Always with a smile on my face. It didn't matter if I was crying on the inside or if I was really happy. I always had a smile and everything was always fine.

I would never doubt love.

I would never doubt him.

I would never let anything get in the way of our happiness.

I would never leave him.

Things were better and we had our happy ending. He saw me and he thought of my feelings before he made a comment that cut me down and hurt me. He loved me and I loved him and life was so much more.

It was all bullshit.

It was a lie.

He had my love, but not only did he have my love he had my everything. He was life. It made it hurt all the more that I wasn't his life. I was forgotten. Always loved, but forgotten and taken advantage of.

I…

It was raining outside.

The house was dark.

The kids were asleep.

The strap of my gown fell down my shoulder and I pushed it back up. I looked at my phone but he had forgotten. I knew that. I hadn't missed a call.

It wasn't because he was being cruel. He had just forgotten. This was his dream which meant that I fell to a close second in his life.

It was twelve in the morning and the rain had stopped. I hadn't gone anywhere.

When it rained I could always remember the night when all my dreams had come true and my life had been perfect. It was the night that he had given me everything.

As fast as he had given me everything… He was slowly taking my everything away. One disappointment at a time. After years of disappointment the rain had lost some of its magic. I was given everything and slowly it was being chipped away bit by bit. I had no one to hid my tears from and so I let them fall onto the sheets of our bed. He wouldn't see them and I needed to shed them so I wouldn't let him see.

I cried and then I pulled the sheets back, but I didn't crawl under them because crawling under them meant that the night was over and my hopes were shattered again. And for as little hope as I did have I couldn't give up just yet.

I lost track of the time but I eventually heard the door open. It was too late.

I closed myself again the last heartbreak because there was no heart left and I went to sleep.

END.