This is a rewrite of Love Lived and Love Lost. In this one it has an alternate ending please enjoy!:) - MyBl00dIsBlack


Konata Izumi and Kagami Hiiragi were sitting in Kagami's room reading manga and just chatting about random stuff that had happened over the weekend. Tsukasa, Kagami's sister, was staying at a friends and her parents and other sisters were at a retreat that their mother had won in a magazine that she always read. Kagami figured that since she would have the house to herself, she would invite her best friend, although she would never admit it, over for a sleepover.

"Yeah, after I rubbed it on though it became stinky." Kagami laughed. She always seemed to feel better when Konata was around even if the little blunette did annoy her sometimes. She actually invited her over not for just the company, but because she had this nagging feeling that she may think of the small girl as more than just a friend. Her personality just wouldn't let her admit it.

"Damn..."Kagami whispered to herself while knocking herself softly on the head. Konata looked up, puzzled, with a stick of strawberry pocky hanging out of her mouth. Kagami drooled slightly at the pocky...and the smaller girls lips...she just wanted a taste of them together just once.

"Huh? What is it Kagami?" The girl asked. Kagami's face flushed and she began waving her hands in front of her while her face was turning red.

"Nothing, nothing. Nothing is wrong at all. Why would you ask such a stupid question? Geez, Konata." She said faster than Konata could clear the 50 yard dash...which was pretty fast to say the least...The blunette suddenly grew her trademark cat-like smile and glared at Kagami.

"Oh Kagamiiiin...Who are you thinking about? Who is he, huh? Do I know him? Why is your face turning red if it's nothing? You can tell your old buddy Konata, The Great, Izumi."Konata teased the lilac haired girl. She now had a visible vein in her forehead. Her emotions had been out of control lately and she had been trying to control them...but she no longer could...She exploded with all of the intense mix of rage and love that had been bottled up inside ever since she met the small girl.

"SHUT UP KONATA! YOU DON'T KNOW MY LIFE SO STOP PRETENDING TO ACT LIKE YOU CARE. ALL YOU DO IS TEASE ME ALL THE TIME. WHAT DID I EVER DO TO YOU? I JUST TRIED TO BE YOUR FRIEND EVER SINCE WE MET AND ALL YOU DO IS MAKE FUN OF ME EVERY CHANCE WE GET. I GET IT, I'M A FAT, GOOD FOR NOTHING, WASTE OF SPACE. YOU DON'T HAVE TO GO REMINDING ME OF THAT LITTLE FACT EVERY TIME I TURN AROUND. WHAT ABOUT YOU? YOU ARE THE SHORTEST GIRL IN TOWN AND DO NOTHING BUT PLAY GAMES ALL DAY. IF ANYONE IS MORE OF A WASTE OF SPACE, IT IS YOU. YOU WILL NEVER AMOUNT TO ANYTHING AND END UP A LOSER LIKE YOUR PEDO DAD!" Kagami screamed. She clasped her hands to her mouth after she realized what she had just said to the one girl who had always been there for her. She was sorry she had said it, but there was no way to take all of that back. She looked at Konata's face and it was filled with sadness...a sadness that would devastate even the most emotionless of people...Kagami had screwed up for good this time.

"I'm sorry I bugged you all these years Kagami...I'll leave now. You won't ever have to see me again. I promise. Kagami...I just wanted you to know...I never once thought any of those things. You have always been my best friend...no...more than that. I love you, Kagami. That will never change. Goodbye." The girl cried as she gathered her things. She looked down at the last manga she was picking up. It was the one Kagami gave her for her birthday last year. She let a single tear fall onto the cover of the comic and ran out into the rain not even stopping to look back. Kagami sat there in shock. She didn't even know who she was anymore. She looked down at her hands. They were shaking violently and her breath was short and ragged.

"Konata...don't leave me...I love you too." Kagami whispered to herself as she curled up into a ball and let out all the tears she had and more. She had destroyed her chance at being happy with the one she loved and she had just found out that the little blunette had loved her back the entire time. How could she be so stupid? She nodded off while crying right where she had curled up. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

The next morning Kagami was awoken by her twin sister, Tsukasa, shaking her awake. Kagami didn't even get the chance to open her eyes, because Tsukasa grabbed her by the hand and dragged her out the door, out of the house onto the street taking her in the direction that Konata's house was in. "Tsukasa, what are you doing?" Kagami asked. "I'm not even dressed!" But Tsukasa failed to hear the older girl's word. When the girls got around the last block, arriving at the otaku's house, to see police officers and an ambulance. Kagami could believe what she was seeing, it couldn't be, Konata would never do anything like this. The tsundere ran towards the house and saw the bluenette being loaded up on a gurney into the ambulance.

"Wait, what happened!?" Kagami yelled out the police officer. "Why is she being put into that ambulance?" The officer turned around with eye of pity when he realized that the person who was asking what was going on was just a young girl.

"Are you Kagami Hiiragi?" The officer asked with a quiet voice of pity and sadness. Kagami gave a small nod, acknowledging the officer's question. "Well your friend is being transported to a hospital."

"W-why what has happened to her?" Kagami asked nervously scared of hearing the answer that was prepared for her.

"Well Miss. Hiiragi, Miss. Izumi had tried to commit suicide by the use of over dosage and is at great risk of losing her life." As the answer passed the officer's lips, Kagami eyes faded out, the world spinning around her as everything began to fade to black. "Miss?", but it was too late the lilac haired girl dropped to her knees and began to fall forward towards the ground, but was quickly caught by her little sister.

When Kagami had awoken she had realized that she was lying in a bed, tucked in a winter white blanket. When the tsundere tried to sit up a heavy force kept her from doing so, which was, Tsukasa resting her head on Kagami's chest sleeping. Looking to her left was the very person she didn't expect to see, the bluenette otaku, Konata Izumi, alive and still breathing. Kagami felt the tears in her eyes build up at the site of the one person that she loves.

"K-Konata?" Kagami whispered almost choking on the very name as she said it, as the tear began to flow down her cheek. What happens next was something even Kagami would have expected; Konata shot up from her sleep and sat up, but seemed to be way to dizzy so she fell back onto her pillow. Kagami quickly and gently got up and laid her little sisters head onto her pillow then walked over to the hospitalized otaku. The lilac haired girl took hold of the bluenette's hand giving it a good squeeze.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry I couldn't keep my promise." Konata said in a weak whisper. "I guess I'm still that waste of space." Kagami couldn't believe what she was hearing what was coming out of the other girl's mouth.

"Shut up," Kagami said as the tears that had formed now making their way down her cheek. ", Just shut up, you have no right to say that about yourself!" Kagami cried out, then she took the smaller girls hand and placed it upon her cheek to feel its warmth. Konata didn't say anything she just laid in her bed not saying a word.

"I'M SORRY KONATA, I'M SORRY, I SHOULDN'T HAVE SAID THOSE MEAN *Gasp* THOSE MEAN THINGS TO YOU *Pant* YOU'RE NOT A WASTE OF SPACE *Gasp* I LOVE YOU, I ALWAYS HAD AND ALWAYS WILL!" Kagami wailed out tears streaming out of her eyes as she dropped down onto her knees with Konata's hand placed on her forehead. Tsukasa was awoken by the sudden sound of her older sister's tears and quickly went over to her to comfort her. When everything became calm Kagami sat in a chair next to Konata, while Tsukasa sat at the foot of Konata's bed.

"I think you two should be alone for a bit," Tsukasa finally said breaking the silence. ", You two should talk things out." Kagami nor Konata said anything to the younger twin, so Tsukasa stood from were she sat and left the two girls alone to work things out. As much it pained Tsukasa to just leave her sister and friend in distress she knew it was for the best. After Tsukasa had left them alone, Kagami looked up from the floor up at Konata who wasn't looking back at her, but at a piece of paper in her hand.

"Here," Konata finally said handing the piece of paper over to lilac haired girl. ", It was mostly meant for you." Kagami unfolded the crumpled piece of paper to find out that it was a suicide note:


Dear everyone I know and love,

I can no longer be a part of this world. I have found out the one person I love hates me and wants nothing to do with me. She was the one thing that made my day at school. She was the reason I didn't just drop out. She was everything to me. As long as I could be near her, I was happy. I didn't care if we weren't together because I was happy with just being able to hear her voice and see her face every day. Nothing will ever compare to the time spent with her just laughing and joking. As I say my final goodbye to you all, just know that I will always love Kagami Hiiragi. Even in death, I shall love you. I promised you that you wuldn't need to see me again and I am keeping that promise. I couldn't bear to break a promise to the one I love.

Googdbye everyon I will watch over all of you in Heaven.

Until we meet again.

Konata "The Great" Izumi


At that moment, Kagami couldn't breathe or think all she could do is read. Kagami read the note over and over trying to process what she was reading. Konata was really serious about the things she said last night, what Kagami had said to her was the very reason that Konata was now like this.

"I'm so ashamed." Kagami began as she tightened her grip on the piece of paper tears dropping onto it. "If anything I'm the one who is a waste of space." Kagami stood from her seat then walking over to the otaku and grasped her into a tight hug. "Will you forgive me?"

"Of course I will forgive you." Konata said tears now forming in her eyes and streamed down her cheeks as she embraced the one she loves.

"You know I meant what said right?" Kagami whispered into the bluenette's ear. "I really do love you." When this was said Konata looked at the lilac in the eyes and slowly pressed her lips onto Kagami's. When Kagami didn't resist, Konata, knew that she wasn't lying and deepened the kiss. The kiss was good, but it was a little wet because of the tears that came from the two girls.

"I love you, Kagamin Hiiragi." Konata said as she parted her lips from Kagami's. It was a wonderful feeling for the otaku to finally say the words that she always wanted to say the lilac girl.

"I love you too, Konata Izumi." Kagami said back then embracing the bluenette in another hug as they began to giggle from the feeling they got from each other, which was love and happiness. "I'm glad you didn't pass away Konata."

"Me too." Konata said in return. What the two girls didn't know was that on the other side of the door was the younger twin sister, Tsukasa, who was listening to everything that was being said between the two. Tsukasa leaned against the door looking down at her feet tears pouring down her cheeks as she gave a small laugh. Tsukasa looked up at the sky with her tears of joy.

"Thank you, thank you God for watching over them." Tsukasa said. "Thank you for *sniff* saving Kona-Chan." And with that said Tsukasa was greeted by pinkette, Miyuki Takara.

"What's wrong Tsukasa is Kona-Chan okay?" Miyuki asked noticing the tears on the younger lilac's cheeks.

"Yeah everything is okay, Yuki-Chan." Tsukasa answered whipping the tears away. "Actually I believe everything is going to be much better." Miyuki didn't need an explanation to get what she meant for she already knew what she meant.

"Well that's good." Miyuki said in return. "Well we should go and congratulate them." Tsukasa nodded in agreement and the two friends entered in to the room to be greeted by the new couple.


Well that was the rewrite of Love Lived and Love Lost originaly written by PhantasmFlash

-MyBl00dIsBlack