Dear Steven,

I love ye, I really do, I'm sorry for not letting ye visit, I just want ye to move on with your life and be happy, I don't want you to wait for me all your life, I don't want to drag you down. I want you to do good in your life make something of yourself, look after you kids and keep them safe, it breaks my heart not to see to, to know that I can't touch you, hug you or kiss you, I think of you all day and night but you're so young you still have you life to live, I probably won't send this letter, it would stay under my bed with the rest of them, I guess I'm scared of what you might reply or think of me if I do.

I love ye Steven,

BB x