A little drabble which came to me thursday night when trying to get to sleep.
I don´t have beta and english is not my native language so apologizing any errors.
Disclaimer: Not my characters, just playing with them
I can´t even think what I heard in the cave. It all just hurts too much.
I guess Pan was right when he said I would be a real orphan. At least now it really seems to be going that way. My mother want to replace me just like my first family or second I guess because my real parents are my first family really. But it´s all the same, when both are doing the same thing by getting another child. Though I get where my mom is coming with this because I´m adult, closed & damaged all the way, but I can´t help how I´m feeling. Not to mention my father. Keeping secret that he was dying and now can´t leave Neverland. So I am really losing them again, aren´t I?
And then there are Neal and Hook. I really hoped Neal to be dead. I really hoped Neal to be dead that I wouldn´t have to face all the pain for what he did to me again. And Hook saying he could love me. That really scared me, because deep down I think I could feel something for him too, maybe…
But I can´t handle this all, not now. So I better stop thinking and change my focus back to finding Henry. He is and always will be my first priority.
Note: I do want snowing to have another baby, just have to take this trip to Emma´s side of it all because that cave scene was just hit after hit to her :)
