Okay this took a while to get out and it didn't come out like I wanted it to either. Anyway I watched the hospital episode a dozen times and just couldn't get this out of my mind so yeah... I hope it gets positive reviews... I feel like I'm forgetting something?
Rose Quartz and Steven Universe, two beings that will never meet or touch.
Steven loves his Mom, even though they've never actually met before. He loves her really he does... its just.. sometimes... well it feels like everything important is just something of hers that he is borrowing.
Steven doesn't always feel this way, but that doesn't change the fact that he does. And the worst part is, is that its true.
The gems were her family, her closest and maybe only friends. They loved her. Still love her. They never say anything bad about her when they do talk of the past. And the gem that rests embedded in his stomach is never his but hers. "Rose's gem," "Her shield," "Your mother's powers," it was a never ending cycle of what is not his repeatedly said by the family that was originally his Mom's most loyal team. "You have her laugh and her eyes," his Dad use to say.
His Dad wasn't even his. Rose met him first, claimed him as hers to love. Of course that relationship was completely different from a father and son relationship, but that doesn't take away from the fact that he belonged to his Mom first.
They all belonged to his Mom first. There's nothing wrong with that, it just feels like if he wasn't his Mom's son they would all treat him differently. That scares him. What if all their love is just because he came from Rose? He doesn't know what he would do then.
And the Earth! the Earth is even hers! The Earth is his home, all he's ever known but Rose and the gems found it first! Rose claimed the Earth as her planet, hers to protect, hers to care for, hers to live on. Everyone on earth kind of belong to her in a way. They were all once under her protection, so doesn't that make them hers too?
That is why Steven reaches out to the town as much as he does, because Rose in all her glory had never really connected with the humans she loved and protected. So Steven got to know the people in town. He would chase and cling and sing and be nosy, but they never pushed him away. They never said "You have Rose's laugh," with a sad tone or comment on how he was becoming so much like her with eyes glazed in memory. To them Steven was Steven and he was nothing but original.
But Connie she was his. She wasn't born until after his Mom was gone. She stayed around because he was Steven, not because he was Rose's son. He is her first and only friend. They can fuse! They fight together! She is the one that gets the most excited when he tells her about his and the gem's adventures. She's the one he talks to about every new thing he learns about the gems. She says she doesn't want to lose him. Connie chases Steven when he runs not the memory of his mom or the possibility of what he could become.
So Connie belongs to Steven. Only Steven and not his Mom.
She's his best friend, his partner, his to fight beside, to learn with, to laugh with, and his to fuse with.
Connie was Steven's jam bud and he wouldn't let anyone take that from him. So of course when that shard fusion grabbed Connie he yelled "Stay away from my Connie!" and not anything else.
