Disclaimer: I don't own the Vampire Diaries.

AN: Hey guys! This is my first VD-fanfiction. And since I'm a huge Delena fan, this story refers to one of my favorite scenes.

"Stefan, I'd like to ask you something." I said nervously.

"Of course, honey, anything." I prepared myself for what I was about to say. It wasn't nothing.

"Would you make me a vampire? I've been thinking about it a lot. And with a lot, I mean for the last few months. Since Klaus is dead, there's no need of me being human at all. And I want to be with you forever. I love you, Stefan." I was controlling my voice from trembling. I've prepared this speech a long time ago, but I've been saying it in my head every day.

"You have to think about this, it's not for a while. Once you become a vampire, you can't go back. Or you'll die." Just the answer I expected. I have thought about this so many times.

"I have thought about it. I want to be like you."

"Ok. I understand that there's no way I could talk you out of this? I know you love me and you know I love you, but I don't want you to regret it."

"Let's do it tonight! I can't wait, I know it's weird, but... I just want to be with you."

Me and Stefan had a great evening together. We went to the Grill for dinner, afterward we came home to watch some TV. I haven't been paying much attention to the news, mostly I've been thinking about what it would be as a vampire. Would I really be able to switch off my feelings, just as Stefan and Damon have told me? Would I be really that dangerous to everyone around me? I promised myself I won't. I will not allow myself to be a monster.

Stefan turned off the TV and started to kiss my earlobe and my neck. I smiled to myself and kissed him too. Obviously I closed my eyes, but I shocked when Damon's face showed in my head. I shook my head and felt Stefan squeeze my hands disapprovingly. I looked at him, smiled and kissed him to calm him down. But in my head was everything different. Damon's face kept showing up and so I decided to get up from the couch and went to my room followed by Stefan.

"You're not ready."

"Yes, I am ready, really. I just... I don't know what happened. Nothing, probably."

"Ok. Lay down."

Stefan's fangs showed and he bit his hand. I saw the blood come and I licked it. It tasted pretty nice so I took more. After a while he took his hand away and I looked at him. And that was the last thing I saw as a human.

Stefan looked at me, kissed me and then everything went black.

I was lying on my bed, I felt that. I remember everything from before everything darkened. I knew I was in my room. I opened my eyes and before I could do anything a pair of strong hands put me in his embrace. It felt wrong, so I sped up to the other side of the room. Stefan was staring at me with question marks instead of eye pupils.

I quickly came over to him and kissed him, but the strange feeling didn't go away. I decided to ignore it. After a proper welcome to the vampire-world we've decided to go to Bonnie's place, so she could make me a ring so I could walk in the sunlight. She was looking at me with her observing look like if she was making sure it was still me, Elena Gilbert.

After she made me a ring, I went to Caroline. We talked all evening about being a vampire. She told me how lucky I was to have Stefan to help me "adjust". But there was a part of me that doubted that. I was very sad and unsure about myself. Do I love Stefan? Does Stefan love me? I was confused, I never doubted Stefan's or my own feelings. Is this also some kind of vampire-thing?

After we came from Caroline, I decided to go to the Boarding house. Stefan said he wanted to go and hunt, but I didn't want to. When I knocked on the door no one opened it for me, so I opened it myself. It wasn't locked, but I thought it would be kind of rude to just come in.

"Damon?" I said Stefan's brother's name and I saw him on the other side of the corridor.

"Hi, Elena! How do you feel? Would you like to sit down?" I heard Damon said. I walked to the living room like a zombie. In my head there was a scene.

"Cute PJ's." Damon was sitting on the parapet in my room. I just came from the corridor in my home. In my mouth I tasted toothpaste, apparently I went from the bathroom.

"I'm tired, Damon."

"I brought you this." he said and I could see my necklace filled with vervain. Why did he have it?

"I thought that was gone. Thank you." I said. I suddenly remembered – Damon and Stefan just saved me from Rose and Trevor. Damon shook his head. I tried to reach for it, but Damon didn't want to give it to me and he pulled his hand away.

"Please, give it back." I felt unsafe without my necklace.

"I just have to say something."

"Why do you have to say it with my necklace?"

"Because what I'm about to say is probably the most selfish thing I've said in my life." I didn't understand why he said that. But I had a feeling. And I didn't like it.

"Damon, don't go there." I said.

"I just have to say it once. You just need to hear it. I love you, Elena." I looked in his eyes. I saw he meant what he just said. Damon Salvatore loves me. "And it's because I love you that I can't be selfish with you. Why you can't do this – I don't deserve you. But my brother does." He looked me in the eyes and kissed my forehead.

I woke up. I was lying on the couch and Damon was looking at me. In his gray eyes I saw worry and fear. I sat up and stroke his hair.

"I'm fine, Damon. It was just a flashback." But I couldn't look at him. Tears started to roll over my cheeks. Stefan's older brother held me in his arms and I knew that this was the right place to be. Because that weird feeling was gone.