A/N: This was written poorly because I was sickened by the image of Ren being mauled. I don't think he's dumb enough to not shove her away but I'm still such with fear over it.

"Can we go to Tsuruga-san's." Her own voice sounded weak to her ears.

"You want to see Ren?" Yashiro-san asked with concern, but he was unable to hide the smile that tugged at his lips.

"I want to feel safe." The words slipped out shamefully. She intended to take advantage of Ren's kindness to make herself feel better.

Worried eyes looked down at her. "I don't know if he's home. I've tried calling him, but he isn't answering."

"I'll wait in front of his door. He'll come home eventually." She clenched her teeth together thinking about herself waiting like a damned puppy for her master to come home. She cursed Kimiko for rendering her to such a weak state again.

"I have a spare key card. I could let you in." Before she could protest he added. "Ren won't mind since it's you Kyouko-chan." She nodded not wanting to argue with him. "He might be inside anyway, unable to hear his phone. Maybe he's asleep, but don't you worry about that. I assure you, Ren will not mind you waking him up."

"I understand, he'll want to scold me for letting my guard down." She thought that he might even want to hear about Kimiko, though she would have nothing good to tell him.

"No, that's not what I meant at all." Yashiro-san sighed.

He drove her to Ren's apartment and after knocking twice with no reply he unlocked the door for her to wait inside.

"Will you be alright waiting here by yourself?" Yashiro-san asked with warmth in his voice.

"I'll be fine." She beamed up at him already feeling ten times safer. The scent of Ren's apartment engulfed her in warmth. Soon she'd be able to see him, and everything would be alright again. She wondered if he'd even be so mad at Kimiko-san that he'd forget about his love for her. That way he wouldn't have to be heartbroken over her falling for someone else. "He'll be home soon, and he probably hasn't eaten a proper meal. Maybe I'll make something light for him to eat before bed while I wait."

"Sounds good. Goodnight Kyouko-chan." He waved goodbye to her and she bowed to him.

"Goodnight Yashiro-san, thank you." She waited until she heard the door click shut before she fully entered the apartment.

The stillness caused her to shiver. She wasn't as alright as she wanted Yashiro-san to believe. She walked passed the kitchen wanting to change out of her clothes first. The outfit she wore felt soiled and unlucky somehow. She was certain she had forgotten a change of clothes in the guest room once. On her way to the guest room, however, she noticed that his bedroom door was ajar. It wasn't like him to leave doors open. She walked over to it with every intention of shutting it, but the scent of him grew stronger the closer she got. It washed over her soothing her frayed nerves. She took a tentative step into the room.

"Tsuruga-san?" Part of her hoped to find him sleeping in his bed. What would she do if she found him there though? She wondered if he would be completely against her crawling in next to him? She could blame it on Setsu taking over. He'd be nice to her then and wouldn't scold her too much for climbing into an older man's bed. "Tsuruga-san?"

She tiptoed over to the bed and took a careful seat on the edge. There was no shift of weight to notify her that she had disturbed anyone's slumber. She wasn't sure if that was because she had been so careful or if he really wasn't there.

"R…Ren?" She tried his name out on her tongue wondering if he'd scold her for speaking so informally. Her hands glided over the fabric covering the bed in search of the body that had somehow become so familiar to her. She had him memorized by heart. Almost every inch of his skin scanned into her brain. She told herself it was all for doll data but if she wasn't sure how true that was.

Her fingers made it to the center of the bed but came up with only air and blankets. She reached for the lamp and turned it on. Her heart fell at the sight of an empty bed. She was disappointed that she couldn't snuggle into bed with a man whose heart belonged to another. She shook her head at her own nonsense and stood up. She took a couple steps towards the door to the hallway but stopped when his closet door caught her eye. She bit her lip wondering if he would mind her digging in his clothes.

Ren won't mind since it's you Kyouko-chan. Yashiro-san was always saying that to her. She wondered if it was because he was hinting that Ren thought of her as a kid, like a little sister. Cain wouldn't mind if Setsu wore his clothes. Especially if she needed something comfy to sleep in. He was a gentleman, so he wouldn't scold her for wanting to wear something comfortable to bed. Deciding that it would be alright to wear something old of his she walked over to his closet and pulled it open.

"He doesn't wear this one a lot." She selected a plain cotton t-shirt and quickly change out of her blouse into it. It was long enough to be a dress on her. She smiled feeling comforted by the softness of the fabric. Her pants were too confining to sleep in, but she didn't think it would be proper to sleep in just underwear and a shirt. She found a pair of shorts with a drawstring and removed her pants to put them on.

"I don't think that's a good idea. I'll call you a cab." Her heart fluttered hearing Ren enter his apartment.

Forgetting about the shorts she ran out of his bedroom. She wasn't even worried about being scolded or embarrassed by her lack of clothes. All she wanted was to feel safe in his warm arms. If he asked later, she'd tell him Setsu had taken over. Her legs carried her to him and she flung herself into his chest.

He stumbled back a bit, but his arms reached out to steady her against his chest. "Mogami-san?"

"Welcome home." She said in her best Setsu voice, but she couldn't bring herself to call him nii-San.

"Who's this?" A sultry voice asked drawing her attention behind Ren. A beautiful tall woman eyed Kyouko with confusion. Her eyes traveled down Kyouko's body taking in the sight of her wearing nothing but his shirt. "Ren-san, who is she?"

Setsu growled inside her and her arms clung tighter to him. At least she intended to blame it all on Setsu. Ren wrapped an arm firmly around her waist before turning to the woman.

"You said you just needed to use the restroom. Please do so while I call a cab for you." He said holding up his phone.

With her eyes glued to the arm around Kyouko, she spit out. "Never mind. I'm a big girl, I can get my own cab. Maybe Kijima-san is still down there, and I can ride with him." She was hoping he would get jealous and ask her to stay but Ren just nodded and turned his attention back to kyouko.

"He and I both told you to stay with him in the first place." He squeezes her closer to him. "It's exactly like I told you back at the bar."

With a flushing face, she turned on her heel and stormed out of the apartment. The sight of such a pretty and mature woman in his apartment rendered her speechless. Her thoughts were abuzz with questions she wasn't sure she wanted the answers to. Why would he bring someone like her to his apartment? What would they have done if I wasn't here? Her arms dropped from around his waist, but he didn't let go of her. Instead, his arm tightened, and he leaned down to press his nose into her hair.

"Mogami-San?" His fingers tipped her chin up and his eyes trailed down her body clad in his shirt. He moved closer, his face hovering over hers. "Am I dreaming?" His hand dropped to the hem of the shirt she was wearing. He felt intoxicated and he was sure it had more to do with her presence than his alcohol consumption.

Tears pricked at her eyes. "Who was she?"

He pointed behind himself. "Her? She's just a co-worker who invited herself to hang out with Kijima-san and me. Then she invited herself to take a taxi with us and invited herself in to use the bathroom when we reached my stop."

"Right, as if you didn't know what she wanted." Kyouko gasped covering her mouth to keep in all the other words she wanted to throw at him. She hated herself for feeling hurt. It wasn't as if she hadn't suspected him of secretly being a playboy but somehow seeing the proof of it was more than she could bear.

"Don't cry. I swear to you she means nothing to me."

Angry she shoved at his chest. "Since when does someone have to mean something to a playboy? Playboys use women for pleasure then discard them when they are no longer convenient." His heart belonged Kimiko-san, Kyouko thought it made sense for him to be a playboy. With that kind of unrequited love, it must have been necessary to fill the void being rejected left in him.

"It hurts that you would think of me that way. I wouldn't do something with just any random woman. I have to at least care about someone before I willingly invite them into my home." He was wounded by her words. It pained him, even more, to see the tears slip down her face.

"Whatever it's none of my business anyway." She concluded out loud more for her own ears than his. It pissed her off that he had brought that woman to his apartment. She had come to assume that she had been the only one allowed to stay over.

"Mogami-san, I'm telling the truth. She invited herself in. I was going to call her a cab. Please don't cry." Feather light kisses landed on her cheeks.

"Right you were going to call a cab so later if I found out you could say that you tried to be good. Honest, Mogami-san I fully intended to send her home. She came onto me. She invited herself in. It was all her. Of course, I ended up doing what she asked me to. She insisted so much that it was easier to give in, so she would leave. It isn't my fault women find me so irresistible. What am I supposed to do Mogami-san, not everyone can be a boring prude like you?"

She couldn't stop the tears from flowing. He kissed them away as quickly as he could using his thumbs to wipe away what he couldn't kiss.

"I promise you, I wasn't going to do anything with her." He whispered against her cheek.

She turned her face smelling the alcohol on his breath. "Tsuruga-san this is highly inappropriate."

"Sorry," he pulled away slightly realizing that he was getting carried away.

"You reek of alcohol." She tried to escape his grasp. "Let me go."

"Not until you believe that I would never have done anything with her. I've told you before, haven't I? I don't do things with women I don't care about."

"It isn't any of my business." She felt foolish for feeling cheated on. He wasn't hers. That simple fact caused a stabbing pain in her heart and she quit struggling. "Did you have to bring her here?"

"Why won't you listen to me? I didn't bring her here. I wouldn't do that." He tried to touch her face, but she pushed his hand away. "Please don't shut me out Mogami-San, I really wasn't going to do anything with her. If you believe nothing else, please believe that I am not that stupid. I wouldn't risk losing everything for one night of meaningless sex."

"Why would you lose anything? You're a single adult male, and she is presumably a single adult female. No one would fault either of you for…" she couldn't say it. She didn't even want to think it. "Besides I know you've been frustrated lately. It might be good for you to…to do that. I'm sorry I was upset with you about it, Setsu has kind of been taking over me tonight." She spoke the lie self-consciously looking down at what she was wearing.

"It wouldn't do me any good to do anything with someone I didn't care about. I would only end up feeling guilty and more miserable than before." He bent down to see her face. "I hope you know me better than to think I could be with someone I held no affection for." The tips of his fingers grazed over her brow and down the side of her face. He looked pained and desperate for her to believe him.

With a sigh, she relaxed in his arms. "I'm sorry. I know you wouldn't do that."

"No need to apologize. Thank you for believing me though." He smiled down at her wanting nothing more than to kiss her. "Why are you here Mogami-san?" What he really wanted to know was why she was in his shirt. Not that he minded her borrowing his clothes it just confused him. Was this her way of showing interest in him?

"Oh! Umm…" The blush that tinted her cheek made his heart flutter with hope. Did she like him? Then fear flashed across her face turning his hope into concern. She shivered unconsciously leaning closer to him. "Something happened…ki…" she couldn't bring herself to say the name. Not in front of him. She didn't want to know what kind of face he would make when thinking about that person. "I really needed to feel safe."

"What happened?" His arms squeezed around her protectively. She shook her head hoping he wouldn't force her to tell him. "Alright, you don't have to tell me tonight. In any case, you're safe now. I won't let anything happen to you. You should go to bed. The guest room is always open for you to use." The longer she stayed in his arms the more he wanted to keep her there, and that was dangerous. He wasn't sure if it was the liquor in his system or if it was her mere presence that was clouding his mind. Either way, it was becoming dangerous for her to remain in the same room as him.

Kyouko worried her lip glancing in the direction of the guest room. She really didn't want to be alone. She felt like she hadn't seen him in forever and she all wanted was to stay with him a little bit longer. The strong arms wrapped around her made her feel safe and she wasn't ready to give that up to go to bed. Part of her was scandalized by the idea of staying in his arms all night. Another part scolded her for being rude and thinking of keeping him up just to make herself feel better. He won't mind if it's you. Yashiro's words echoed in her brain.

"Are you going to bed?" She asked gripping his arms before they could completely release her.

"Yes, I've had too much to drink tonight. I need to get some sleep." It was difficult for him to keep his eyes off her lips. She was so close. He caressed her cheek and wondered if it would be alright to lean down and press his lips there instead of his hand.

She leaned into his hand taking in the scent of alcohol coming off him. It made her brain feel fuzzy and for a moment she thought of offering herself to help him ease his frustrations. She could feel his face growing closer and licked her lips in anticipation. Strands of his hair tickled her forehead and she gazed into his eyes with all her trust.

"Go to bed Mogami-san." His arms fell from around her and he backed away. Ren was ashamed of Kuon. She was there because she felt scared and vulnerable and he was going to take advantage of her trust in him. "I've been drinking." He sighed loudly. "You should go to bed before I do something stupid." He took himself over to the couch where he plopped down heavily.

"Tsuruga-san?" She walked around the couch to stand in front of him. He seemed so tense and sad. Part of her regretted interrupting his affair with that woman. He was a grown man after all and single, what right did she have to demand his celibacy? "Can I ask you something?" She twisted her fingers together nervously.

"Yes, I suppose so." He answered making an effort to smile at her.

"If it's too personal you don't have to answer." She assured him resting the tips of her fingers on the back of his hand. Her gentle touch caused him to look at her curiously. "Is there perhaps someone you do want to bring back to your apartment and do that with?"

His eyes lifted to meet hers and he said yes dully. He turned his hand overtaking her fingers in it

"But you can't?" Her head cocked to the side curiously.

He lifted her hand to his lips. "No, I can't. She doesn't want me." It seemed impossible to her that anyone could refuse him. His lips skimmed over her knuckles and she wondered how anyone could survive the emperor's enthralling gaze. "Go to bed Mogami-san. I am running low on self-control at the moment."

"I'm not tired." She said taking a step forward to stand between his legs.

Eyes fixed on hers he slowly kissed the tips of the fingers on the hand he had captured. She sucked in a deep shuddering breath. The way he pressed her palm to his lips was somehow the most erotic experience she'd ever had. She found herself wishing he would do more. He complied with the silent demand by kissing up the length of each finger. His eyes never broke contact with hers and she feared he had placed her under some sort of spell.

"You've never experienced lust before, have you Mogami-san?" She shook her head unable to speak. Even if she could form complete words she wasn't sure she would be unable to deny her lust for him that had been growing steadily for months. Though she knew her idea of lust was considerably more innocent than his. "You don't know what it is to want to feel someone's mouth on you. To want to taste their skin and hear their pleasured moans." She moved closer placing her one knee on the couch near his thigh. "I've tried so hard to be good." He brushed her thumb over his lips opening his mouth slightly curious what she would do. "I've done my best to keep my hands to myself. Please go to bed. Don't torture me like this. Your presence is too intoxicating to resist."

He closed his eyes wishing her away. With his luck he would open them to find an empty space where she stood. She wasn't really there with him. There was no way she would have come over so late and greeted him in nothing but his shirt. He opened his eyes a slit to look at the shirt and wonder if she wore anything beneath it. To his surprise she was still standing there with her thumb on his lips. She tilted his chin up forcing him to look at her face as her thumb brushed over his lips. His heart was racing as he opened his mouth to lick the tip of her thumb. A small gasp escaped her mouth and her thumb slipped deeper into his mouth. She blushed scarlet and moved to pull her hand away, but her thumb was caught between his teeth.

"Ah!" Her tiny gasp brought a wicked grin to his face. He held her eyes again and bit down a little harder. "Mm!"

Kyouko placed her other knee on the couch and pressed her index finger to his bottom lip. Ren took the hint and released her thumb to take her finger into his mouth. He sucked on the finger placing light pressure on it with his teeth as she pulled it out and replaced it with the next. He groaned and swirled his tongue around her middle finger. There was a time when she had raised that finger to him in a moment of rage. The memory made him chuckle and he used his teeth to keep her from removing the finger.

"Ah… ow!" Though she expressed pain at his actions, she moved closer to him pushing her finger deeper into his mouth.

Her eyes fluttered closed and all she could feel was his hot tongue wrapping around her digit. She wondered what that tongue would feel like in her mouth. His hands settled on her hips as he finally released her finger. Kyouko dropped her head to his shoulder and moved her ring finger to his mouth. He kissed it paying special attention to the base where a ring would sit. His tongue dragged up the length of it before he kissed the tip then bit her pinky playfully. She kissed his cheek not daring to move her lips to his mouth.

"I really need you to go to bed. Otherwise, I might do something very bad." She shivered hearing unknown promises in his words.

"Tsuruga-san?" She placed a kiss on his chin the need to feel his lips on hers growing. "I know you wouldn't do anything with someone you didn't care about."

"Thank you for that. It really means a lot to me that you know me so well." She kissed his nose. "I think that it is passed both of our bedtimes though."

"Tsuruga-san?" Her small hands shoved his shoulders down as he tried to stand and placed a kiss on the corner of his mouth. She wasn't certain what she was doing but she knew that she didn't want to stop kissing him. "I'm someone you care about, right?"

Ren swallowed hard. "You know you are. You're my…my very dearest friend." The words stung his heart though they held some truth. She was the one person he trusted most. "Come now, we both need to get some sleep."

"I don't want to go to sleep. I came here to see you; to feel safe." Her warm breath ghosted over his lips making him shiver. His hands flexed bringing her hips loser to him.

"Mogami-san," their noses touched. "How can I make you feel safe." He wished he wasn't too much of a coward to kiss her. "Tell me what you want. I swear to obey any command and fulfill all your requests no matter how absurd you may think they are."

Their breaths mingled in the minuscule space between them. Kyouko stared into his eyes wishing that the pure adoration held within them was meant for her. She thought he must have been drunk or imagining Kimiko or that older woman. There was no way he would look at her like that, but she was desperate to believe that he was. She wanted to pretend that he belonged to her if only for one night.

"Kiss me." The words slipped out before she consciously made the decision to speak. She had no time to rethink her order as he immediately obeyed. His lips pressed firmly against hers and her entire body tensed. He pulled away wondering if he'd misheard her. Her tongue flicked out to lick her lips and she tasted his.

Emboldened by his obedience Kyouko leaned in and kissed him. It was quick and fleeting, but it broadened the smile on his face. In return for her kiss, he captured her bottom lip between his sucking on it for the briefest moment before releasing it. Shyly Kyouko did the same to him.

"Kyouko." Ren moaned kissing her again.

Their lips melded together over and over, lingering longer every time. Her hands sunk into his hair while his fingers strained to keep her hips far enough away so she wouldn't feel how much he was enjoying himself. Ren gently licked the seam of her lips until they opened. A guttural groan passed between them as their tongues met for the first time. Kyouko felt like she was on fire and she couldn't get enough of it. Her skin flushed with a need to be touched by him and with every stroke of his tongue against hers she received an electric jolt in in her lower abdomen. He failed to keep his hands from dragging her closer until his hardened length pressed against her damp panties.

She moaned and threw her head back. Her hips bucked into him and he gripped her thighs to still her erotic motions.

"Tsuruga-san?" Had she done something wrong? It felt so good to her, but she worried that maybe he wasn't enjoying it. She didn't have time to continue to worry as his hands pushed her thighs farther apart and his hips began to move in slow even circles until her moist folds were wrapped around his cloth covered penis.

"Kyouko, look at me." She did as commanded, pouting because his hips stilled. "Do you want to stop?" His voice was strained with the effort it took to hold himself back.

"No." Kyouko couldn't help herself, she moved her hips mimicking his slow circles. Ren bit back a groan but his hands took hold of her hips to press her more firmly against him.

She moaned at the feeling of her hardened nipples rubbing against his chest through the layers of fabric. She had never known she could feel this good. They still had their clothes on and he already had her panting and begging for more.

"Kyouko." He trailed his mouth along her jaw down to her neck. Kyouko's moaned as his lips continued down to the mound of flesh peaking out of the oversized shirt she wore. It took very little nudging for him to push the shirt down far enough for one creamy breast to be exposed.

"Lovely." He murmured against her skin as his lips traveled to the hardened nipple begging for his attention. Kyouko gasped at the sensation of his warm wet tongue lapping at her nipple. One of his hands skimmed up her stomach to cup her other breast and pinch the still covered nipple.

"Ah!" His teeth grazed the hard pebble and he smiled at her reaction. It pleased him to no end to feel her trembling with pleasure as she rocked on top of him. "Tsuruga-san!" she moaned, hands sinking into his hair to hold him against her breast.

He sucked her nipple into his mouth swirling his tongue around it and biting down just hard enough for her to feel it. Kyouko rocked her hips against him faster feeling something building inside herself.

"Ren?" She whimpered his name half afraid of the delirious floating feeling that was taking over her body.

He kissed his way up to her ear and whispered, "I'm here, you're safe." His hot breath added fuel to the fire growing inside of her as her hips bucked rapidly against him. His hands slid down her back to grip her waist and he brought his hips up to meet hers driving himself against her.

Kyouko felt weightless. Her nails dug into his flesh as the shockwaves of pleasure coiled inside of her.

"Let go Kyouko." She heard the emperor command and her body obeyed.

A white-hot explosion tore a scream from her throat. Her entire being tensed up and for the briefest moment, she felt as though she had left her body only to be slammed back into it. Ren watched her experience her first orgasm and nearly came himself.

"That was the most beautiful things I've ever seen." He said kissing the tip of her nose.

Panting for air she rested her head on his chest. "Ren?" He hummed in acknowledgement gently petting her hair. "I would like to go to bed now." It was like the air was knocked out of him. Had he gone too far? She had only told him to kiss her once and he kept going out of his need for her. Panic began to override his lust as he thought of all the things she could accuse him of before she declared him an enemy for life, or worse she cut him out completely.

"Ok." He nodded trying to act as though he really was okay with it. He had had one chance to touch her and he would have to cherish the memory for the rest of his life. What if she never let him near her again? Would she still feel safe with him after what he'd done? "I'm…" he was about to apologize, hoping that would make her hate him less.

Kyouko kissed his lips to silence him before she shyly added, "I want to go to your bed."

A/N: there are probably a lot of issues and mistakes in this. Writing orgasms is hard you know, everyone experiences them differently and I don't want to describe it the same way every time. I dunno I think I'm better at the angst so any feedback on the smut is appreciated. There might be a part two but I have finals next week so don't expect it anytime soon. Also I just installed grammarly and took all is advice except for with the names it was fine with Ren and Kyouko but it hates Kijima fit some reason. Let me know how that worked out though because I don't trust it very much.