Why my heart beats so fast. I coudn't help it, i'm in love with her. I don't remember when i fell for her but now it was too late. I just want to be with her every minute of my life. Feel his breathing against my neck. His boby against mine, feel every touch, look her sleep, hug her. Everything is good when i'm with her. Perhaps i'm selfish because i want all for me. I want she looks only me, feel only me, i want to be the one in his heart. The only one who can beat his heart faster. I'm like a kid when i'm with her.
When i look at her i see his sadness. I just want her to be happy. Even if is without me. She's right we are sisters and also two girls. So if she don't want to be with me perhaps is better for us.
But what my heart is broken when i think of that. Why i can feel the same thing for a another people. She said me why i do that but it's so obvious, i will do everything for her. Yes love is so good and soo hard in same time.
When she had kiss me my heart was stopping, just a look and i can't breath. I remember the first time i saw her. She was like a cold girl who only followed the rules. She took my phone but i remember only her perfum and how she is beautiful
The first kiss was so hard, i'm i never felt this before, of course she was played with me but it's doesn't matter now. The more time pass and more i love her. We kiss each other several time, everytime was different.
The last kiss was so passionate and i think perhaps she feels the same way but she said me to stop all that.
And now we have Matsuri, yes she kiss me, but it's not the same. I mean of course is good but my heart don't beat faster. I like her but like a sister.
Perhaps i need to give up. But i can't stop to thinking at her every secondes, every minutes, every days. I can't be me when i'm not with her. I just want to watch her slepping, be angry against me, smile me. Whatever the time my feelings can't disapear like that. Because when i'm with her i feel my heart beats so fast, it's hard to breath, my hands get sweaty and can only think at her. I'm sure that people think i need to give up but what is love. It's a fight. A fight day after day, and i'm ready now to do everything to win his heart. So be ready Mei because i'm sure one day you will fall in love to me
