I remember when you promised you wouldn't hurt me like they hurt me. You said you could never do that to me. It was impossible.

Well, my friend, it appears you have done the impossible.

I remember when you said you wanted to go back to America for college. There was a week before graduation. I couldn't imagine life without you. I said I would go with you, we would be together. That was when you broke my heart. Six little words that crushed me.

I don't want you to come.

I didn't understand. You had said you loved me. That we would be together forever. We talked about what our house would look like; where our kids would grow up. We planned what our wedding would be like; one wedding here, another in America. You gave me the promise ring. You said one day there would be a wedding ring replacing it.

You lied.

I looked down and saw the cars rushing through the streets, tiny like ants. The people were just small dots moving along. I swung my feet in the air as they dangled over the edge. I was so high up, the clouds were closer to me than the ground.

I was ready to jump. I would just slide off the edge and fall. It would be over.

No more pain; no more memories. It would all be over.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.

1...

2...

3...

And that's when I did it.

That's the moment I stood up and backed away. I could have jumped. Just slid off the edge and never looked back.

But that would've been weak. He would've won.

One day I'll show him. The next time I see him, I'll show him.

I'll show him that I've won. One day he'll be kicking himself for not wanting me to come.

But today, I'm backing away. I'm turning around and walking away from that edge.

Today, I'm saving myself.


And this is why I don't write when I'm sick. I'm sorry, I'm just in a writing mood. I have the flu && this might be kinda bad and confusing. Sorry 'bout that... I'm just gonna sleep now. Review and tell me if it even made sense.