This story was inspired by A Frenzy song Almost Lover. Enjoy!


Bella POV

My head was rested against the cold, rain streaked glass. My head phones on the highest setting, I stared off into the distance not really looking at anything. The pain of my life was everywhere, but when I put my head phones on it all disappeared. If only for an hour, the music downed out all the pain in my life.

My mother Rene had died in a car crash two days ago. She was driving to pick me up from school, the roads in Forks were always slick everyone was used to them, no one worried anymore. Until now. I was waiting in the bitter cold, the wind blistering my nose and cheeks, whipping my hair everywhere. I had called her two times asking where she was and she never answered. I finally just grabbed my book bag and pulled my hood over my head, walking home.

Flash back

I walked down the road I had come accustom to since I was eight. The wind still hurting my nose and cheeks, but I pushed through. I could disntantly smell smoke, but I shook it off. I grabbed my Ipod and put the ear phones in my ears listening to the first thing that came on.

I finally reached my chipped, white house; pulling my keys out I put the key in the slot. I opened the door and called out for dad. he came through the kitchen with a smile. I smiled back and threw my backpack on the worn brown couch and slid off my black boots.

"Hey dad, did mom forget to pick me up or something." I said pulling my knees to my chest and turning on the TV. He poked his head out of the kitchen with a confused face.

"No she let like 15 minutes ago, she probably just stopped by the grocery or something. Text her not to pick you up." He said before turning back into the kitchen. I pulled my phone out of my back pocket and started typing.

Hey, dont pick me up walked home, can you get some Reeses at the store. 3 u

I almost hit send when someone knocked on the door. I looked up and dad yelled for me to get it. I rolled my eyes, but got off the couch. I unlocked the doors and opened it. Hitting send before looking up.

I flipped my bangs out of my face before looking up. It was Paul Walsh and Henry Baker from the station. Smiling I called for dad.

" Dad Paul and Henry are here." I left the door when dad came behind me. I grabbed my boots and backpack before running upstairs in my pink socks.

I threw my bag on the floor and my boots in my always opened closet. I grabbed my laptop and logged onto to Facebook. I looked at all the status updates before going to my profile. I say almost everybody in my ninth grade class was sorry. Furrowing my brow I clicked comment on Jessica Stanley's comment.

Wat r u talking about?

I sent it and waited for a reply. I got up and took off my jacket and socks when I heard a ding from my computer. I walked over and clicked the open button when someone knocked on my door. Looking away I yelled come in. My dad came in with red, puffy eyes. I was taken back before closing my laptop and putting it on my night stand. I pulled my leg underneath me.

"Whats wrong?" I say concerned. He came over and kneeled by my bed side infront of me. He grabbed my hands and I saw two tears run down his face.

"Bella your mom went to go pick up." He said stopping to draw in a breath. I nodded my heart rate picking up.

"She was halfway there when she hit a patch of ice from the snow the other day. She knocked into the ramp and hit her head on the steering wheel." He said more tears spilling down his face. He looked down.

"Well she's going to be fine, she's at the Hospital now being treated probably laughing about her stupidity." I said in a rushed voice.

"No, Bella. She died on impact. The rescue crew tried to save her, but when they finally cut her out she was already dead. I'm so sorry sweetie." He said crying.

I pulled my mouth into a tight line. I yanked my hands away and pushed him away from me by his shoulders. He feel back catching himself on his hands.

"Why would you lie! She's coming home, I sent her the message saying to get me some Reeses. She'll walk in any minute and hand them to me and kiss you." I said rushing out of the room and down the stairs. I heard dad follow me. I got to the landing and I saw Paul and Henry still here looking at me with pitiful eyes. I ran to the door and opened it, I sat down on the worn cement stairs and waited for her. I hugged my legs close and watched the driveway.

I saw from the corner of my eye Charlie sit next to me. He wrapped his arm around me, crushing me to him. He kissed my forehead and constantly said sorry. I sat straight and kept watching the driveway.

I sat there for hours, Charlie finally got up from the wind and the snow that was now falling. He went inside and grabbed me a blanket. He wrapped a thick blue wool blanket around me. He kissed my head and told me he would be on the couch, waiting for me when I came in.

I sat there awake watching the drive all night. It was morning, the blanket had fallen from my body last night. I felt the wind hit my face and I felt the tears come to my eyes. I looked down when the first one feel from my eye. I wiped it away, but more kept falling down my face. I buried my head in my arms, full on crying; sobbing. Charlie came out and wrapped his arms around me, he pulled to his chest and just held me; cried with me.

After hours of sitting out in the cold alone it hit me, my mother was never coming back to me. My dad picked me up and carried me inside. He laid me in my bed, pulled the covers up t my neck. He kissed my head and left me. I rolled on my side and just cried and cried. I cried myself to sleep. The shrieks that left my mouth every time I cried was unbearable.


"Bella it's time to go.' Charlie said in a solemn voice. He was dressed in a black suit and his hair was pulled away from his face.

"I need to go to the bathroom." I said taking out my head phones. He nodded and walked away. I got up and walked into the bathroom.

My face was pale and my eyes were empty. I looked down and saw Charlies replaceable razor heads, I grabbed one and turned it over looking at the crisp, silver cutting tool. I didn't think about it and before I knew it my black dress sleeve was up to my elbow and my wrist was blood red. I sat the razor down and got a paper towel wet. I washed away the blood and placed a thin gaze over it. I unlocked the bathroom and rolled down my sleeve. Walking out I walked down the stair case which seemed to go on forever. I reached the bottom and Charlie put his arm around me and walked with me to the car.

The visitation was a blur. I didn't do anything but stare off into space, sitting on an ugly light yellow couch with flowers all over it. Charlie came over hours later and told me it was time for the Funeral. I got up and he led me to a large room where a there was a picture of me, Rene and Charlie. The room was filled with white roses. We sat in the front row on red itchy seats. It passed quickly, people talking about how they met my mother and all the memories they had of her. My dad went up and told how the met. For once I felt my eyes fill with tears, they fell down my face. I never looked at anyone, but my mothers casket. Her pale, dead lifeless face was imprinted in my mind.

My dad grabbed my shoulder and shook me. We walked to the limo and drove slowly to the cemetery. We got there and I sat in the front while Charlie went to help carry Rene's casket. Rene's two brothers Mark and Jake, Paul and Henry from the station, my dad and Rene's father carried her casket. The priest said some last words before he told the close family could come grab a flower from the top of her casket. I got up slowly and grabbed the only white rose. I stared at it while I turned away and sat back down. A song sudden came on from the speakers. Almost Lover by Fine Frenzy. It was Rene's favorite song. I held to the rose up to my nose and took a deep breath. I suddenly felt the sobs rack through my body. I started balling, holding the flower close to my chest. I saw everyone look at me before they started crying themselves. We were escorted out after the song ended, Charlie drove back to the house and we both went to each of our rooms. Both of us cried while we got out of the black suit and dress. I could hear his sobs from the room across the hall and he could hear mine. I threw on a large shirt and climbed into bed, clutching the white rose to my chest. I fell asleep crying, the rose close to my chest. My breathe evened out and I fell into the only peaceful place I knew, my mined.


Tell me what you think. This is a sad chapter but this is just the beginning. Charlie and Bella move away from Forks and to Chicago. They meet the Cullens and Bella falls in love with Emmett! Keep reading and enjoy! Tell me what you think!