Noa no Nikki

[Noa's Diary]

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AN: Well, I got all mushy and really really Ryuuji/Noa deprived, so here I am, making Noa's Diary. It would have been "Journal", but that sounds weird in Japanese too. I suppose you could call this the Journal he had from "Love Effort", if you'd like to. It's going to be from his crush-on-Ryuuji P.O.V., just so you know. So he refers as if he's talking to Ryuuji. Okay? Okay.

.sakurakaiba.

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Warnings for the sad people: Uh..yaoi. OtogixNoa...that's..about it.

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10.16

Journal -

I saw you in my English class again, today. Of course - I always do. I really hope you couldn't tell how I was staring at you, looking away everytime you moved your head even remotely in my direction. I was probably blushing like an idiot too. Oh, what will I do without school? I'm not sure I'll be able to survive Winter Break without seeing you at all for 2 weeks. 2 weeks is much too long. Mokuba is pounding on my door now, but I refuse to acknowledge him. Ignoring him makes him go away. The evil, vile Winter Break starts tommorow, leaving me without you. Not fair.

- Noa

10.17

Journal -

Winter Break, day one. I'm supposed to be going shopping soon. To get presents for Mokuba and Seto. Seto's gift won't matter, it won't be good enough for him even if he notices I bought him something. Mokuba is easy to buy for, however, so I can deal with him. I should be heading out about now.

- Noa

10.17 - Afternoon

Journal -

Shopping is finished. Funniest thing - I saw you in the mall. Haha. What am I trying to hide..? My head is still spinning, and my heart's still racing. I'm probably still red, too. Mokuba saw me and snickered. I also saw this nice, expensive, dice bracelet as well. Pure irony, I swear. The world is out to get me, I know it. After staring at it and blushing, then pondering for another moment, I bought it for you. It's really beautiful -- all made with rubies and diamonds. You don't even know who I am and here I go, spending hundreds of my Christmas dollars on a present for you. I feel really, really stupid. I have no idea when I'm going to give it to you. I'm going to go wrap it now, just in case I run into you again someday.

- Noa

10.18

Journal -

Mokuba dragged me to the park today. I got to sit on a bench and stare at the frost-covered sakura trees while wishing I were with you. My Ryuuji. All mine. I want you so much...it pains and saddens me, really it does. I thought about how I'll probably never end up giving you your beautiful present. Such a shame. I hope it doesn't stay all alone in it's little box without My Ryuuji to hold it. I don't want the little present to be alone, just like me.

- Noa

10.22

New Journal -

Hello New Journal. I am only using this journal, because I've lost my other one. I have no idea where it could have gone, because I've already searched Mokuba, and he continues to claim that he doesn't have it.

Well, the Gods are toying with me now. Day six of Winter Break. I saw you, again. In the park as I strolled this time. I gathered up the courage to talk to you, well, okay... blush and stumble like an idiot. I did, however, thrust my present for you into your hands and then...I took off running. Bad me. I remembered to sign my name, though, so if you ever care to acknowledge me -- I'll be here. Waiting as if it were any other day, just for My Ryuuji.

- Noa