Prologue

-"Come back, brother. She needs you" Seth´s voice played again and again in my mind as I ran towards home. Or where he was, anyways.

I had once believed that home would be where my beloved was, waiting for me. Not this time, because she was with him.

What would she want with me? I could not imagine. She had been very especific when she chose him, and not me. Did she not understand how I had felt when I heard she was going to marry him? Deep in my heart I had always known she would not choose me, although I had hoped, but now I know. That was precisely why I had run away. After seeing the invitation to her wedding, it was just so much.

I´m breaking the rules by sending you this his elegant script played behind my eyes. Why had he done this? Could he have known that I would run away? Could he have done it on purpose so that I would not interfere with his wedding? No, she loves her too much a nagging little voice said in the back of my mind. And unfortunately it sounded so right. I silenced it before it could tell me all the truths.

Yet I could not stop the sudden thoughts that came floding into my mind.

She could have never chosen me because I had come after him, perhaps if things had been different, if I had come before him, she might have chosen me. I would have treated her like an equal, like my best friend. I would not have left her, so hurt, thinking about her safety; I would have stood next to her for all our lives. I would have given her anything she desired.

But I would never know. Damn her bloodsucker.

She said she loved me, but if this is what love felt like, I didn´t want to feel anything.

I shook my head and concentrated on the way ahead. Paw after paw. The wind in my fur. The sound of animals all around me. Not Jacob Black, only a wolf heading back to his pack.

There was no Bella here, only nature. But you are running back to her…

No, not again. I would deal with it when I got home. There was no point in worrying now, it would do me no good.

So I kept going, trying to forget her face, her laugh, her eyes, her voice as she said she loved me. But I was running straight back to her.