Story Of A Girl - Mai
AN: This was inspired by an AMV called 'This Ones for the Girls of Yu-Gi-Oh', which you should check out :) I don't much like the song, but it gave me this idea ^^
As far as I can remember, there are 13 named girls throughout Yugioh (not including GX or 5Ds) but I might have missed one or two. Once I'm done you can tell me if I've missed anyone out :D
I have almost all the chapters planned out already, it's just a matter of getting them written. But don't expect regular updates – I'm writing other stuff and, well….I'm lazy :P
The first chapter is dedicated to Mai. It's set just after season four, Enjoy :)
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I braked sharply and my motorbike skidded to a halt, the wheels almost failing in their attempt to grip the loose sand. I flipped down the stand with the toe of my boot and dismounted, my tall heels sinking into the sand and making it almost impossible for me to stay upright.
I stared out at the ocean, trying to empty my mind of the thoughts that I couldn't seem to escape. I succeeded to an extent, but as I thought to myself how endless, how eternal, how constant and reassuring the ocean seemed to me, two words kept popping back into my head. The two names of the two people I hadn't been able to stop thinking about since I had woken up: Joey and Valon.
I grimaced to myself, sitting down on the seat of my bike and holding my head in my hands. I let out a low groan in an attempt to release at least some of the feelings trapped inside of me. I didn't work.
"Why does this have to be so difficult!?" I asked no one in particular, lifting my head out of my hands and looking around me as if searching for an answer. I beat my palm against my forehead, but if anything that only scrambled my mind even more.
I closed my eyes firmly shut, trying to block out the memories rushing through my mind. In my mind's eye, I saw Valon kneeling on the ground, telling Joey it was up to him to save me…I saw Joey held in my arms, looking up at me through steadily closing eyes…
A tear escaped from under my eyelid. It slid down my cheek and dripped onto my clenched fist. I opened my eyes and tried to relax my hands, wincing at the small cuts my fingernails had cut into my palms.
"I promised I would get revenge for you, Joey…" I whispered, my voice shaking "But I failed. I didn't even get to duel Dartz, all I succeeded in doing was getting my own soul trapped inside that….that thing."
More memories flash past my eyes: Joey rushing to protect me from the Winged Dragon of Ra's attack; Joey promising to catch me if I let go of the pole I was clinging on to; Valon jumping from the balcony to stop my duel with Joey; waking up at the end of battle city to see Joey's face; Valon holding out his hand for me to take…
I shook my head violently, trying to dislodge the memories from my mind. More tears burst from my eyes and I held back a scream. I hadn't been able to face my friends after all that I'd done, so I'd left. I was running away and I knew it – running away from my past, and from what I'd done.
So why was my heart screaming for me to turn back? Who even was it my heart truly wanted? I entertained the idea of going back to see the both of them. I knew Valon would instantly welcome me back into his life, or whatever there was left of it. I was quite sure that Joey would be happy to see me too, but at the same time there would always be that nagging feeling of guilt inside of me whenever I was with him.
'Then again,' I thought miserably 'I seem to feel guilty whether I'm with Joey or not.'
The easiest thing to do would be to return to Valon. I knew I loved him, but whether as a friend or something more I hadn't quite figured out yet. It was the same with Joey, and until I figured out exactly what it was I felt, there was no way I could go back.
My heart ached at the thought of being unable to see the two people I cared most about, but I was determined to stay strong. My heart would just have to deal with it. I smiled slightly, because I knew I was trying to think of my heart as something separate from my own body. It was just my way of dealing with things.
My thoughts were interrupted by a loud ringing coming from my pocket. I fished out my mobile and started at the name of the caller.
"Valon" I read out loud, unsure of what to do. I figured no harm could come from answering, so I flipped my phone open and held it to my ear.
"Mai?" said a voice on the other end of the phone. I opened my mouth the answer but no sound came out. There was a lump in my throat and I just couldn't bring myself to talk to him.
"Mai? Mai are you there?" More tears ran down my cheeks as I moved the phone away from my ear and pressed the small red button that would end the call. I imagined Valon calling down the phone a few more times, then staring at it in confusion. The way I pictured it, his expression was a mixture of hurt and concern.
I felt another sharp tug on my heart at the image in my mind.
"Oh Valon" I cried softly, holding the phone close to me as if it were him. "I'm sorry, but I can't talk to you, Valon. Not just yet."
I tried to wipe the tears from my eyes but the more I tried, the more tears fell, landing softly in my lap. In the end I just let them fall, blurring my vision and making it impossible for me to see any more than my own trembling hands. I shook with each of my pained sobs, and I imagined a gentle hand on my shoulder. I imagined turning around and looking up into a smiling face, only the face kept changing. First I saw blond hair and warm brown eyes, then brown hair and shining blue eyes.
As much as I tried to force myself to choose between the two, neither face remained for more than a few seconds before it switched. The image then split into two, and two people held out a hand to me, inviting me to choose between them.
Somehow, those thoughts made me feel stronger. I think it was because I knew that that was what I had to do – I had to choose. One of them was the man I loved, and the other...well I wasn't quite sure about that just yet.
A question forced itself to the front of my mind. 'What if I loved them both?' I frowned at the idea of it, but I wouldn't think about that just yet. In time I knew I would figure out what I had to, but for now I was just going to live my life. I was sure that was the right thing to do.
My mind somewhat clearer, I flipped the stand on my motorbike back up and revved the engine. As I sped along the shoreline, a small smile worked its way onto my lips. Everything was going to be alright, I was sure of that now. And eventually, I would return to see my friends. Things would be different then…better. It would all be alright.
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AN: I hope that was alright :) It's quite short but I couldn't think of anything else to write xD I was trying to capture Mai's feelings of being torn between Valon and Joey, and her being unsure of herself, but at the same time I wanted her to seem independent. I hope I managed that ^^
Reviews make me happy, and when I'm happy I write more ;) Tell me which girl you want in the next chapter! ^_^
