Title: To You in Heaven
Type of Writing: A letter fanfic?
Summary: Doumeki's feelings about Watanuki put into a letter when Watanuki's gone.
Disclaimer: I do not own xxxHOLiC. Credits go to CLAMP.

x o x o

I hadn't known.
Why did you hide it from me?
If you had only told me would I have came along with you.
Was it that you did not want me coming?

But didn't you know? I thought you already had an idea of it.
I love you.
I love you so much that I crossed my heart that day I confessed to you;
that I will follow you wherever you go – even if you were at Mr. Death's doorstep.

From the day I met you, had you not felt a connection between us?
Opposites attract, you know? That's how we are.
You are the North, I am the South.
Though we are far apart from each other and may never get together except from a little push,
our hearts are connected.
Or were.

Who knew that you would have left me from something as plain as that?
A car. How trivial!
Don't make me laugh. I'm not in the mood for laughing.
I've never laughed to you, anyway.
But my eyes are wet now.
They pour endlessly from my puffy eyes like a waterfall.

Yuuko told me.
I won't forgive you.

You hadn't even said farewell.
I won't forgive you.

I definitely won't ever forgive you, Watanuki.
I won't.

x o x o

Doumeki folded the non addressed letter and walked over to the little fire that he put to life near the sakura tree that Watanuki once sat near. That time of mah-jong was gone now. Long gone.

He kneeled and then held the tear-streaked paper to the fiery flames and watched as it turned brown and crumbly in his hands. He dropped the remains and watched the little ashes of his letter fly towards the heavens.

Goodbye, Watanuki. I love you.


A/N: Well! If you didn't quite get it, it's really just a letter to Watanuki from Doumeki after Watanuki dies in a car accident on his way to a trip. Doumeki is stricken about his lost love. I hope you enjoyed? ~SEi

Note2: I'm not good at writing Doumeki's POV but I hope it was okay. Do review!

Note3: I re-edited it a bit and changed the name from A Stricken Love to To You in Heaven because I'm making a sequel! :O Or in this case, a reply.