Disclaimer- characters belong to Stephanie Meyer. I'm just using the characters to tell a story and I figured it would be much easier to use these characters to tell this story instead of using my own name and having no one read it.
I don't mind any age reading as it gives all ages something to think about. This story will deal with-
-bullying
-mature themes;
-underage drinking
-drug abuse
-rape
-Pregnancy
-self harm
-swearing
Hi, I'm from England so sorry if I get things wrong or spell things differently also I'm writing this of my own experience and life and believe it or not I'm only 17. Please be patient with me updating as it is a hard story for me to tell. So sorry if things don't make sense or it doesn't go smoothly. I hope anyone who suffers in silence will find help in TWLOHA (to write love on her arms), they will help you. They helped me. I wanted to tell this story so that people are aware of what goes on around them because more than likely the victim will hide away and suffer in silence and no one will notice before finding help, although some don't find it at all. If you have seen the film 'speak' with Kristen Stewart in then this story is similar but believe me this one's true.
Please read and review. Also if you just want to talk. Don't hesitate I'll be happy to help although I'm not 100% still but I will help as much as I can.
Chapter one prologue-
New Year's eve, forks roads seemed to have deserted every family was together but all the teenagers from the households surrounding seemed to have disappeared they were at Jessica Stanley's summer house down at La Push. Anyone who was considered to be someone was there; the party already seemed to be in full swing at 8, Isabella Swan had been there since 4 in the afternoon she arrived early due to her mother coming home drunk and her father screaming and shouting at her for it. Bella as she liked to be called, was 12 years old she was unlike any other 12 year old for instance she shouldn't of been at this party but considering she had no friends her own age she hung round with people who were older. When she had left her house she had saw her ex boyfriends best friend, he had been speeding down the road when she was about to cross he had stopped and winded down his window and told her to come to the party at Stanley's, James was gunna be there. James Smith one of the hottest guys in town he had showed interest in Bella even though she was 2 years younger than him. That's why Bella was allowed to parties like this because of him.
It seemed even with drink down her Bella was still able to tell who were who and she had been drinking since she arrived. Jessica had let her in because of the jealousy she had wanted details from Bella on how James worked. Bella had merely told her James was the one who came to her first, this made Jessica angry and made it her priority to get Bella to tell her. Bella wanted to tell her that he may be hot to look at but there's no personality but she couldn't. She was still in love with him, most people find it stupid you can't be in love with someone at the age of 12 but Bella didn't know any different.
'This nights going to be interesting' Bella thought around 7 o clock when people started arriving. She saw people she knew people she didn't but she didn't see him.
An hour later the music was pumping you could see a lot of people were drunk and reckless people were setting up camp in the middle of the make–shift dance floor with their boyfriends it seemed no one cared what they were doing most of the girls had shredded there tops but their boyfriends didn't seem to mind Bella was sat on the sofa with a few girls she knew from before. They were passing a joint around the girl next to Bella took a few drags before looking at Bella,
''you wanna try?'' she asked
'' um I've never... I've never done it before'' Bella said loudly over the music.
''oh it's really easy you smoke right?'' the girl said leaning into Bella
''yeah'' Bella replied another habit she had picked up from being with James,
''well it's the same just go slow with it'' the girl said to her passing her the joint.
''thanks'' Bella said taking the joint, she carefully placed it to her lips and took a drag at first she didn't feel anything so she took another drag. She felt herself light headed and it seemed to take the edge of a bit, Bella smiled '' that's really good' she said before passing it on. Bella felt happier than she had done since James had told her it was over.
'' yeah take it you don't do other drugs then?''
''no'' Bella said
''wanna try?''
'' I'm not sure'' Bella replied warily
'' you can say no if you like'' the girl said to her
'' I'm gunna say no sorry just don't think I'm ready for that''
''ok, cool well come see me if you change your mind'' with that the girl stood up and left with her friends leaving Bella sat alone watching everyone else have fun.
She had been sat there a good 20 minutes before she was interrupted
''Hey Isabella'' a familiar voice said whilst sitting next to Bella
Bella stiffened and turned to look at who had sat next to her praying it wasn't him, but obviously god wasn't on her side. It was James,
''James'' she replied curtly
''oh come on Iz don't like that'' James said placing his hand on her leg near her knee.
''be like what? What do you want James'' she asked him
''Your being funny with me and I wanted to talk''
''About?'' ignoring his comment
''us...'' James whispered in her ear he moved his hand up her leg to her thigh.
Bella was shaking she couldn't get her head around what he wanted,
''what?'' feeling his hand she shuddered.
'' We left things on bad terms angel It was wrong of me to let you go'' he murmured in her ear letting his breath tickle her neck his other arm went around the back of her pulling closer
''James... please I don't understand. You said we were over finished'' Bella said confused
'' Izzy I was wrong to do that and looking at you now I know all I want is you'' James said to her
Bella turned and looked him in the eye and found she was falling for him again, James was staring back at her his one hand still on her leg the other wrapped around her shoulders.
''James'' she said leaning forward he leaned forward resting his head against her forehead ''I missed you'' James put his hand that was resting on her leg around the back of her and pulled her closer
'' I missed you too''
At that she smiled he then captured her lips in a soft kiss one that reminded her of how sweet he was, James pulled back looking into Bella's eye
''How you been?'' James asked her
''oh you know same as always'' Bella said looking away
James was disheartened at this but he didn't show it he wanted her to break.
'' I haven't seen you around school what you been doing?''
'' my mom and dad took me to Nan's so they could sort things out'' she snorted '' like that worked''
James knowing all about her family pulled her into a hug
''I'm sure it'll blow over'' stroking her hair
'' honestly I don't care anymore'' Bella sighed '' as long as I've got you'' she said looking into his eyes
'' yeah'' kissing her gently
James kept her in his arms as she was sat on his lap sideways. It was then James noticed something.
'' Iz have you been smoking?''
'' um yeah'' she blushed
'' smoking what?''
'' erm...I think it was weed.'' She replied
''well I don't want you doing that again. Understand?'' He demanded in a soft but assertive tone
'' I won't I promise'' she said scared of losing him again.
''Good girl'' He told her ''want another drink?''
''erm...ok sure?'' James got up leaving Bella alone again.
Bella looked around taking in the scene in front of her the heat from the bodies seemed to roll around the room making it feel it twice as hot as it usually would be. One thing for certain Bella knew she was only there for James. James appeared at the sofa offering his hand to Bella.
''come on'' pulling Bella outside, he gave her the drink ''drink it, it's got that vodka you like'' Bella thinking nothing funny of the drink she took several gulps of the liquid that burnt her throat when she swallowed. It was quiet for a few minutes as James watched her with a stare to finish her drink ''you might as well as drink the last bit'' James said to her as she went to the put the glass down. Bella looked at the glass and shrugged her shoulders she then proceeded to drink the rest of the glass.
James then proceeded to grab her hand and take her down to the bottom of the garden of where the party was being held at, there was not a person in shouting distance where he had taken her, Bella had started to feel weird.
''James'' she said stumbling into him '' I don't feel so good''
James smirked at this
''been about 20 mins since you had the drink right?''
Bella nodded
James' smirk widened, he pushed her against the bark of the tree he began to kiss her neck roughly moving his hands up and down her body. He squeezed her ass before moving his hand round to the front he cupped her roughly. During this Bella had lost all sense of movement she knew what he was about to do and found herself unable to move, he had her pinned against the trunk of the tree he was forcefully kissing her calling her names.
'' you fucking slut'' he had grunted into her ear before she felt a searing pain between her legs, she tried all her hardest to move but nothing worked it was like an invisible force holding her down.
Bella wasn't sure how long it lasted all she could feel was the pain all she could hear was his laboured breath and the words that he spat at her with every movement. For all she knew this could have been going for more than an hour it felt like years to her, he showed no sign of stopping and Bella tried to shout out, tried to move but nothing. Her body was a dead weight, James carried on bringing himself to the brink of ecstasy with one thought in his mind 'she will be broken' it took him a while to get her to trust him and he knew it would take a lot more than just a simple sorry for this to ever be corrected. 'Not that he wanted' he snarled his thoughts corrupt with destroying every part of her. This is what it took for him to feel relief. Once he had finished he zipped himself up and walked away leaving Bella on the floor covered in her own blood and tears.
Bella stumbled her way home, she walked up the street her shirt torn the jean skirt she wore rubbed against her thighs the pain was unbearable. Thankfully her house was less than 5 minutes up the street she got to her door and found it was open still; she crept inside not wanting to wake her mother up. Frightened of the possibilities that arguments would occur, she made it to her bedroom managing to strip of the tattered material that were once her favourite clothes she climbed into bed naked still shaking still sore still wondering what on earth had happened to make him treat her like that. It took her ages to get to sleep with the pain still throbbing between her thighs, her mind seemed to be more alive than ever as she realised before falling asleep that she would never be a child from that moment on her childhood had been ripped away from her. Eventually she fell asleep her last thoughts on her light days of just being able to be a child and have a laugh being gone, he had ripped her in more ways than one, broken everything she ever gave him and she knew life would never be the same.
