A/n: this is my first buffy fic its going to be spike/buffy in the beginning and spike/Carmen and Carmen is my own made up character please review enjoy -Babyblue
Chapter 1: prologue
" So this is it buffy its over"
she looked at him with tears in her eyes as they stood in the alley behind her apartment talking or rather arguing .
"spike I'm sorry but my heart belongs to angel and It always will "
spike sighed he thought he had found the one In buffy things were goinggreat for them until angel came back and buffy was leaving him to go after angel .
" can I.can I kiss you one last time "
he said as he looked into the eyes of the one he never thought he would love
"spike I.. I don't think you should... "
But before she could finish spike grabbed her and kissed her with such force and passion that she lost herself .
"Oh spike "
she said she couldn't resist his lips on hers she returned his kiss and they stood embraced in each others arms
"buffy"
spike said in between kisses
"I want to make love to you one last time"
buffy was so caught up in the moment she didn't protest but continued to passionatly kiss spike as they headed up to her apartment. They went into her apartment and spike gently pushed her against the wall as he continued to torture her with kisses
"spike no"
she suddenly cried out as she pushed him away from her
" spike I think you should leave"
spike sighed
"can't I change your mind love"
tears continued to come down her face
"spike please just leave it will only hurt more "
spike reluctantly headed towards the door .
"goodbye love"
he said as he vanished in the darkness.
I watched as the two lovers embraced I was saddened at the sightyou see I have everything I ever wanted a great high paying job great friends a nice place but there is one thing missing in my life.
Love, watching that couple kiss made my yearning for love increase I couldn't remember the last time I was in a relationship that had a chance of going somewhere I wanted to find a guy who would love me and that I could start a family with.
I continued to watch the couple as the entered the building and I continued walking down the dark alley lost in my thoughts of someday finding love.
A/n: I want to get some reviews before I post the first chapter so please review if you want me to continue and I update really fast -Babyblue
