Important: This doesn't mean I'll abandon my story "Hamptons to Forget" the next chapter is half written yet, and I think it gonna be a long one, so no worries there ;)

Disclaimer: I don't own Gossip Girl, or the characters, I only claim Audrey :D

Summary: Takes place after 1x13. Blair left for France and died in childbirth, 15 years later her daughter gets a letter and finally gets the hunch, which will make it possible to find her father.

Thank you: Kay (TheLiesWeTellForLove) for her beta-ing and the amazing story title :)

Prolog:

"Stay! Don't let some stupid scandal make you run away like it did me, like it does everyone in our world. Stay and fight- I'll fight with you", Serena van der Woodsen promised her best friend , her hand were shaking, she didn't know if it was because of the coldness or because she was afraid, that her best friend could abandon her.

"I can't. Everything is horrible, my whole life is falling apart", Blair responded, though she tried hard to fought the tears, that were burning in her eyes, he failed.

"Then rebuild it, it can be done. I should know", Serena gripped Blair's arm, as she would kidnap her, just to make her stay.

"Yes, Serena, but you are strong and beautiful, everyone forgave you the minute you came back, even me… but I'm not in the condition to stand up and fight for myself, not again. I'm tired S, so please don't be me to stay because I can't and I won't."

She felt the tears streaming down her face, nobody but Serena had ever seen her like this and he would do anything, so I could stay that way.

"B, I'm here for you. You do not have to leave, you're a Waldorf, remember? People don't tell you who you are, you tell them. Stay and fight, we will get through this together…"

"No Serena, I CAN'T for heavens sake!" Blair tried to turn away but Serena gripped her shoulders and made her look up. She searched in her eyes for the answers Blair didn't want to say out loud, that were sealed behind her lips.

"Blair, what is wrong? This is not about the dethroning, this is not about Jenny, not about those hypocrites, I can tell. So what is this about?"

Serena was sure, that this wasn't about Blair's downfall, that there was something else, Blair wasn't the type of girl, who run away she was a fighting spirit, it was hard to take her down and once she was down, she stood up again; she was just like a tumbler.

So there had to be something that was worse than all the things Blair got through.

"Talk to me, B."

"I can't."

"Of course you can."

"No, no S, this is the one thing, I can't tell you. I can't tell anyone."

"But I'm not anyone, I'm me." Serena did not let go of Blair' hand. "You can tell me anything."

"No, I can't."

"Blair we're sisters, you are my family. No matter what you'll tell me it won't make me let go. I love you."

It was the last sentence that made Blair cry even harder, she felt to the ground, sobbed and screamed… and somewhere in between those screams Serena heard a slightly "Chuck", which was nearly drowning in all of Blair's sobs. Serena sat down next to Blair and hugged her, while stroking her hair.

"Blair, it's okay… shhh."

She tried to comfort her, but she didn't know what to do, what to say, so she just held her and let her cry.

It took very long, until Blair was able to speak again. Serena continued to stroke her hair and back and mumbled consoling words in her ear.

"So this is about Chuck?" she asked.

"Yes", Blair sobbed.

"Oh B, you love him."

It wasn't a question- it was a statement.

"I don't understand how I got to this place", Blair whispered and whispered again, as those words were her own, personally mantra.

"What did he do?" Serena interrupted her.

But Blair didn't say anything, instead she kept repeating her mantra in her head, Serena could almost hear the words because they were thought with a lot of power.

"Blair?!"

"…"

"Blair talk to me!" Serena demanded.

"He said he didn't want me anymore, compared to own of his father's sweaty old horses… made me leave" she wasn't able to make a full sentence.

"Oh B", Serena pulled her in her embrace and hold her tightly, as if she wanted to never let her go.

And maybe that was the case.

"Serena, I can't stay."

"B we can get trough…" Serena tried to interrupt, but was cut off by Blair herself.

"Let me finish! I can't stay… because of Chuck, I can't stay because of my Mom, I can't stay because of the girls… and I can't stay because… I'm pregnant."

Serena didn't say anything, she just hold Blair and let her cry. And she sat there as she was frozen, maybe she was. This couldn't be true, this couldn't be happening. Blair took the pregnancy test and it was negative, she told her that herself. But right now she was lying in her arms and confessed a pregnancy she had denied a couple of days before. Did she really lie to her? About something that important? She knew she answer… but she couldn't bring herself to be mad at Blair, she could understand, she knew how scared she must have been.

She knew that because right now she was just as scared as Blair was, scared as hell…

"We're going to get through this together", she repeated, lifted Blair up and dragged her into the helicopter. After she seated Blair as comfortable as she could she entered and strapped the both of them.

"We're going to get through this together" she said once again and gripped Blair's hand.

The helicopter took of, it was heading to France.

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