and half of it I never even told you. I wanted to give you a future you deserved and not just you, but Leah and Lucas as well. I never got the chance to show you how truly amazing our life could have been and now I'm without you once more, I am filled with regret. At least I had happiness if only for a little while, thank you for everything you shared with me.
I remember the fighting, how we'd argue and how you'd sulk and pout, sticking those beautiful lips out. You'd make me want to make up almost the minute we'd rowed, and when we did it was amazing…it was nearly worth the fight. You are so strong, never giving up on what you want and I admire you for that, I wish I could have been more like you at times. Maybe then we wouldn't be living separate lives. But I'm thankful for you every day and I'll always love you.
I remember everything about you; it's your face and love that I will never forget. I told you once that I couldn't live my life without you and I meant it, I'm just a dead man walking now, existing, plodding along, but I'll never live again, at least not like I did with you. You are all I see in here, it's like a part of you is with me; at least that is what I believe. I hope you know that if I could go back and do it all again, I'd never leave your side.
I lie down and close my eyes, wishing you were lying here with me. I remember the beautiful mess we made. I remember you.
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