AN: Okay so this is my version of Not A Normal Jori Challenge. It was basic Beck and Jade needed to date, Jade and Tori dating behind everyone's back and they would be oblivious with their feelings for each other. Then Tori would start to date someone else and Jade would get jealousy, this would be a multi-chapter story but the first part, this one, just had to be over 10 000 words so it will be more of a three-shot... And just so everyone knows I haven't abounded The Importance of Magic, it's just resting for a while ;) Also first story with a poorly written sex scene, sorry about that. Also sorry for the end too...
Disclaimer: I do not own anything
You know that guilt you get when you haven't study enough for a test and then you get a C but you could have got an A only if you had started to study some weeks before the test. So you promise yourself while you wipe away the tears that you will start to study for the next test three weeks before, not the night before but still the night before the test you find yourself study your ass off because you didn't begin earlier. I have the same problem but with having sex with someone who isn't my boyfriend.
Maybe I should explain or maybe just tell the story for you. It all began with a party as so many other cheating stories do. Maybe because it always involve alcohol but I don't think it's an acceptable excuse, even if you are intoxicated you are still well aware what you are doing. Either way on this party which I only went to because Beck forced me, there were a lot of fun drinks. Drinks that made you dizzy, lightheaded and made you forget all the troubles you had.
After one drink I knew thanks to my better judgment that I wouldn't drink another one. So I danced until my lungs were aching, laughing until I saw stars and I felt the cool wind stroke my bare skin. After a while I found myself standing next to Cat talking to her about, well it was Cat after all, why I thought mankind had killed off unicorns. Cat's hysterical protests was the fuel for me to keep going. I had to suppress my laughter more than once. Until Tori came, drunk off her ass, and started to interrupt us. Cat started to worry of course about the way too cheerful and optimistic girl.
"We need to get her home," Cat said while she tried her best to keep Tori standing upright.
"What do you mean with we?" I asked Cat, seriously this party had surprised me and I actually had a great time I wouldn't ruin my night to take care of Tori.
"You need to drive Tori home!" Cat's way too high-pitch voice was heard.
"Why should I drive her home?" I asked Cat.
"Because you have a driver license and a car which neither of those things I possess."
"Fine I will drive her home, but you take care of her," I said but Cat literally dumped Tori's body on me and then let out a giggle. I only had to turn around to see why the girl was so happy. A very handsome boy, with very fabulous muscles and abs. Which was indeed very nice and hot, especially if you are a horny, single, young, teenage girl. Which I wasn't but Cat was.
"Okay I will take care of Vega and if you last with this boy for more than two days and you actually have sex with him you won't owe me one."
"Kay kay," was all Cat said before she skipped away in a hurry.
I more was stuck with a drunken Tori Vega who couldn't stand on her own.
"Okay little ass come here," I said and stumbled in the house and then out again. Towards the car while texting a text telling Beck I had to take care of a drunk Tori Vega. The replay I got was: "I am proud of you that you do such a nice thing, just don't kill her."
While I was cursing about boyfriends who couldn't be gentlemen and help their girlfriends in need, cursing about the very heavy Tori Vega and why always everyone had to assume the worst about me, I shoved Tori into the backseat and then I drove her home.
Her mother-fucking parents weren't home neither was Trina which meant I had to find the house key, I had to drag her up the stairs, to her room and lay her down.
"Okay you are in your bed, safe for now. Now lay down and I will tuck you in," I said while my patience were slowly running out.
"Jade... Jade, do-do you now what I love about you." I let out a sigh. Please Tori Vega not now.
"Tori just lay down and then you can tell me how much you love me. But right now all I want from you is to lay down, can you do it?" I asked, getting more and more annoyed.
"No, let me just tell you what you mean to me." I really tried to leave her there but the girl just hold onto me like a baby holds onto their mother.
"Please do it while laying down," I said while trying to realise myself from Tori's grip.
"NO!" Now she was just sounding like a three year old.
"Okay Tori I have always known you are a little bit after but right now you need to understand the english language, lay down!" But Tori only tried to stand up, which she did so abruptly I lost my balance and fell, dragging Tori with me. Tori let out a shriek which sounded way too much like an overjoyed giggle.
"Okay Tori get off me." I said while trying to get the drunk girl off me.
"No no no, Jade just listen to me." I let out a sigh, if Tori Vega would come out from this alive she better start to do as I told her to.
"I like you." Like I haven't understood that by now.
"I want you." Wait what?!
"As in I want to fuck you." She said with a seductive voice while trying to unbutton my blouse.
"Okay now Tori if you want to keep those hands I suggest you stop it now." She did.
"I understand you want to fuck me, I mean who wouldn't? But I am with Beck, now lay down on your bed and get some sleep." Tori's disappointed face showed but then as always Tori got a genius idea.
"Stay over the night!"
"After you almost raped me?" I started to button fast the buttons Tori actually had succeed with unbuttoning.
"I didn't try to rape you. Stay we could have a drinking game!" Tori said while she almost jumped up and down. God sometimes this girl was just too similar to Cat.
"Fine, but you better have something good to drink."
Tori only got up and ran down the stairs to get something to drink. Not too long was she gone and when she got into the room she had two glasses in one hand and one bottle of tequila in the other.
"Okay you have to drink every time someone has sex, kiss, Eric says Sookie in that Oh My way. Also you have to drink two shots if someone uses a profanity."
"So I guess we are watching True Blood?"
"Yes and let the game begin."
Now I will let you know, you get drunk, no you don't get drunk you get smashed if you shot tequila. Which I did. Do you know what happens to me when I get drunk? I get horny. It didn't help either that all I saw was True Blood.
I was bother, that was all I can say. I didn't even notice Tori's seductive voice asking me if we should lay in her bed to be a little more comfortable until I laid in her bed. Suddenly I was very aware of Tori's body, the tanned skin, the long legs (OhMyGod) How couldn't Tori have a boyfriend? She took off her shirt, giving me the excuse it was so hot in her room.
She got up and open one of the windows. I clearly could see her amazing body, her fantastic long legs that seemed to go on and on. I could see how her slender arms opened up the window, I could see her bra which was in a red shocking colour that made everything about her breast amazing.
I was lightheaded, dizzy, I forgot all the problems that ever had rested on my shoulders. I couldn't think clearly, the tequila, the air in the room whom were filled with something electrically. I felt how my body was on fire, it need to cool down so I took off my blouse and the skirt. I stood in my underwear, it was like I was in a trance. When you are fully aware of what you are doing but still don't really fully understand what you are doing. I got back up in the bed and claimed over Tori's body. Just letting my fingers stroke down on her body. I stopped at her hip and just let my fingers go up and down over the hipbone. I myself felt how Tori's fingers started to sneak their way up my spine, leaving an electric feeling after. I wanted more. I saw those lips, I saw the neck who screamed to me to kiss it. I saw the collarbones that was begging me to kiss them. I bend down and pressed my lips towards Tori's who immediately answered. I moved my hands up so I had control over her face. I kissed her down to her jawline, up to her ear where I let out a breath which Tori answered with letting out a moan. It sounded like she was in pain but I ignored it and continue down on her neck. Tracing my lips down where her shoulders met her neck. I raised myself to admire what laid in front of me. I took away the red shocking bra and let my fingers trace her breast. To feel how they felt, did they feel the same as mine? I let my lips once again feel the skin whom were Tori's. I kissed her breast and then a nipple which made Tori let out a moan again. While I was discovering what was Tori Vega's breast I let my hands feel her ribcage, feel her hips and then when I got to feel something that felt like fabric I realise they had arrived at her panties. I carefully while still kissing her breast slipped one finger in and ripped the panties away, we didn't need them now. Then my lips found her stomach, her hips were I left a special mark which was answered by a moan from Tori. Eventually I had arrived were Tori screamed at me to touch I instead got one of her legs up to my shoulder and started to kiss her knee. Tori was just humming in approval, her eyes closed. I only smiled and let my fingers go down until they were met with something damp. I only smiled when I let one finger quickly spread her and run it up and then down. She actually begged me to do more, to just penetrate her. I only smiled and let my body hovering over her.
"What if I don't want to," I asked her. Smiling I looked into her eyes, enjoying every second of it. But then something in Tori's eyes changed and soon I was lying on the bed having a turned on Tori on top of me. She ripped the black lace bra off me with such force it actually left scratch mark on me. Then she just looked down before a smirk printed that face. I mean sweet fucking innocent Vega smirked! She still had a hold on my black lace bra and used it to tie me up. I was surprised myself I let her. She pinched one of my nipples way too hard which made me want to get her hands away from there but I couldn't move mine. She kissed me when I started to protest, it was harsh nothing sweet about it. She kissed my neck hard, leaving hickeys on it on more than on one place. But all I could feel was the burning feeling in between my legs. All I could think about was how amazingly Tori's kisses felt, leaving their marks all over my body. Then she hit a soft spot, she kissed it way to hard so I whined and my back was arching, showing my hips to hers. Begging her to enter me. But she just continued on, biting the already sore flesh. I gasped I wasn't ready for that one. Then her fingers found their way under my panties and even harder then she had ripped away my bra she ripped off my panties. I only wanted her inside me, I only wanted her to fuck me hard. But she continued on teasing me, leaving hickeys down my body, on my ribcage, on my stomach and then she found my bellybutton. She let her tung run around it until she let it go inside. I was moaning, trying to rip my hands away from the bed board, my back was occasionally arching up, trying to make Tori penetrate me but she had way too fun with kissing all over my body except where it was needed. Her fingers stroked my tights and then with all the force she possessed she thrust into me. I wasn't ready for the abrupt penetration and I lost my breath but Tori didn't let me catch it. Fast and hard did Tori thrust into me, and I was going ecstasy. I felt how all I really could do was to breath but there was always a moan on it's way out. I started to scream her name while I felt how my walls were closing in. How I came closer and closer to the edge. Then I felt Tori's breath against my skin making me shiver but it didn't made so big difference because my legs were shaking. She kissed my neck, the sore spots she kissed them gentle and it all became a mix together, pain, pleasure, love? Until I felt how my entire body relaxed, how I released the last shaky breath and how I felt how my eyelids became heavier and heavier. I felt how a pair of arms snaked it's way around my body. To hold me close to her and then I doze off.
When I woke up the morning after I was not only hangover but something was bothering me. The arms that hold me close was too small to belong to Beck. The body who I laid next to naked didn't feel like Beck's. I opened up my eyes and saw a naked Tori laying next to me. Holding me! I got out from her grip and started to remember last night. How it all had escalated from a kiss to having sex. I got up and went into the bathroom. My head was killing me and I felt that soon maybe food was going to make it's way up the wrong way. I stood in the bathroom and didn't let myself freak out. Okay I just had had sex with Vega, that doesn't mean anything now does it? Guilt was the only way to describe what I felt and soon the little food that rested in my stomach was on it's way up. After I had thrown up I washed my face and tried to wake myself up. I looked in the mirror, on my naked body and saw all the hickeys Tori had left on my body. There were at least three on the neck, countless on my breasts and then they just became bigger and bigger the lower on my body you got. There were red marks around my wrist after my bra, there were scratch marks left after Tori had ripped my bra from my body. How on earth would I explain this to Beck?
The door opened up and a sober looking Tori Vega dance into the bathroom.
"Do you want to join me in the shower?" She said with a smirk.
"No thanks, how can't you feel like crap?" I asked her, feeling how my eyes wanted to close themselves again after Tori had lit the lights.
"I didn't drink yesterday."
"Oh okay." Wait what?! I turned around, yeah sure it had take my braincells a while to figure out the meaning behind her sentence but I was hangover.
"What did you say?" I say said with a voice whom could killed children.
"I didn't drink so I'm not hangover."
"I-I-I-I took you home! Because you were drunk! We-We-We-We-We drank!" Nothing more could I get out of me, I was furious.
"Yeah... Guess I wasn't such a bad actor after all, no was I?" Tori said while her smirk seemed to grow bigger. God I was going to kill her.
"You used me!"
"As I remember it, which is the correct one because I haven't been drinking, you were the one to start. Not I." I felt how I only could take small breaths in.
"You!" I said while poking my finger into her chest.
"Now come on Jade, we all know here that you only bark but not bite. Either you come with me in the shower or you don't. You don't have to be so upset and mad." Was all she said before she got into the shower.
"You probably wanna get that sex stink off of you or else you gonna have a fun time explaining that to your boyfriend."
Loads of guilt feelings came at me but I still went into the shower. Tori standing there, smirking.
I don't really know why it happen a second time, but it did. I got into the shower and well before I knew it I felt Tori's hands starting to massage me while washing me. I don't really knew what I was expecting, after all we both had had sex with each other and standing naked in a shower well it was pretty obvious what was going to happen. But this time I couldn't blame it on dizziness or lightheaded or influence of alcohol. This time I was sober, hangover but still sober. There was nothing that could have influence me to do something that was wrong. I was fully aware of Tori's kisses, Tori's hands searching their way down my body, stroking me in just the right places. The worst part is that I kissed back, I was the one who pinned her to the wall kissing her until I could see bruises starting to form on her neck. I was the one who didn't stop until her screams were heard in the entire house. Her legs were tightly hugged around my waist and she was shaking. Moaning my name and I liked it. I couldn't get enough of her body. I couldn't get enough of kissing her, feel her, touch her. I just couldn't stop and when we got out of the shower Tori was smirking but she was euphoric while I was guilt ridden. If I more than happy jump in bed with Tori, twice too, should I really continue on with my relationship with Beck?
I got dressed and went home, acting like nothing happened. When I got home and saw my phone I had dozen and dozen of text, missed calls from no less than Beck. I felt like crap, I didn't want to meet him nor talk to him so I simply sent him a text telling him I had been with Tori the entire night and had now woken up. I just went up to my bed and laid down promising myself this wouldn't happen ever again.
Three days later I was pinned at a wall in the janitor closet while Tori kissing me, her hand under my shirt. I didn't even knew how I ended up here with Tori kissing me. Something whom I couldn't remember now had upset me and I had went into the janitor closet to get me some therapy job done. Then Tori came into the janitor closet, we started to kiss and then she pinned me up at the wall, making sure her hickeys still was going to be there.
I had been wearing a polo shirt for the last three days and as soon Beck had wanted to get close and intimate I had backed off. It hurt him I could see it because he thought I was putting my walls up again, boys always thinks that if they can't have sex with you then they have done something wrong. While I felt even more crappier the longer I did this and now Tori would make new ones, in the school where also my boyfriend Beck were going which meant he could walk in on us.
"Stop," I said and to my surprised she stopped.
"What?!" She hissed in annoyance.
"Someone could walk in on us. We don't want that," I said.
"And when does Jade West care about anything?" Tori asked while getting back to her business on my neck.
"Wait-" But nothing more could I say. Tori had started to kiss my lips roughly. There were something about Tori's kisses, they weren't tender nor gentle but still they weren't painfully pleasurable. They were rough, they were cruel, bruising your lips but still made you wanting more.
I had thought a lot, why did Tori abuse my body with her pleasurable touches and kisses? Why did she, as soon she got a chance to, mark and bruise my body? I never knew Tori had a fetish to mark and claim someone to be hers. It made me feel like a pet, like a pathetic whore. Who just took her kisses but the worst part was I wanted it, I fucking liked it!
But every time Tori was close, every time her lips discovered my body I lost my ability to say no. To think logical. I became dizzy and at that moment when I felt Tori's lips at my neck all I could think about was that I wished she could come a little closer, just a little bit higher. I didn't knew what it was but she got me longing for more. She got straight to my head. All I wanted was to get rid of the guilt.
Tori was satisfied with just kissing my neck until it was blue. She looked satisfied when she left me in the janitor closet while I stood there, barley standing on my two legs. I didn't like the affect she had on me.
I quickly walked my way to the girls' bathroom. There I fixed my hair and took a real close look at myself in the mirror. Your only human Jade I tried to convince myself but couldn't. I felt terrible. I felt disgusting. I felt like the monster that no one loves, who doesn't deserve to be loved. What was I doing?
At lunch I sat next to Beck, who was happy that I practically sat in his lap while I felt like shit. He kissed me, he played with my hair, he drew circles on my tight, just small proof of love. While I just felt how my stomach turned. I didn't deserve him a bit. I looked over at Tori who happily eat her lunch and talked to Cat. The little redhead talked about unicorns and why she believed I was born evil. This would normally have made me smile but not today. Today was a shitty day, today I didn't deserve to smile, today I felt like someone killed me. One touch after another from Beck felt like someone taking a knife and ripping me to pieces, one stab after another. Eventually I couldn't take it anymore, I needed to go away. I couldn't see happy Tori and Beck in the same room.
"Ugh, you guys' IQ are so low I'm wondering if it's contagious." And with that I was on my way away from the table, away from Beck and Tori.
Unfortunately I couldn't avoid Beck forever, eventually we met. It was the end of the day, I was standing at my locker, wondering if I really needed to take anything home with me.
"Hey," Beck said causally, scaring the living crap out of me.
"What the fuck Beck?! What have I ever done to you?"
"Avoiding me." Such easy words, still so meaningful.
"I'm sorry Beck..."
"It's okay, when you're ready you'll tell me," he said and walked away. I only stood there and realised what I needed to do, tell Tori no.
I couldn't find Tori anywhere so I went over to her place and when she opened up the door she was herself. Sweet ole Tori, rambling about some boy and she was nervous over their coming first kiss so she was practising on her first kiss. I only sat and stared at her, at her amazing acting. How could she just act like she hadn't been kissing my neck blue, how could she act so, so, so normal?!
"Tori!" I snapped, I was done with being pushed around.
"What? I'm only in need of advice Jade. How should the first kiss go? With tongue or without?"
"I couldn't care less, I'm here-" But I was interrupted by Tori kissing me.
"So should it be like this kiss, or the other one we shared in the janitor closet?"
I was taken by surprised, what the fuck was she doing? One minute the girl was rambling on about her new dude she was going to kiss and the other she was kissing me! But this time I would make it stop. This time was Jade West's time to take a stand and say no. Did you guys knew what Jade West did? She did nothing. And I'm not proud over what happen that afternoon, I'm not proud that when I left the Vega household I was fucked so hard I could barley walk. But I think the worst part was, and will always be, at during the short time when I laid in Tori's arms, panting, I couldn't help but to love her slender arms around me. I couldn't help that I loved feeling her lips on me. But what should I do when I don't even want to come to the terms that I, Jade West, loved small pisces of what was the real Tori Vega. How can I stop this when all I could do when I'm around Tori is to fall on my back and spread my legs for her. What should I do? For starters, take a shower. Because seriously I smell like shit.
The next day when I walked into Hollywood Arts everything seemed so normal, so perfect. That was until I saw Tori Vega and Beck talking together. Jealousy rushed through me, who did she think she was? First me now Beck?! I walked over there and hissed at Tori: "leave."
She seemed so scared, so frightened, that she had so much respect for me. Where did that respect go when we were alone? Where did my self respect go when I was alone with her?
"Jade..." was all Beck had to say. I only huffed, Beck was great on many ways but I do really think all Beck really wanted was a child, not a girlfriend.
"You've ignored me the entire week and suddenly when I speak to Tori, wondering if she knows why you're like this you flare-up, like it was me who acted like I wanted to break up." The words left Beck's mouth so hurt, so pained, so angry. I realised what I was losing, Beck.
"Beck... Just listen, I... I've been avoiding you... And I've done it because of Tori." This wasn't easy to do, but it had to be done.
"What has Tori to do with anything?" Beck asked, but then I saw the girl in question. I saw her and all my courage disappeared. I couldn't say what I was doing with Tori, not only would it mortify me but also it would be like kicking Beck in the balls then rip them off and force him to eat them. It just wasn't okay.
"You... You've been staring at her all the time! I knew you liked her!" And then I stormed off, leaving a confused and very frustrated Beck to his own thoughts.
At lunch I sat in between Tori and Beck, life really needs to be hating me. I'm serious, I think I'm a joke to the universe. There was a part of me that wanted to run and never stop. I wonder if New York was beautiful this time of the year. Or could Canada be something for me? Well Beck came from Canada, and there came all the guilt feelings at once. I pushed away my food, not wanting to risk throwing up at the lunch. I felt how Beck tensed up next to me and he turned his attention to me.
"Jade when was the last time you eat?" His whispered shouted into my ear. Which only made me angry, who did he think he was? Making me deaf by practically shouting into my ear!
"When was the last time you eat Beck?!" I snapped and threw my food at a very surprised Tori. Completely by accident, I swear.
"Five seconds ago! Now tell me!" Beck bellowed, this is the thing with Beck. He never loses his patience, he never gets angry, he is always calm but those few times when I actually manage to piss him off he gets furious, he gets scary. Maybe that was the reason why Cat started to cry, Robbie to pee his pants, I sitting down and Tori and André just awkwardly looking away, like the rest of the school.
"I... I've..." Okay when was the last time I eat? "I don't know..." I muttered out, looking away. Beautiful weather it was today, I could pretend myself away from here. Away from this humiliating situation. I was mortified. Fucking Beck, why did he always had to be so concerned about everything that had to do with my life? Maybe because he loved me..? Well now I felt even more crappier, if that was even possible.
"Please eat, for me?" Beck asked gently, he looked at me with those eyes, those eyes that made me want to rip out my own so I couldn't see those beautiful eyes, those who were filled with so much love for me. Those who were filled with hurt and confusion on why I pushed him away, why I hurt him this way. So I couldn't deny him the only wish I could fulfil for him. I couldn't hurt him anymore, this needed to end. And if this would once again end with me and Vega hooking up, me and Beck was done.
I was knocking fiercely on the door, building up my courage. I would stump into the house, telling Vega we needed to stop having sex with each other, and stump out. I mean how hard could it be?
When Vega finally opened up the door, she only looked at me up and down, and then let me in. Well there goes my stumping in the house. But I could still do this, go Jade! I turned around after my embarrassing pep talk to myself and said straight to Tori: "This needs to stop, I don't want to do this anymore. I don't think I ever have wanted to do this!"
It felt nice to say it, it felt nice to get some relief. I felt nice to be done with this, now I only needed to stump out of the house and never ever be alone with Tori Vega in a room again. Once again how hard could it be?
"What do you mean?" Tori asked, also blocking the way. Well there goes stumping out of the house, but mark my words there wouldn't be another walk of shame home!
"What I mean is that we two have sex, we two sleeping together behind Beck's back!"
"Do you want to do it in front of him... Or what?" Was Tori retarded, or was she just playing dumb.
"Are you fucking with me now?! And don't answer that question! We can't keep having sex with each other because it's literally killing me and Beck!"
"Why?"
"Why?! I can barley look at him!"
"Why?"
"Because I have slept with you!"
"But Jade, that didn't mean anything."
"What..?"
"Jade, you're just apologising to me. All the times you've pulled a prank, a snarky and hurtful remark you'v never apologising to me, now it's time by sleeping with me. And don't feel guilty, Beck has always told you to be nice to me. You're just doing what he has told you all this time. Being nice and apologising to me," Tori explained with such nurturing tone. It took a while for that to sink in, not only was I confused over the stupidity of the girl but also I was angry. Who did she think she was to just... To just... Well... I don't know why I'm angry.
"This isn't apologising, this is sex..."
"You're fulfilling my needs, I see it as your way of being nice to me and apologising. You aren't doing anything wrong Jade," Tori said coming closer.
I backed away but she just came closer and soon my back hit the wall and she could be so close to me as she wanted. One kiss here, one kiss there and soon I was giving up to Tori's kisses.
"Beck never makes you feel this way as I do, now does he?" She asked while planting small kisses on my neck, that send shivers down my spine, that made me feel butterflies in my stomach, that made me let out a moan, answering Tori's question.
"You're just fulfilling your needs by apologising to me, you aren't doing anything wrong," Tori whispered into my ear while she nibbled my earlobe.
She started to kiss the beginning of my neck and her lips started to wander down while her hands found my jeans button and started to unbutton it. I started to think, was Tori perhaps right? Was I just apologising to Tori, being nice to her? Because if that was the case I was only doing what Beck had told me since the beginning of everything, I was only fulfilling his wishes. Which meant I was still an acceptable girlfriend. That I shouldn't feel guilty. Tori who had started to wonder down to my breast, kissing them, dragged down my pants. I still just stood there, pinned to the wall, but I was okay with it. Because deep down I just wanted Tori to come a little closer, just a little bit higher and touch me right there.
I was walking to Beck, euphoric, I had solved everything. I was just being nice to Tori by letting her do anything she wanted to me, I wasn't doing anything wrong, I was only doing what Beck had told me to do oh so many times. I walked into his RV and smiled.
"Beck! I'm happy," I said while Beck only looked at me.
"Are you on drugs?" He asked, while he took up his laptop. "What is the drug called?" He asked, ready to type.
"I'm not on drugs. I'm just happy," I said while letting out a sigh and letting myself fall onto the bed. Beck who still wasn't sure about it looked into my eyes, felt the smell of my breath. When those test just reassured what I said was true he was taken aback.
"Okay Jade... You're genuine happy?" Beck asked, unsure what to do. He knew I had never been genuine happy about anything.
"UhHum."
"Wow... How come you're so happy?"
First time I ever had a orgasm and not having to be feeling guilty about it. "I just realised that my life is perfect."
Beck only laughed and hugged me, it was then I realised, I should have taken a shower before I came here.
"I will go and take a shower, care to join?" I said getting up, already coming up with an acceptable excuse about the hickeys on my body. They were bruises, caused by... Um... Well, I fell down the stairs.
"Of course," Beck said and jumped out of bed. Horny little bastard.
My life started to go to the right direction, Beck's and my relationship was better then ever, Tori and I was having wonderful sex, school wasn't that bad and my parents had finally stopped forcing me to go to my therapist. I was a free soul. Nothing could destroy anything. Well, of course something has to happen. Something that would make my life a mess once again. It was my birthday, the source of all misery. Beck had taken me out on a restaurant, nothing special. I was bored, I was disappointed that all Beck could do was so predictable, and he had to go home early because next day he would go away.
So at eleven o'clock I was home, bored out of my mind. It was the worst birthday of my entire life, well until someone threw a rock at my window. I felt how a smirk showed on my face. It was time to scare some children. But when I looked out of the window I didn't see devils disguised as small boys, I saw Tori Vega.
"Have you heard something called a phone call?!" I snapped. She could have broken my window.
"I don't have your phone number, get out."
"Why should I?"
"Do you want a fun birthday or do you want to be in your room?"
"Fine," I said and got down.
Tori was dressed in a red gala dress, she had a black coat to keep her from freezing to death. I however stood in tights, skirt and tank top. She just gave me a white box with a red silk band wrapped around it.
"Open it," she demanded. I did and there was a beautiful silk dress, in the colour blue.
"Wow... It's beautiful," was all I manage to say.
"I know, it was I who picked it out. Now put it on so I can see." Once again a demand. But I of course obligated, and put the dress on. It fit perfectly, a little too perfect. How did Tori knew my size?
"I don't know what to say..."
"Thank you for starters. Now put this one on and we will be on our way." She gave me a white coat, similarly to hers. I only did as I was told, and followed her.
"Really Tori? A horse and carriage?" I asked Tori as soon I saw the horse and carriage in question. "Don't you know how unsafe those are?"
"Oh Jade, be a little adventurous," was all she said to me before she got in. Did I have a choice? You always have a choice, I guess I chose the wrong one, depending how you see it.
"Fine, where are we heading?" I asked.
"To a gala, I'm the guest of honour."
"Wow, what kind of gala is it? The losers' gala?"
"You're so funny Jade, no it's the gala for actors, singers and other people in the show business who is gay."
"And why are you the guest of honour?"
"Because of the Platinum Music Awards, you know I got famous not only because I sang but also because I was kissing a girl on the after party."
"There was an after party?! And you were kissing a girl?! Why?"
"She was good looking, we hit it off and well, what more excuses are there?" Tori asked casually.
"But why do you need me?" I asked.
"I need someone, a girl, to look pretty next to me, and who will shut her pretty mouth."
"Are you fucking with me?!"
"You'll get a fun birthday and-"
"How do you know this will be fun for me?! I will just be some accessory that you can show off!" I bellowed, I was done with Tori Vega's attitude towards me.
"Because there is a free bar and you will be able to get contacts in the show business, now how does that sound?" She asked in a soft tone, I knew what she was trying to do, charm my pants off. Was she succeeding? Nah, she needed to do a little more.
"Could have been better," was all I said before I looked out of the carriage in boredom, maybe I should take this as an opportunity to ruin Tori's future career? A devious smile formed on my lips, finally I would succeed with my life's goal.
"If you're thinking about ruin my career you'll know that I have pictures that will ruin yours," Tori causally said while taking my hand, playing with my fingers.
"What did you say?" I asked, surprised she had figure out my plan but also I was becoming angry. This little girl just came waltzing in, expecting me to worship her as a god and she had pictures of me!
"I have pictures of you that will ruin your career so don't even think of ruin mine."
"What kind of pictures?!" I asked in panic and anger. I had never agreed on Tori to take any kind of pictures of me when we were alone together.
"Do you remember my birthday?" She asked, I only nodded to answer, I wouldn't risk opening my mouth, there would be a lot of threats and screams.
"Well your birthday present to me, what more do I have to say? I had to take a picture of you, you were dressed in pink! And with ribbons! I needed to eternalise it!"
My facial expression showed Vega I didn't agree with her, at all. I was going to kill her in her sleep.
"If those pictures don't get erased as soon as you get home, I will shave off your hair, take pictures of you and spread out that you are in fact a nazi," my voice was ice cold, calm and my eyes were killing her. And my dear darlings she was scared. She was so frightened she was slightly shaking but then she swallowed and voila all the respect, fear for me was gone.
"Come on Jade, as said before you only bark not bite," was Tori's answer. She had a stone face and her eyes were cold, challenging me.
"Since you've gotten to Hollywood Arts you've stolen all the roles, solos from me. You've tried to steal my boyfriend from me, you've ruin my life to benefit yours. So I think I deserve to at least give you a nasty comment or two without you running away crying, and trust me Jade West does bite. Just not that often," I said and leaned back. Checkmate Tori Vega.
But Tori wasn't done, she sat herself down in my lap, straddling me. Staring right into my eyes, she reminded me a lot about cobra, just right before it attacks you.
"It's call shown business, learn how to deal with it, Jade. And I would love to feel your bite," she said, still ice cold. And I realised I couldn't win, I couldn't defeat her, mostly because I didn't like Tori's new scary way to threaten me. So I only could do one thing so I could keep my self respect and dignity intact. I leaned in and kissed her. Which she was quick to answer and I quick to finnish.
"What was that for?" Tori asked, a smile on her lips. Her facial expression was soft, no trace of the scary woman that just a second ago was in front of me.
"I don't know, my way of apologising," I said innocently which she only laughed at, a soft one. Which made me relax, sweet ole Tori Vega was back again.
"Well apologise accepted," she whispered into my ear before she kissed me again, only to not give me the upper hand. But I was okay with it because the butterflies that was flying around in my stomach gave me the most wonderful feeling.
Eventually the horse and carriage had made its way to the gala, and well the gala was pretty boring. Mingling with people who didn't have any interesting to say nor interesting discussions. The free bar only served me soft drinks, something about me being under 18. The only fun I had was when Tori went up on the stage and sung a real pop song, in her gala dress that in the beginning of the song she ripped off so it was more of a night club dress. I never knew Tori had the guts to do such thing. And when we were walking home, we talked, laughed and when she dropped me off at my place she only gave me a good night kiss and then she was off to her own place. And while I was watching her, leaving me, I finally understood what those butterflies meant. I finally understood why I bought the ridicules excuse about me just apologising to Tori by having sex. I think I liked the girl, I think I was falling for the damn girl. And then the guilt that I hadn't felt for oh so long came back. It hit me like a train. And I knew that in that moment I was in deep deep shit, out on deep water, and I knew I was in trouble and had no idea how to solve it.
Luckily for me universe seemed to have someone else to be made to a joke, because this situation could have solved all by itself. Only if I would have let it, did I? Not quite.
You see after the long weekend, spending all my time alone in my room, I was quit happy to go out to school and actually meet some people. I regretted that the instant Cat send me a text, asking if I could come and pick her up. I did so, when I was out of Cat's house I had to wait for 15 minutes on the girl, then when she finally came into the car we had to go direct to school, not stopping by and buying me my morning coffee. Not only did I have to listen to a certain redhead talking about her boyfriend that was so amazing in bed but I also needed to listen to the annoying redhead without caffeine. About her sex life! And then all the guilt came, especially when Beck came to me, giving me a morning coffee. The reason? Because he knew that Cat would ask me a ride to school, so thoughtful, wonderful boyfriend Beck just had to make everything worse. I wanted to throw up the coffee. I wanted to go home, into my room. I fucking hate people. But I think what made that morning so much worse was that Rex, the talking puppet, just had to point out that I seemed to be staring at Tori like a drooling dog. And after that everyone, and I mean everyone, was questioning me about it. Everyone teased me as soon I glanced at Tori, which annoyed me to no end. And when lunch came I wanted to kill everyone, and I mean everyone, I saw. To make everything worse, because this day just needed to get worse, Tori had something to announce. My heart was beating its way out of my chest, was Tori really going to say something about our activities?
"Okay people I have an announcement to say," Tori shouted out, gaining the entire Asphalt Cafe's attention.
"I'm gay and this is my girlfriend," Tori shouted, revealing a girl behind her. "If anyone got a problem with that, too bad for you."
And then she just sat down, her new girlfriend too. Ignoring everyone's stares, ignoring my death glare that was burning into her.
"Do you want to explain a little more..." André finally said after a while of awkward silence.
"I'm gay, theres nothing more to it. This is my girlfriend, Jeanette. She comes from France, she has moved here from Cannes," was Tori's simple explanation. Then she was back to stabbing her salad.
"Cannes..?" Cat asked unsure how to react. Two girls dating each other? How fashionable, but how did they have sex?
"It's a city in France, very beautiful," Jeanette spoke for the first time and her accent was so thick and disgusting. She was french for skittles doodles. Had Vega just talk to her and then they were together? Why was she even dating? She was fucking me! She shouldn't go around and chase french girls without underwear!
Unfortunately for me, the rest of the group seemed to accept Tori's chose of lifestyle. Everyone accepted her girlfriend, everyone even liked the damn girl who not even could pronounce pronounce!
When the bell rang, telling everyone to get to class I caught up with Vega, in the empty hallway.
"Hey," I said, trying to act like this wasn't bothering me but my voice was filled with venom. And Tori got scared by me.
"Oh, hey Jade didn't see you there. You scared-"
"Whoopsidobido Vega, I scared the living skittles out of you," I accidentally snapped. I seriously didn't have time to listen to her rambles. "Now explain why you're dating this Jeanette girl," I demanded.
"Why I'm dating this Jeanette girl? Well just maybe because there is love, maybe because I like the girl."
"What?! But you're sleeping with me! Don't I mean anything to you?!" I screamed out.
"You're dating Beck!" Tori cried out.
"We don't mean anything to each other. You're just apologising to me Jade. So I have the right to date anyone who I want," she snarled and then she turned around and was about to walk away. I had to stop her, I still wondering why I had the need to stop her.
"Wait Tori," I said, and she stopped and turned around, facing me.
"I, I'm bad at this. I'm bad at everything but you do mean something to me. You mean something really important to me... I didn't knew it at first what I was feeling but now I know, I feel... Love... For you," I let the last words hang in the air. She looked at me with a stone cold expression before her cold voice said those dreadful words.
"I don't believe you Jade. You'll have to do a little more to prove it."
"Like what?!" I cried out in desperation.
"Break up with Beck," she said before she turned around and walked away. And I knew what I had to do, what I should have done ages ago. I needed to break up with Beck.
Well we all know me, things can't just go simple. I was just going to stump in in Beck's RV, break up with him and stump out. How hard could it be? It was going to be like ripping a bandage off, quick and hopefully not that painful.
I knocked on the RV's door, just to give Beck an alert that his girlfriend was on incoming. I wouldn't walk into him watching porn nor him touching himself. Then I stumped into the RV and Beck laid naked in the bed. I let out a sigh, why the cookie dough did teenage boys always masturbate when it just wasn't the right time.
"Beck," I whined.
"What?! Do you know how long ago we had sex? I was dying Jade," was his excuse, he was dying.
"God, put some pants on."
"I can't..." was all he said. I only looked at him like he was an idiot, couldn't the boy put on a pair of pants? How stupid wasn't he, and then I realised why.
"Oh..."
"Do you want to help?" Beck asked innocently.
And still to this day I can't understand why I said what I said, which was okay.
I shrugged my shoulders, removed my clothing and the cover and saw the sight in front of me. Glorious naked Beck. I crawled onto him and started to kiss him. His hands searched their way up to my back and down to my hips where he tried to force me down. But I was too strong.
"Nope, not yet," I said between shallow breathing. God I got breathless just kissing Beck, maybe time to work on my cardio?
I continue on kissing him, down on his neck which he answer with a moan. His hands were rubbing my back more and more. Desperately trying to get what he wanted. I nibbled his ear before I whispered into his ear, with a wimpy voice: "Beck, please fuck me."
He turned into an animal. He forced my hips down and his penetration was abrupt and everything else then gentle. He rolled around so he was on top and started to thrust furiously hard and fast. I let me head drop to the pillows and closed my eyes. Humming in approval. This was the best sex I ever had with Beck, and he weren't even close to be done anytime soon. My fingernails poked into his skin while I dragged them up. I wanted him closer, deeper. And for the first time in our two years long relationship he understood what I wanted, he didn't came! He thrusted deeper, harder and I was gasping for air. This was too good to be true and I couldn't help but a moan escaped my lips.
"Oh, Tori," I moaned and suddenly those wonderful movements that was driving me to the edge of pure bliss stopped.
"What did you say?" A very dark, hoarse voice asked. Way too dark to be Tori's. The arms that hold me was too manly to belong to Tori and I had a real penis inside me. My conclusion was that I was with Beck and I just had moan out Tori's name. I needed a good excuse, fast. What god began with T?
"I said, oh Beck," I tried and opened up my eyes and saw Beck. And I knew how this would end. It wasn't pretty.
"You said Tori's name! You said her name! Why are you moaning her name?!" Beck started to shout. If only he could sit up and this wouldn't be as equal embarrassing.
"Beck-"
"Don't you Beck me! You fucking tell me why! Have you been sleeping with her?" He screamed asked, coming closer which meant he thrusted deeper into me. And it was painful.
"Beck, I haven't been sleeping with Tori. Don't be ridicules, it was you who-"
"Don't you fucking dare to say it was I who said her name! It was you! I knew that fucking dyke would come and fuck you! I'm going to fucking kill her!" And he was out of me. He got up and got dressed. Now apparently he could put on pants.
"Beck, listen to me. You will not go and kill her. It was my choice to have sex with her, if you're going to kill someone it's going to be me," I said standing right in front of him.
He only clenched his fist, took it up and then down. He had an inner battle to fight either I would get a black eye or he would tell me to get out.
He poke a finger into my chest and spit out: "fucking dyke, I knew there were something wrong with you!"
And he took a swing, but I stood put. He missed me with inches.
"God Beck, you fight like a girl. Now calm down. I came here today to say I want to break up with you... I'll always love you-"
"You don't get to fucking say that! You don't love! You wouldn't have had sex with Tori Vega if you loved me! You wouldn't do something like that to me!" Beck burst out, he was a sobbing mess.
"Beck," I tried and walked to him but he pushed me away.
"Leave," he said in despise. "I don't want a fucking whore to dyke in my presence."
"It's okay... I will still love you Beck. I will always love you," I said softly. I gather my things, put on the necessary clothes and went out.
I walked home that night. Mostly because I had forgotten my car keys in Beck's RV and my phone. Unfortunately I had to walk through a bad neighbourhood. But I couldn't care less, I barley had anything on me, even less money. But sometimes people aren't out after your money. Sometimes they want you, even thought you don't want them. Did I get raped? Nah, not quite. But something did happen.
I was walking through the less nicer part of L.A. But not the bad ones. They weren't just that pretty and that lit up. While I was walking I heard someone call behind me. Not thinking they called for me, because I didn't knew anyone here I kept on walking. Thinking on Beck's hurt face. Hopefully the boy wouldn't do something stupid.
"Hey I'm talking to you," a man said, offended while he grabbed my arm. I looked at him, annoyed.
"Why?" I asked, I didn't have the time for this.
"Why?! Well a pretty girl as you shouldn't walk home alone, now should she?" He asked me.
"Well I aren't that pretty so I guess I'm walking home alone," I said annoyed.
"A pretty girl with an attitude, boys aren't that great?" He asked and suddenly I was surrounded with men. And not the good kind of surrounded with men.
"Okay I don't have a lot of money on me so walk along and mug someone else," I said, not letting myself show any emotion. Thank god I'm such good actress, not to brag or anything like that.
"Love, we aren't after your money," one of the men said and took a grip around my throat. He lift me up so automatically my hands went up to his. I really tried to escape from his grip, I promise. The others started to unbutton my jeans and dragged down my pants and panties. I kicked, I struggled, I even spit at one of the men but it was all in vain. For a while it seemed like they were succeeding with their mission. One of the men took off his pants. He was so close to do what he was going to do but then a police siren was heard. They dropped everything, including me. I only sat up to be kicked down again, and then shot.
You know the strange feeling you get when you're dying or maybe you don't. Anyway it's like you don't feel pain, you actually don't feel anything at all. You just lie there, seeing people run around you, screaming at you. Like it was your fault you were dying. They talked to me, first a police man then an ambulance guy. But then I felt something dragging me away from my body and I float away, looking down I could see the place were I was lying, where I had been shot. I looked down and remembered how I got here in the first place. Because you see I have a problem. It is a little like that when you haven't study enough for a test and then you get a C but you could have got an A only if you had started to study some weeks before the test. So you promise yourself while you wipe away the tears that you will start to study for the next test three weeks before, not the night before but still the night before the test you find yourself study your ass off because you didn't begin earlier. And the problem is that I'm sleeping with someone who isn't my boyfriend. And the reason why I'm now looking down at myself, dying. Oh god, I'm in trouble now.
